It’s hard not to catch feelings
And still be honest with yourself
It’s hard to take up the numbing
When you know how love has felt
And before you go
Oh, you should know
That I adore you like God has hope

Verse 1:
The corner of the dark room
Where flowers forget how to bloom
How soon is now? How now is soon?
Just another afternoon
All rise for anthems
Of empty lies and tantrums
Operas and phantoms
Burned room in mansions
Bury me

Verse 2:
The light posts on the quiet street
Haven’t been on for a few weeks
Tints and shades of black and grey meet
No hint of color has been seen
All rise for theme songs
About everything wrong
Feeling so far gone
Wake me after dawn
Bury me

Verse 3:
An iris with black dye
That match with knocked out eyes
Wake me after light
All rise for playlists
That hurt more when May hits
These feelings, I hate it
And I’d love it if we made it.
Bury me

Leave the door open just a bit
And leave the hallway light on
That’s the way you make me feel
When questions turn to nothingness
And my doubt weighs on me strong
At least I know my heart is real
We can open the door whenever you want
I’m in no rush at all, I promise you
We can open the conversation forever
And I swear you’ll only get the truth

I feel it, falling
They’re calling for my demise
Execution, I’m losing
And now I must say goodbye
I saw this coming
I’m running with closed eyes
The difference, can’t see it’s
Nothing I’d ever like
So thank you for making
Life greater everyday
You are the big door
With a light of golden beige
The distraction, satisfaction
Beyond what I’d imagine
And it’s awfully tragic how pain
Never stood a chance against your magic

I need a self-intervention
Flush any pill, destroy every weapon
Wish that my mind learned from these lessons
The more that I think, the more I’ve been stressing
Put my teeth to the pavement
All hope is gone, burned and degraded
Still questioning, “Will I still make it?”
Somehow that’s still an understatement
Drown inside of my drinking
Still over thinking, still under sinking
A paranoid android, flickering blinking
Flirting with my demons, so they thought I was winking
Build my heart like an engine
Start again, then forget all that’s regretted
Find me in the dark with the truth in confession
I need a new resurrection

So tell me things
I couldn’t know
Cause we keep running
These straight line slopes
So tell me things
I’d **** to know
Cause we keep running
We keep running

And who knew we’d
Feel pain so long
What made us weak
Will makes us strong
Made us weak that makes us strong
Who knew this pain would stay so long?
What made us weak, will make us strong

Take me back a week ago
It’s going fast, I’m feeling slow
A feeling that I can’t admit
I’m not ready for Christmas spirit
Summer heat turned to Fall leaves
Sad, with nothing left to grieve
Someday this will all go away
But I still wish that became today

I was living on borrowed time
But now I know, I’ll find my own
This felt like an unknown building
But now I know, this is my home
I wanted every answer to come
But now I know, to give it time
I used to feel an ounce of guilt
But now I know, it’s just my mind

I’m in the middle
But that is a good thing
It all feels simple
What any day can bring
I’m in the middle
Where I’m meant to be
I’m here for a while
I’ve got a life to see

I dove for affection and attention
I was a small piece of your life
Now I feed on my own acceptance
Where feeling peace brings the light
I’m not in heaven, oh no not yet
But I’ve run past the worst of my regret
I used to think this period was the answer
But I’m an afternoon before sunset

Why say goodbye when my purpose was nothing abound?
Just a reminder that someone held you as valuable sound?
It was all my choice, and curiosity is such a painful flirt.
It’s easier to forget what you’ve lost than remember what you’ve found.
I know my heart like a fugitive reveals the shadow of a bloodhound.
So don’t act like I never listened while I have only been around.
I’m just a puzzle piece of a photo that only made you hurt.
Drop the framed history on the hardest part of the ground.

To give the key to someone
Who wouldn’t hold the door
If you wanted your closure
You could have said so much more
I know my worth
That’s why it hurt
I am not a golden coat and broken core