why?

why did she damage me?

so permanent and irreparably.

so much so that

I wake at night and struggle to breath

as her hands

wrap around my throat

and squeeze the last small breaths

out of little eight year old me.

so much so

that I can't trust

anybody.

so much so

that it takes pain

to help me feel

some sort of release.

why?

why did she have to damage me?