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A-B
UNiTY Jun 2018
A-B
lean in
soft skin
heavy stare
dark sin

yellow sky
who am i
gently lie
don't say goodbye

twisted brain
i'm insane
waiting for the dawn to reign
dusk again

so lost
there's a cost
still as rocks
you had one shot

you blew it
threw it
away
you can't renew it
ABC
UNiTY Feb 2017
ABC
Always crying
Been through *******
Called names
Done with this
Enough of Sadness
******* ****
Gone with the tears
Hate is filling up my ears
In a few days ill be away
Just calm down
Killing me
Lame.
Monumental Emotions
No more of this
Over it
People have feelings
Questioning my existence
Real or?
Sorry for it all
Too hard to smile
Unloved
Very Stressed
Why this
Xd out
Never knowing Y
Zzzzzzz forever
UNiTY Feb 2018
Every breath of sound is poetic
Every thought a dream
I believe in magic
but this is magic and more

Something indescribable
So I paint you a thousand pictures
while you sing me a thousand songs

The heavens have blessed me

I lost you long ago
I was so distraught
I thought the spirit I'd seen
That dusk in the valley village
Dancing to a melody of bells

Smiling so I could never forget

once had walked away
was forever gone

now this time
I've searched far and wide

I've found you again

Still smiling , and dancing

I hear the bells so loud this time

I can feel them
UNiTY Apr 2018
The moon would rise into the sky with the wind,
and I would fly and cast shadows upon her face
where the magical tears flowed until embrace

I never knew where I belonged
Lost from all the things for which I longed
Found that lone can be brighter than alone
And a billion treasures lie in the silence of a place;
undiscovered....

Gaia envelops me
Haya Griva
some things i cannot explain
and some things i must keep to myself
for life has brought me where i am
this is living in ITSelf

Oh and they say we walk these paths, friend.
but what if we stray away from the trails
of where others have dug up what was to be found
if we go somewhere in obsolete
we may not find anything at all but a footprint
do you see all of these footprints?

I will submerge into the ocean
I will plunge into the dark forests
i will find the things the eye would not yet beleive
and show it to the few people
who could really see
UNiTY Feb 2017
I sat
****** diner
I burst into tears
they smiled
I arose and pushed
the gentle ceramic
shattering to the floor
tea spilled about
i prefer my flask
anyways
I don't care
they can clean it up
walked across the floor
my feet now bleed
I shove on my shoes
they'll be fine without me
they don't exist
at that booth I was alone
I will not pay
my car is a beater
I slam the door
I shove the engine
I can't take this no more
I drive to the coast
it's a clear night
the moon is just rising
I wish I was happy
the people that smile are in my head
they make fun of me
for my insecurity
anxiety
I'm shaking
tears soak my shirt and my face
eyes stinging
mascara running
what is it for
there is no beauty
I reach the ocean
I leave my car
I scale the dunes
I sit by the waves
I don't wanna go back
UNiTY Mar 2018
I said I was going for a smoke
But little did she know
I wasn't coming back
Left the door unlocked
Ran away real fast
Now I'm in another state
Watching the time pass
Too fast
And too slow
Boredom and fear , slowly grow
But the love is growing faster
And stronger than ever
That's what matters
The point of the endeavor
UNiTY Feb 2017
I feel like I'm breaking
I'm together
but I'm down
break-down
train tracks
beat down
rollercoaster
life
up, down
down down
small up
long down
one step forward
four steps back
where the ****
am I headed?
dont worry about me
UNiTY Mar 2018
Every kitten is a *******

A ******* ******* I tell you

And every *******

Becomes a cat

I do say

But if you follow the cat down a rabbit hole ,

You may be the suspect of a gruesome ******.
How come I can't post this ****
UNiTY Nov 2021
Unmarked indigo
What am I looking forward to
Trying to balance
While keeping my eyes on you

Unfolding my arms to unleash
My feeling
Breathing being

I can feel you like a magnet whichever way you turn
Whether it's resistance or you can't resist the urge
UNiTY Feb 2017
I think
but sometimes the wrong things
come to mind
I think about dancing and flying in space
when they say
I should think
about
reality
I don't wanna be
here
I wanna be in the sky
soaring
not down on earth
thinking about
money
school
hate
judgemental people
hate
hate
hate
everyone just loves to hate
can i teach
haters to
love to love?
UNiTY Feb 2017
She was looking down
"Hey"
She was afraid to look up
she knew the emerald green of her eyes
would shatter
into the blue
of his
his hand met her chin
lifting her head
he looked into her soul
galaxies combining
dilation
Sapphire in her heart
electric
Forest in his soul
deep
UNiTY Feb 2017
Dear diary

can't sleep
in pain
body hurts
hears the rain
patpatpatpat
head hurts
lonely
cold
why
I'm gone
UNiTY Jun 2018
The prongs swept through my damp hair
As i plugged in the TV there was a light shock
and the blue flooded my room with a glare

