In my thoughts , All the pain is very faded in the back.
Somehow I can't say I'm happy, but instead feel the pain I once felt.
I moved from my mindset but somehow the past lingers.
I smile and laugh hoping for a better future but deep down this feeling will keep perusing me to the end.

Why shall we out ourselves in a depth we cant get out of?
Why shall we suffer in order to achieve happiness we long to hold.
Why is there pain?
Why is there the deep abyss of darkness?
We blindly follow our hearts and in the end we decay like dandelion flowing through the wind.

As we proceed through the years.
We reminisce of memories we've had.
The opening window of our minds.
Smiling at how things used to be, how things changed.
Completely stuck realizing maybe its time to move past those vague memories and create new ones.
And soon years will pass and you'll remember those memories and repeat that cycle of creating again.

Whether life can feel filling or empty, there's always a vast feeling inside.
Whether you're feeling warm or cold, there's always the middle,
Slightly warm and slightly cold.
But in the end the feeling of loneliness lingers no matter what you may feel.

Time tells a story
What you've been through and what you've personally endured
A blossom in a divine tree is what you are
The branch that falls from the divine tree is what you felt during those painful reminisces.
Whether the branch falls from you no matter what you will blossom to divinity of peace and happiness.

As the wind touches you with such warmth
The Sun appears before your eyes as it hid behind the clouds
The smell of Lily's surfaces your nose
The memories of the past and pain vanishes for that moment
And it's clear that maybe a future with a new start is possible.