To want to learn how become comfortable with who it is
that you are.. within your own skin, is the firstfruit beginnings
that will lead into the healing and resolve of your inability
to be alone, and the overwhelming need of your current
emptiness to have its debilitating loneliness filled in ways
that in the long run, bring about more harm into your world
than good.
What I brought to you involves the less traveled road that leads
into true healing and resolve of this primary and current
issue of yours..
but at this point, that is not what you want.
The emptiness you will now have filled in your current way,
but it will come at such a cost.
You were built to become healed into the fullness
of who it is that you are..
and the comfort within your in skin
that fullness will bring to you..
and therefore to your whole household.
That process takes time.
It is difficult and uncomfortable.
It takes trust and the desire to truly love yourself.
I did not lie to you.
You can start again with a different supportive,
loving friend..
if you are fortunate enough to find one.
I hope for you that you do.
xox
I can hear the distant thunder
Of a million unheard souls
Of a million unheard souls
Watch each one reach for creature comfort
For the filling of their holes
https://youtu.be/Vy0LJnvWpus?si=8luWTGeDTcuz86qo
When you've done all you can
and the end is still an out of control trainwreck
God is not on the Throne..
Emptiness is,
and the subjective paintbrush
its all-consuming void creates
