i used to have dreams of growing old and gray with you that’d we’d retire one day and find a place we wanted to stay that we’d find a way to be happy as a we but now it seems you’ll just have to be you and i’ll start being me
time stood still for us for years, at least it seemed little growth really happened from the start to now and everything between we lost track of all the things we used to dream we’d one day achieve
and i know i am like poison i sabotage everything good that tries to penetrate my heart i **** off all the good guys in my mind and keep making room for the dark thoughts and stomach knots that keep me so deeply consumed
my future plans used to all include you now the hole in my heart begins to close up but another one begins to spread and disease all my desires and hope for anything new
i am heartbroken for what i’ve done to you but don’t you feel anything? don’t you know you’ve hurt me too?
things don’t have to end ugly we don’t have to feel hate we can still let each other in sometimes it’s not too late
just remember that we were happy at one point try not to forget how much we really did love each other
i’m sorry things turned out this way but i hope you will be okay even if you tried to crush me with the hateful things you decided to say i have a lot of room in my heart and if you can behave i won’t cut you out like the tumor you’ve tried to become i love you forever even if you’ve made me numb