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Krystal Mar 2023
𝕀 𝕜𝕟𝕠𝕨 𝕥𝕙𝕒𝕥 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕝𝕠𝕧𝕖 𝕞𝕖,
𝔹𝕦𝕥 𝕥𝕙𝕖𝕣𝕖 𝕒𝕣𝕖 𝕤𝕠𝕞𝕖 𝕕𝕒𝕪𝕤 𝕀 𝕨𝕒𝕟𝕥 𝕥𝕠 𝕗𝕝𝕖𝕒,
𝔽𝕝𝕖𝕒 𝕗𝕣𝕠𝕞 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕙𝕠𝕞𝕖 𝕀❜𝕞 𝕥𝕣𝕒𝕡𝕡𝕖𝕕 𝕚𝕟,
𝔽𝕝𝕖𝕒 𝕗𝕣𝕠𝕞 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕔𝕙𝕒𝕚𝕟𝕤 𝕀❜𝕞 𝕨𝕣𝕒𝕡𝕡𝕖𝕕 𝕚𝕟,
𝕐𝕠𝕦 𝕥𝕒𝕦𝕘𝕙𝕥 𝕞𝕖 𝕥𝕙𝕒𝕥 𝕥𝕠𝕦𝕘𝕙 𝕝𝕠𝕧𝕖 𝕚𝕤 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕘𝕣𝕖𝕒𝕥𝕖𝕤𝕥 𝕝𝕠𝕧𝕖,
𝔹𝕦𝕥 𝕀❜𝕧𝕖 𝕘𝕣𝕠𝕨𝕟 𝕥𝕠 𝕣𝕖𝕒𝕝𝕚𝕫𝕖 𝕪𝕠𝕦𝕣 𝕨𝕣𝕠𝕟𝕘,
𝕀𝕟 𝕤𝕠 𝕞𝕒𝕟𝕪 𝕨𝕒𝕪𝕤 𝕪𝕠𝕦❜𝕣𝕖 𝕨𝕣𝕠𝕟𝕘 𝕞𝕠𝕥𝕙𝕖𝕣,
𝔸𝕟𝕕 𝕠𝕙 𝕒𝕝𝕝 𝕥𝕙𝕪 𝕨𝕒𝕪𝕤 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕞𝕒𝕜𝕖 𝕞𝕖 𝕤𝕦𝕗𝕗𝕖𝕣,
𝔽𝕣𝕠𝕞 𝕘𝕠𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕙𝕠𝕞𝕖,
𝕋𝕠 𝕘𝕖𝕥𝕥𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕝𝕠𝕤𝕥 𝕨𝕙𝕚𝕝𝕖 𝕀 𝕣𝕠𝕒𝕞,
ℕ𝕠𝕥 𝕠𝕟𝕝𝕪 𝕕𝕚𝕕 𝕀 𝕘𝕣𝕠𝕨 𝕦𝕡 𝕚𝕟 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕨𝕣𝕠𝕟𝕘,
𝕓𝕦𝕥 𝕀 𝕕𝕚𝕕𝕟❜𝕥 𝕣𝕖𝕒𝕝𝕚𝕫𝕖 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕕𝕚𝕕 𝕗𝕠𝕣 𝕤𝕠 𝕝𝕠𝕟𝕘,
𝕒𝕟𝕕 𝕙𝕠𝕨 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕥𝕣𝕖𝕒𝕥𝕖𝕕 𝕞𝕖 𝕒𝕤 𝕚𝕗 𝕚 𝕨𝕒𝕤 𝕤𝕥𝕚𝕝𝕝 𝕒 𝕔𝕙𝕚𝕝𝕕,
𝔹𝕦𝕥 𝕤𝕠𝕠𝕟 𝕔𝕒𝕞𝕖 𝕥𝕠 𝕣𝕖𝕒𝕝𝕚𝕫𝕖 𝕀 𝕨𝕒𝕤 𝕞𝕠𝕣𝕖 𝕨𝕚𝕝𝕕,
𝕀 𝕔𝕠𝕦𝕝𝕕𝕟❜𝕥 𝕗𝕚𝕟𝕕 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕤𝕠𝕞𝕖 𝕕𝕒𝕪𝕤,
𝕒𝕟𝕕 𝕠𝕥𝕙𝕖𝕣❜𝕤 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕛𝕦𝕤𝕥 𝕕𝕚𝕤𝕒𝕡𝕡𝕖𝕒𝕣𝕖𝕕 𝕚𝕟 𝕨𝕒𝕪𝕤,
𝕋𝕙𝕒𝕥 𝕟𝕠𝕣 𝕀 𝕠𝕣 𝕒𝕟𝕪 𝕠𝕥𝕙𝕖𝕣 𝕙𝕦𝕞𝕒𝕟 𝕔𝕠𝕦𝕝𝕕 𝕗𝕚𝕟𝕕 𝕪𝕠𝕦,
𝔸𝕟𝕕 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕨𝕒𝕪𝕤 𝕥𝕙𝕒𝕥 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕡𝕦𝕤𝕙 𝕞𝕖 𝕚𝕟𝕥𝕠,
𝕨𝕙𝕠 𝕚 𝕒𝕞 𝕟𝕠𝕨,
𝕙𝕚𝕥 𝕞𝕖 𝕨𝕚𝕥𝕙 𝕒 𝕡𝕠𝕨❕
Have an amazing day I hope everyone's doing good pls like <333
Krystal Nov 2021
I stare into the mirror seeing nothing but a mistake,
A mess up,
An excuse,
A nobody,
And I take the razor and cut,
1 cut,
2 cuts,
3 cuts,
Now I've past my limits it's 8 cuts,
I bleed, and bleed,
But does anyone see me suffering?
No.
No.
No.
I've let life fill the cracks in my heart
