if only you knew all the nights i spent hating myself for thinking of him while i was with you if only you knew i barely ate for days because i couldn't understand why i felt empty every time we kissed if only you knew the endless apology letters i had written because i couldn't forgive myself for hurting you until this day, i still can't
how could you think i never cared how could you think i never tried how could you think i purposely had ill intentions how could you think of me this way, when all i ever did was **** myself for you but a million "i'm sorry's" will never repair the damage i've caused
i'm sorry jason. i tried so hard to feel for you the way that you did but for some reason it just wouldn't happen. it hurts that i became him, and that i did to you what he did to me. i never meant to hurt you and if i could take it back i would.