I try to get clean
When I come down, I pull back
That’s when I notice the claw marks

I close the door and stare at the window as if it’s my only escape
Halfway across the room, I acknowledge the fact that I didn’t turn the lock

The world I kept you in is on fire
All of our darkest fantasies, falling down around me
The words we never said burning to ashes
I attempt to put it out but hesitation pulls me into her arms
And all that’s found in the wreckage is the note that you left

I stare into your eyes, feeling myself coming down from a high
Moving your lips, pressing them to the inside of my thigh
Craving another hit of the sweet sin you filled me with
Late nights and hotel keys, my clothes tossed in the backseat
I’m left with an insatiable taste for unholiness dressed in grace
But nothing is working and you’re a quick fix with a pretty face

Only upon nightfall does she truly feel.
Gut wrenching, heart aching, raw emotion.
The tears fall as if the drought has passed, and the earth cries, feeding her flowers at last.
It is only in the hours of darkness where her soul blossoms open, her deepest desires spilling over. She looks to the moon for comfort, not knowing whether to curse at the stars or ask them for wishes.

I hope it's raining where you are
So maybe I don’t have to feel the darkness of these clouds on my own
Drowning in my stubborn state of mind
Blinded by the thought of your hands and those eyes
All that’s left are the words we never said
Both too afraid of the battle to be won
Limerence has a finger on the trigger
My heart too big for his hollow soul
I hope you think of me, If only for a moment
I let the rain attempt to wash you away
This storm will pass