**** pets, **** them for loving us unconditionally, **** them for making us care so much, **** them for leaving us too soon, **** them for making us miss them.
I write to myself I'm the one that gets I write to myself I'm the only one that cares
I have so much to say So much to put out there But nobody wants to listen I just want to share
A little bit of what's suffocating me I could record an audio for this And it would be easier for you to listen than to read But there's a lump in my throat No words around here I lost my voice So please, would you read?
I don't want to meet I want to write to you And asked why you left me But you don't want to read
And I want to ask my friend's What is wrong with me Ask what they think made you leave But they are too tired to read
And I poured And poured And then poured some more I became too much to handle To everyone
Everyone I love tells me to "just move on" But I gave you everything And then you were gone
I gave you my words I screamed from the bottom of my throat But it wasn't enough
I wrote a thousand pleas Showed every ounce of my soul And it doesn't make sense to me When I asked you to stay You left me on "read"
maybe it’s not about what i’m trying to find and it’s not about where i’m searching i might just be a square peg trying to fit myself into a round hole
i’m not made for this world the rotting brain in my head whispers secrets to me daily about how i’d be better off dead and i don’t even hang on because i want to i do it because i am too afraid that if i let go i’ll be remembered for all the things people think i am when in reality, no one should cry when i’m gone
the days keep getting harder i try to laugh because it’s the medicine i have the easiest access to but the fake smiles i paste to my face can’t replace everything i’ve lost and all that i’ve thrown away
my potential fades more and more each day and i keep getting wasted so the feelings all fade until the sun rises again and the past is replaced with more of the same