But it was never enough so,
Here I stand in this mirror crying my eyes out
And bleeding from wrist to wrist dying but I feel this connection to Life that I've never felt before,
Now I've openly accepted death and am happy to say I see the light of the underworld.
I wrote this for people who feel rejected as much as I do so please follow for more like this.
Krystal Apr 2021
I stare through the glasses I wear,
But it's bleary,
I want to see clearly,
I don't want to see life as a blear,
I want to cry,
I feel the tears stinging my eyes,
The hood I'm wearing soaked with rain,
I run home,
And run,
"Mom" I yell.
No answer,
I'm alone,
All alone,
Blade piercing my skin,
Cutting through the skin,
Blood dripping to the floor,
1 cut,
Now 3 cuts,
Now 8 cuts,
I turn the water on in the bathtub,
It's cold, mildly warm,
I step in fully freezing,
I lay there still,
No breath,
I let the tub fill up and I turn it off,
I slide down into the water,
My lungs filling up with water,
My heart stopping on it's last beat,
My breathing stopped,
My last day has come and the water is no longer clear, it's red,
My blood,
My life,
The End has come and I don't resist the urge to let it take over,
I ended it,
I ended the suffering,
I ended the pain,
I feel more alive then I ever have in my entire life.
I am alive and I want to accept that.
My life has ended but I still feel alive more then I ever did when I was really alive.
Depression you've won.
Depression my mind haunts me like you wanted.
Depression are you happy now?
Depression?
Depression are you there?
Am I alone?
I don't hear you?
sadness and depression ***** I know
Krystal Dec 2021
You trace the lines,
You pull the string,
Their pulled together,
Like a bond of love,
Like a bond of beads,
They go together.
They break easy,
that just means be careful.

