I'm so sorry I lied,
It was the only place to go the only place I could hide,
I'm sorry I know it hurt,
I just never expected him to treat me like dirt,
I promise you my actions I regret deeply,
I just never thought you'd love me so completely,
I promise I'm only yours now and always,
Unless you keep up the drugs and don't care because you're in a daze,
Promise me you'll stay forever true,
And my heart will forever belong to you.

I'm finally with the man I've loved so long,
So why do I still remember you're face hitting that ****,
My heart is still closed I can not love,
Because you're still blocking my emotions my little dove,
I think he might truly be the one,
But how can I love him when I haven't gotten closure with you my feelings aren't done,
He treats me as though I'm his queen,
He was always there for me after you fled the scene,
So how can I still be caught up on a ******* like you,
Maybe when we dated you left me scared and you knew,
I want to be able to once more love like I did,
Freely and recklessly without boundaries or a lid.

When I write all of my poems I think about you,
Then I read the ones you wrote me and reminis on all the hell you put me through,
Its been over a year and four months and you still have my heart,
I still can't get over it my life is in pieces and my head ripped apart,
I know you can tell when I'm desperate to talk to you that I'm withering away,
Please send something back I know you haven't run out of words to say,
I'm begging all I need is some closure,
I can no longer fake this smile and keep my composure,
Im not yet sure how this can be achieved,
I only know I need to ease this pain and be relieved,
You think she loves you more than I,
But in reality you know she never will you're living in a beautiful lie,
All I'm asking for is a few conversations I just need a little time,
I know you still love me I write about it everyday with a rhyme,
So please give me one more chance,
Just promise me you'll stop trying to get in every girls pants.

I just want to cut and scream and cry,
But I can't I have to hide behind this smile this lie,
I have to act like I'm happy and filled with joy,
While people step on me and abuse me like an old forgotten toy,
I make sure I keep all the pain hidden well,
I keep my secrets deep down so I'll never tell,
I get ****** up to forget,
But I can only stand for so long while I'm getting hit,
I'm begging for a reprimand,
But I'm to withered to ask for a hand,
So let me end this right here,
I'm not afraid of the nothingness I have no fear.

I'm so drunk I can't think straight,
but talking to you helps me block out  all the hate,
I want to let you in,
But I can't I don't want you to know my sin,
How ****** up I am in the head,
**** I hope you're amazing in bed,
I hope we have no regrets,
You look so **** hot smoking your cigarets,
You fill me with happiness and bliss,
I feel so different when you give me a kiss,
You don't know how much I'm filled with saddness,
Or when I go crazy from my madness,
Please hold me down and be my weight,
I don't want time to go by it could be too late.

You're so scared because soon everyone will see,
How ****** you really treated me,
You used to be my sunshine,
Now you walk all over me and expect everything to be fine,
We used to have such a burning fire,
Now you're just my desire,
You don't even care for me,
But why should you when I let you free,
Free from my grasp so tight,
I'm sure it won't be long before you're cheating on your new ***** at night.

Stop longing for a happy place,
There's not one that's a pointless dream to chase,
If you want to be happy so bad,
There's only one way to do it that's being mad,
So if you want to hear about happiness here it is,
This isn't ******* show biz,
People like you and me will never be happy,
Because our lives will always be nothing but ******,
So this is my only advise,
You're happier when you don't have a life.