Isn't it so funny how the things might change,
Only in a moment somehow,
And yes, that makes me so ******* really rage,
But all the things are different now.

And I thought the moving to California could save my life,
But I was wrong and now I'm falling, falling down in my past,
Don't want trying to get back to the one who I was,
'Cause I'm still broken and need someone really close.

And the fire ate everything's around,
But my own thoughts were screaming so **** loud,
And it made really crazy, I mean this sound,
But I'm still begging God not to leave on the cold ground.

She was my reason to life,
I was sinking in her every moment,
She was kind of a knife,
That can hurt you in any moment,
Her brown eyes and dark hair,
I fell in love but even didn't notice,
I was waiting for her under stair,
Just to her grandma didn't notice,
We were kissing at her sofa,
And I felt her soft hips and gentle lips,
With the taste of cherry coca,
And all I wanted is holding her tight,
Laying on her chest,
Hugging her waist,
And she was the best,
But I wasted her, I wasted.

I'm tired
I'm tired of waking up everyday,
Getting up and trying to be staid,
Listening to some music and feeling nothing,
Like i lost all the things to feeling,
Staring into the celling so lazy,
And hiding of the think that I'm crazy,
But I'm and it so ******* scary,
Because I lost myself many years ago,
And I don't know where I want to go,
Or the person I want to be,
Or who I'm now in presently,
My body is my prison,
My death is the freedom,
I just want some time,
To rest or death of mine,
I'm tired,
I'm so ******* tired.

I'm so tired of my living time,
My eyes are hurting because I just cried,
I'm trying to talk with people,
But nobody hear me, nobody is listening.

I hate myself more and more everyday,
It could be better if I wasn't born in that day,
And I'm so lonely, falling to pieces so slowly.

And I wanna die,
Every day and night,
And I just cry,
Because I can't see any light
Into my ******* burned life
And I know I'm so young,
But it means nothing,
When you just wanna die.

I'm sitting in my cold lonely room,
And at all I don't know what to do.
And I, I quit so many people,
Bet, they now are so gleeful.

Wish I could have a chance to leave me too,
Just like the way I left them then, I do.
And I'm so exhausted, ****, I hate that august.

I only fall asleep after writing some lines,
And can stay with the open eyes for hours,
Looking for some the Universe's signs,
And my desire devours me with all of the powers.

So I do everything for fame,
I want to everybody knows my name,
But I don't want to get it 'cause of shame,
'Cause I do this all for fame,
And because of my soul' s flame,
To life this is my only claim,
This is my main, my man,
My fate's stain.
I want my fame.

I forgot all the lyrics that I've done,
But for sure I can try to improvise,
Because I ain't bad in rhymes,
And time to times,
I can do something really good for fun.

She doesn't want to lose anybody,
But in the end of the road,
She will lose herself, unfortunately.

She think about others more
Than about herself,
And that's what hurt me to the core.

Bet, every day she looks at mirror
And asks it "oh, no way, is it real me?
How can I be such bitter?"

And I'm so depressed and sad,
That I can't help you and can't fix that,
And I know that all of these thinks in your head,
Are killing you everyday, I bet.

I'm laying down on my bed,
Crying in my hands, 'cause,
I can't be you are in instead,
You make me proud and applause.

Because I've never seen the one,
Who can be the strong like you,
And, my little lady, you should know, that's enough -
Being yourself to get the love that you deserve.

Even in the crowd of people
I'm feeling so lonely,
It seems like every where is evil,
I'm falling in obscurity slowly.

I feel nothing,
I feel everything,
And that's all in the same time,
And that's how I feel it all the time.

I'm so tired of living,
I know I am nothing,
Who belong to no one,
Who don't know how to have a fun.

Here's no place in the world for me,
And I even don't know who I want to be,
No chasing for my future living,
I don't have a think who I'm being.

I'm walking down at streets in the loneliness,
In awareness that I'm truly ******* mess,
Some people have a god bless,
But I'm cursed, I guess.

I'm wearing the eyeglasses and the jacket with color of the darkest night,
The sky is middle of purple and blue,
It's a little bit cold, 'cause the sun isn't still bright as it might,
I try to think straight, but I'm ******* crazy and have this clue.