I wish for a time machine
Like to go back and wipe slates clean
The pain I would erase or at least transplant
Hurts me because I know I can't
I try accepting the way things are
Missing you safely from afar
Last summer was attached to your hip
I longed to spend every day in your grip
I'm happy you finally got what you wanted
Don't feel like it's really the treasure you hunted
My sadness my only company
Prefer the dark because then I can't see
Heart and how brokenly bruised it beats now
Happiness beautiful if you know how
To dance in the rain embracing shame
Love to me is a ******-up game
It is unknown the length of time it will hurt
Looking for saltwater stains on my shirt
I can't find proof of my sorrow
I believe a weight will lift tomorrow
I can tell suffering will soon end
Every moment a step closer til I mend
No shortcut to bliss and a calm state
We are born bawling
An inevitable fate
And die without warning
Cruel final blow
Putting end to everything we know

I decided to write
One last time
With icicles of ink
Sharpened words,
That slowly disperse
Every mean word said to me
I write
And I write
Every heartbreak
I let it flee with no fight
No tears,
Just raindrops,
No chills down my spine,
My heart devoid of fear
I take icicles of ink
I shove it in my heart
The words do not pierce,
They bleed from my pocket,
They spill,
Raw,
And pure
No frostbites
No frozen tears.

Do you realize how much you mean to me?
A genuine smile on your face all I want to see
Near to my heart hold the image of your face
It's one piece of you impossible to erase
Every moment we spend together helps carry me through
Lucky to have somebody in my life as special as you