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Christina Hale May 2018
She is beauty, she is broken, she is flawed
She is opened, she is wounded, she is vulnerable
She has felt all this too long, her heart is clogged
She is kind, she is shy, she is unique
She is loving, she is loyal, she is convivial
When she is hurt, she is weak
She is empty, she is sad, she is untrusting of other’s
When someone constantly yells and says belittling things because they are angry at her, “did she really love me” she wonders
She is the moon, she is the stars, she is pain
She doesn’t know how someone can be so harsh and hurtful with their words, be so inane
She is the truth, she is the hurt, she is the fall
She is the adversity in us all
Christina Hale May 2018
I am hurt, broken hearted, and in pain
I am tired, fed up, and feel I have nothing left to gain
Yeah every day is so boring and it just ****
Yeah maybe I should go out and find some miserable wretch like me to ****
Yeah I want to be the miserable ***** of the earth
I’ll take it and drain it for so much of what it is worth
Someday you will feel like I ache
You wouldn’t be able to handle the **** I take
I am ******, over it, and out of it
I am bummed, crashed, and sick of this worthless ****
Yeah everybody wants me, they really do
Yeah they just want to **** me and maybe you
Yeah I want to be the miserable ***** of the earth
I’ll take it and drain it for so much of what it is worth
Someday you will all feel my pain
Someday you will all feel my pain
Like I ache
But you wouldn’t be able to handle the **** I take
Christina Hale May 2018
I’ll share my love with you
I’ll share my love with you
And if any part of you doubts it
All my love will turn those doubts to lies
Of course, I want you
But the question is do you feel the same way too

And I wonder what you do so great that I can’t stop thinking about you, want you so bad
To the point that it’s driving me crazy, driving me mad
Oh, you see me
You look at me with hope and adoration
You really do see me
You do

Sometimes I just feel so see thru paper thin
Like I’m invisible and I don’t fit in
But when you’re around I’m visible again
Well at least when it’s just us two
I’m not see thru paper thin to you
And for that I’ll share my love with you
And if any part of you doubts it
All my love will turn those doubts to lies
But sometimes I wish you could see straight thru this paper’s thinness
And see that I want you
Just look at the way I look at you
It’s so see thru
See thru
Christina Hale May 2018
What am I just some stupid peasant worker to you
Someone you can **** with and then forget about
But now your unnoticing has a left a distasteful flavor in my mouth
And now I'm angry and bitter
And I'm done with trusting my heart
I know I can be a delusionalist
But I'm also a envisionalist
But it doesn't seem to be working these days
'Cause I envisioned us ******* but that must be the delusional part taking over again
But I did envision you getting over me and not look and talk to me in that way that made me feel oh so special
But now I feel oh so invisible
So don't ******* ignore me when I'm in your peripheral vision

**** it! *******
Maldigalo! Vete a la mierda


She started this with her seductive stares and friendly touches but now the ******* chick won't even notice me anymore

What the ****, notice me
You started this and now you're gonna leave to your higher position of promotion
******* leaving  me with emptiness in this workplace
**** it! ******* for that
Maldigalo! Vete a la mierda para aquel

Us and no one else, I'll show her my love
Nosotros y ningunos otros, le demostraé mi amor

But she's got to notice me first
Pero ella tiene notarme primero

Together I thought we should be, but it's just a stupid fantasy
Junto pensé que debemos, pero su justo un a fantasia estúpida
Christina Hale May 2018
I heard that you were kind of loose
I guess that’s what you do to fit in, I see
You’re always getting wasted, I guess it makes it easier, I always tell you to slow down but you never want to listen to me
I guess I’m too pragmatic, I’m too rational for you, I see
But that can’t be
I’m too conventional, the least you expect is excitement from me
I want to be around you, I don’t want to feel like I’m being shunned too
You won’t let me get closer, you’re scared to get emotional
I’m too romantic, caressing words always spewing from me
You’re too indifferent when it comes to emotions and romance, you want to stay clear of me