He sees ME,
He Loves ME
He wants ME,
He needs ME,
I want HIM,
Men can love each other as much as a woman and another woman + a man and a woman. Love is love don't take it away.
I love him, he loves me. SO WHAT?! Were just humans like you. (Besides me no one knows what I am I wont say!)
THANKS
Krystal Aug 2021
Me: Sadness?
Depression: No.
Me: Feelings?
Depression: Nope
Me: Do I belong here?
Depression: No.
Me: Can I die?
Depression: Yes.

2 months later after mum and dad help with the move to living alone.
Me: Hi.
Depression: Hey old friend.
Me: How do you wanna go.
Depression: Grab the knife.
Me: slowly tears fall Okay...
Depression: Slow and deep.
Me: Tears dry 'Kay.
1
2
3
4
5
and it's done.
Goodbye World.
it's just my thoughts
Krystal Aug 2021
I feel the air but where,
I felt my love tear,
As her heart came apart from mine,
I knew I was only nine,
To young to love,
Such a sweet little dove,
You were mine,
But I never had the time,
Let me go,
Like that of a sweet doe,
I've fallen,
I've fallen,
I've fallen.
I take my final breath before I give up,
And,
I fall.
just about falling in love
Krystal Nov 2021
Day's pass and I miss you
My eye's go grey as you don't text back
Love hurts
Mostly when they don't love you back,

"Mama?" me
"For the 100th time I'm not your mother" step mom
"Sorry Jessie" me
"Just go to your room" step mom
starts to cry "I'm sorry that I messed up"
runs up to my room "I hate it here, I don't wanna be here anymore"
I really wish my mind wasn't as bad as it is right now.
Krystal Dec 2021
The needles,
the thread,
they go together,
make a blanket,
a hat,
let your mind roam with it's thoughts,
Let those thoughts fill your head,
you won't feel the pain,
cuz there isn't any,
your thoughts bring you down,
you have to pull yourself together,
Like a thread,
on the knitting needle.
Krystal Sep 2021
I'm pretty sure I'm leaving,
But it feels like grieving,

"What's going on?"
"Don't talk to me, you FREAK!"
"What?"
"Go away"
"What did I do?"
"Didn't you hear her, Go away you FREAK!"

Was I turning into someone crazy I start to laugh
"Guess so" I smile.
"I am a freak, so why don't you get away from me" I laughed.
I walked into a room near the Bio Lab.
A girl with really sharp teeth looked at me.
"Hi" I smiled.
She looked at me confused "Hello?"
"Don't worry I'm just a freak, I'm pretty sure your not sane either" I smiled.
Like I said were not all Sane...
Thanks. I was feeling like a freak at school so...
Krystal Nov 2021
Walking through the school you see them,
The eyes of the people you thought love you,
Your enemy's, everything matters and it hurts
Krystal Apr 2022
Eat,
Sleep,
Gym,
sleep again,
and it starts all over again,
Putting the effort into my everyday routine,
but for what exactly?
For myself,
For others,
no.
For me,
always for me,
How I look depends on me,
No one else.
Just my choices.
working out gets hard
Krystal Sep 2021
"How much time is left"?
The only question living in my head.
"The time is"?
the last question I asked you before you left.
"Why does time slow down in all the wrong moments"?
That was MY last question before i went off the deep end.

Is that what I needed?
To feel my death?
To fear my life?
Just to see you one more time I'd die all over again.
Because it's dark down here.
In this 6 feet underground Hell.
It's dark.
It's dark.
It's just dark.
But then there's fire every hour.
And the man who laughs at all of our wasted pain.
It's dark all over again.
My love where did you go when you died?
Krystal Nov 2021
I see your teary eyes so I dress up for you,
To see you smile is all I want,
But when you said it didn't help,
I couldn't help to fear the fear of your sad smile,
I want to see you smile again and not cut,
She grabs my wrist,
I fall,
She takes me down with her,
I cut,
I bruise,
And we die Together.

-K.T.
Krystal Mar 2023
I see your eyes look at me with that disappointed look,
it hurt's but i wont let you see past the mask I hide behind.
Every time I try talking to you, you shut me down so now I'm not even gonna try because there's no point. No point to you. No point to me. No point to my useless life I'm living or I'm just a dead corpse walking...
idk-
Krystal Mar 2023
His sharp teeth,
Shinning in the light of the moon,
His voice raspy and devilish,
His smirk that make butterflies swarm my stomach.

"Vampire" was the word he used,
but everyone say's vampires are scary,
or dangerous,
He's neither of those,
he's kind, and passionate,
He doesn't even hurt people.

"Yes" his voice whispered into the darkness of the forest,
I gasped for air as I felt his teeth sink into my neck draining the blood from my body,
My body going cold,
My eye's closing slowly,
My heart beating to a stop,
My breath hitching,
My fingers limp,
and He who i thought was so kind, he,
Still draining the blood from my body.

'Vampire'
I'm obsessed with Vampire Diaries lol but I love writing sooo <3
Why
Krystal Aug 2022
Why
Why is it so hard to love?
Why can't I be perfect?
Why am I so different from everyone I see?
Can I please be perfect...at least for him?
Or at least for myself?
Why cant I see how hurt I am?
Why do I let these small things hurt me?

— The End —