You and your sweet, sweet lies,

I'll miss your bitter taste.

Everything had a price,

Put your hands on my waist.

  

You and your sweet, sweet smile.

Both' your hands in my hair.

You were so versatile,

Loved you like a nightmare

Your fingers make their way in my mouth, wrapped in my tongue like a gift, digging my waist and softly ripping appart my psyche.
I am unwell for you, too ripe and too ready,
The sweet ache of my teeth holding down my pleas makes itself known
What is love if not ruin

I get bad days,
when knives seem soft,
and roses dissapear.

Take me to your garden,
tell me all your troubles,
because they're all nice and simple,
they make me forget mine.

Take me to your garden,
Cut me with your thorns,
So I can see some colour,
and forget the emptiness I feel.

Take me to your garden,
let me die there,
because I'd rather fade away,
than face the outside world.

I was a girl
who believed in god
until they told me
I myself was a sin.

Nothing was true. Nothing was wrong.
Nothing was there.
and yet...
Nothing had gone. Nothing had left.
Nothing had stayed.
and yet...

I love her
Just enough
To wish
I was a man

If you announced I could live a million years,
I’d **** myself.

Every time
I whisper my love,
it becomes more concrete,
a cement between my bones,
crushing me with no remorse.

let me sleep
let me rest
Let me melt
to fit the curve
of you stomach
let me fall
let me choose
Let me crash
let me sleep
let me dream
once, just once
let me

Would you want to be immortal ?
- Never

Heaven was when you understood

I wish I could yell instead of crying.
I wish I stood my ground as you do
sharp words and cold tone
unbreakable, unmovable, unchangeable.
I wish I could hurt as you do,
I wish I could cry and apologize,
late at night, the "I'm sorry"s come,
but nothing ever changes.
I wish I were like you,
I wish I had put a limit, drawn a line, defended it with my life,
I wish I had pushed you, yelled, I wish I had ran,
Anything but this smile,
I wish I didn't forgive you,
My forgiveness is too easy,
I wish I could blame you,
God knows it could be easy,
I wish I could hate you.
But here I am.

It's raining.
I think of you.
I'm sick.
really sick.
I'm sick of people,
of beings,
of myself.
I'm sick of the bull**,
sick of the lies,
sick of being there,
sick of being alive.
Please fix me.
Complete me.
Love me.
Because I'm sick,
of myself and others.
I'm sick of everyone,
but you.

If I were a flower,
you'd be the ground
and I'd pierce your skin,
to find what makes me live.

But boys are never the ones
we see as fragile flowers,
and if I keep hurting you,
it's because I couldn't live without,
the light of your presence

My love for you never changed,
It simply faded over time.
I can feel the days in my mind,
I count the nights we exchanged.

Inside your hands rests my smiles,
Now they're gone but I can remember,
For you I'll never get better,
I'll wait and stay immobile.

Now that you've broken me for good,
I slowly fall without making a sound,
My feet are sinking in the ground,
Heaven was where you understood.

Once again,
I discover
I can't trust you.
Oh, it's not a surprise,
But it hurts everytime.
Darling can't you see
I can't forgive you anymore?

je t'aime
un peu trop peut etre
surement
je sais
j'en fait toujours trop
pour toi mais surtout
pour mon visage dans tes yeux
tes joues rouges
oh mon dieu je taime
beaucoup trop je sais
j'oublie tout, pardonne tout
tout ce que je veux
c’est du temps
une seconde
un regard
une parole
je t’aime, oh
je sais que je t’aime
je t’aime a mourir
je t’aime a rester
je taime trop
je n'y peut rien
et pourtant
je me blame
je t’en veux
un peut trop peut-etre
je n’y peux rien,
tu me hantes,
et j’acceuile ton fantôme
avec un sourire aux les lèvres.
Je t’aime,
beaucoup trop je sais,
si tu savais,
si tu savais.

I lost someone again today.
They left,
after a conversation of silence,
and a few smiles I didn't care to respond to.

It's becoming a lot easier,
to say goodbye.
I looked away,
walked away,
"thank you for everything".

And just like that,
I lost someone.

Again

if I am happy,
truly happy,
is it okay for me
to complain.

It's all so new,
this peace of mind,
I feel the need
to ruin it.

If I am happy,
truly happy,
and I make it stop
at least
you won't

see you!
He said, like was coming back.
see you!
He said, like he had ever seen me.
See you!
He said, like he knew I' d cry.
See you!
He said, and I never saw him again

Soft and sharp like a blade.
New and so familiar.
Dangerous and so desirable. 

As Harmless as a serial killer.

vomitting words
that don't really matter

Your fingers resting on my eyes,
I see red yet all is black,
You're everything I despise,
Yet you call I'm running back.

If the earth were flat, I'd walk to the end,

To see the void,

To dive into it.

did you know the sun became brighter after you left?

You say writers
don't listen.
You say lovers
don't sin

sometimes I just want to
fade away.
I do not want to get hurt
nor i want to hurt them...
I just wish I disappeared
and it became like
I never even existed

it's true.
I would love,
to like me.

Drunk and naked in the dirt,
Softly wasting all I had,
Sinking in earth's dress,
covering the screams,
with my mistakes

But you cannot leave
"for my own good"

'cause it's not your decision to make.

Quand tu me dis “je t’aime”
Ne me regarde pas dans les yeux.
Tu sais bien,
Que les mensonges me font mal

The things I create,
come from the wholes you created.
The things I discover,
I come across them running from you.

I don't want to be me because you were you.

you hurt me well
so nicely that
I could't even stand up anymore

you hurt me well
so sweetly that
there's nothing left that I want to explore

What we need is someone
you surprises us everyday.
A person, not a discourse.
I don't need you to explain things to me
I need you to lay by my side and say
"I care"

Make be bleed
over and over
until I'm ******* dry.

Break me,
before I break myself

Don't try to hold me
and turn off the lights I'm too hungover
I'll eat guacamole in the morning

When I dive into the depth of you,
breathing becomes easy.
Stay

you could never stare long enough,
but had to keep staring
to find out why
you couldn't

- Call me by your name

I miss you.
Nothing new here...

Our love has come gently,
it spread very slowly,
it took time,
until it remained.

I didn't think it would hurt this badly.
I thought I'd make it easily,
I thought I could do this without shedding a tear,
I had a glimmer of hope,
maybe just maybe I'd make it through,
it hit me all at once.

i like you when you're here
forget you when you're gone

Between my tears and your joy,
there is a grey zone,
where we both belong

Between my flesh an your bones,
there is a grey place,
where we both belong

Every time I look in the mirror
I see burns
all over my body
I see them on my stomach,
neck
in the crease of my thighs
everyone is blind to these scars
for they have sunk into my psych
There's no proof
of how bad you destroyed me
and here I am
burning someone else

to cope

Don't ask me how I feel.
Don't touch me to comfort me
And don't even think about smiling,
like you know
like you understand.
You don't.

Hello.
Goodbye.
How are you.
I miss you every second of every day
I feel broken
Come back to me, if you don’t I might die
Just say it wasn’t real. Say it never happened. Say you’re mine and I’ll forget
Surprise me. Run to me. Take me in your arms and say I love you
Love me.
I miss you.
Come back.


- Hi

who are you
that you fill my heart
with your absence

I can almost remember.
how intense was my passion.
Or was it jealousy?