So why do I feel like a fool and the one to lose when you’re nothing more than a *****
I shouldn’t feel down when you’re out ******* the entire town
You’re not worth my time anymore

Though I just have to be around you, it’s unexplainable you give me such a high
There is just something about you
I just can’t leave behind
With you I’m just trying to get in
But then I heard you ****** him

So why do I feel like a fool and the one to lose when you’re nothing more than a *****
I shouldn’t feel down when you’re out ******* the entire town
You’re not worth my time anymore

But I wish you were ******* me
******* me
But I’m still waiting
I wish you were ******* me
******* me
But I’m still following you around like a little puppy and I hate it
I wish you were ******* me
******* me
I wish you were ******* me
I’m still hoping for you to **** me and pour your emotions out on to me
I wish you were ******* me but I need to let this go
I wish you were ******* me but I just need to move on

So why do I feel like a fool and the one to lose when you’re nothing more than a *****
I shouldn’t feel down when you’re out ******* the entire town
You’re not worth my time anymore
But I wish you were ******* me
******* me
But I’m still waiting
I wish you were ******* me
******* me
But I’m still following you around like a little puppy and I hate it
Christina Hale May 2018
It's true I want her
She would be my cure
And she's coming my way
But she smiles and keeps walking by
And I
Can't live with the pain I endure
Just from being around her
My chest is tight
I can't breathe when I think about her
My stomach is full of butterflies
And I
Hold my breath when she walks by
My head hurts
These feelings are so strong, I want to cry

I know I gotta get her outta my mind, it's for the best
It's because of her I haven't eaten or gotten any rest
But what would anyone suggest
That I stay away from her unless
She comes my way and talks to me, I guess
But that's not gonna help the pains go away in my chest
But it would if we did kiss

It's true
I am blue
And I can't have her
My head hurts
And my stomach is full of butterflies
And I
Can't go on living this way
But when I see her I don't want these feelings to go away
Christina Hale May 2018
I feel like these feelings will never go away and I’ll never get over you
It seems I tried everything to avoid this situation but somehow knew I would end up hurt and alone here
I guess I’m not in your thoughts anymore, you stop flirting with me
I guess it’s better this way
Because maybe now I can get some sleep at night
You’re always on my mind but I’ll never speak of it again
I can’t get your touch, your scent, your voice off my mind
It’s in my head
So here you come standing so close to me, smiling up in my face and staring intensely into my eyes
You haven’t seen me in a while, maybe my inexistence has gotten to you
Your words, joyfulness, and excitement to see me I can’t take
This can’t be how we are
Unspoken desire and tensions filled with meaningless words
It’s like every time I see you, I fall for you all over again after I spent weeks getting over you
And I’m queasy and sick to my stomach all over again
I keep replaying the day in my head when we really connected and you said “you’re awesome and amazing”
But those days are gone and everything seems so dark now
We stop telling each other how awesome we are, it’s like we got lost in space somewhere and drifted apart
But I like how when you’re having a bad day and your face turns red and hair is messed up and makeup not on
Or how you’re not a morning person and always the last one to wake up in the morning
Your morning face is adorable
I used to consider you my favorite person
I like to get back to that place
I can’t believe you like my favorite singer
I don’t like that you get so easily upset and cry in front of everyone
But when you do, I just want to hold you
But I will never let my feelings out again
So do what you like, though I will try to be by your side
Though I must move on and be on my way unless I’ll be stuck here forever going nowhere
You have a beautiful soul
I love your smile and morning face
For me, letting go of these feelings isn't easy
But I need to get back to a calmer state of mind and sleeping peacefully
I’m still having problems with sleep

That **** summer, I spent two weeks getting lost in her
But I feel stronger now, I can move on without her
So I will have no fear we are both better than ever and still stand so close careful not to touch or let out any of those emotions
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