I sank into the blankets
and into my head

I began to have a dream or so I perceived

Standing in front of a supermarket
In the hot sun
Waiting for my family to shop

I am watching the cars along the road, as my family's car speeds toward the interstate

Yellow lines moving beside me as i try and chase them
they never turned around

I wander down the sidewalk til i come to a small burgundy car
the windows are broken

I relax in the backseat for hours
until i pass out

I wake up and it is humid
the car is moving

Nobody is in the front seat

all of a sudden there is a steep drop and the car is pummeling down a hill into a forest of redwoods,
Crashed on the rocks

A man pulls me from the backseat

at first I feel a sense of comfort,

then his face shows, distorted, speaking ancient evil toungues

I try to grasp air and be free
next thing i remember I am awake.
Series of poems based off of my nightmares of being kidnapped ever since i was 5
UNiTY Feb 2017
This time of night i get in the flow
Words in my mind i simply
just let go
being in this place is a lifelong mind
vacation
its evident that ive got some
Californiacation

Sitting on my floor
blast the tunes and
lock the door
blaze that ****
elevate
expand
your mind
UNiTY Feb 2017
Im used to it
nobody is here
i felt feelings
but nobody comes near
death is all
i have in this moment
darkness and crying
im kinda broken
seeing the light
is what ive chosen
but its hard to stay chill
when your heart is cut open
UNiTY Feb 2017
Ripped apart
like the curtains pulled
light to dark
I'm ******* tired
but hate resides
I'm trying to love
I'm trapped
****
help me
I want to be in a prism
I'm really in prison
no bars or suits
only my room
UNiTY Feb 2017
Hands grip the bars
Let me in
Please
Let me in
scars on my fingertips
from every time
i gripped
the thorn covered iron
screaming
let me in
I'd always wanted to leave
screaming to life
oh
please let me out
but now that life was gone
how I longed to be back
but now I was here sitting on the sidewalk in the sky
I walked the stairway
so long it took
I was so tired
now that I was here
I realized it was closed
vacant
nobody was here
except
Jimmy Page
we talked about
how he had plans to take his black dog
to California
wearing his Kashmir coat
so he walked
over the hills and far away
I sat dazed and confused
I was just a fool in the rain
UNiTY Feb 2017
oh tell me
how far have I fallen
I can not see up
only for down
I have no counted every hour I've been falling
I must know
have you watched from the tree above
as down the rabbit hole
i escaped
reality
but I will always be hit in the face
metaphorically
but physical in a sense
when I realize
I cannot be
in wonderland
forever
UNiTY Nov 2021
We love
We fight and we talk
We hug and make changes
We keep growing

We love
To me it's always enough
For you and I sometimes it's tough
But love is that way

I live
For the light that your eyes when I wake
Tends to give
And I Wouldn't trade , couldn't sell it
Wouldn't leave
I can spell it
l o v e

When I see you .
UNiTY Feb 2017
I cannot see in front of me
i cannot see inside my head
i cannot think
i cannot find
the reasons
that i dread
UNiTY Feb 2017
Inhale
This
Medicine

Blazin'

Space cadet
UFO
Abductee

I feel the good vibes
UNiTY Mar 2017
Light is now
i have found my way
away from California sun
and insults
now i lay
in the snow of new england
charmed by the chill
UNiTY Feb 2017
Woke up
Laundry pile bed
stepped on a tack
messy floor
cereal
spilled milk
don't cry
made coffee
spilled sugar
ants
well ****
got dressed
shirt
backwards and inside out
brushed my teeth
not pearly quite
close though
messy bun
not quite  cat eye
liner
shoes on the wrong feet
no I'm not that dumb
skate down the street
feeling
comfortably numb
not listening or watching
*****
fell on a rock
scraped my knee
blood

I'm an imperfectionist
UNiTY Feb 2017
The melatonin wasn't enough
she closed her eyes
but they snapped back open
darkness painting pictures
suddenly fluorescent
the ceiling was alive
more so than she was
embracing nothingness
only to find herself
waiting for something
that would never arrive
she awoke
two hours it seemed
but the neon clock beamed
only two minutes
had it been twenty-four
or was she lost in her head
unsure.....
alone in the night
UNiTY Mar 2018
We all felt love from the second we were brought into this concious life
Whether we were aware of it or not
Love will always exist in one
Even if that love is only for theselves

We all felt romance from the minute we grasped another's hand
And plunged into countless lusts and short lived feelings
Soon forgotten forever
Until we stopped searching
And found what we were so distant from

Now though I have discovered something far different
Than anything I have ever felt in this lifetime

Apon realization that any glimpse of romanceful love from my past
was utterly fakes and users and hatred and stress
fake smiles and statements of affection beautified
and that what I have now found is my defninition of true love

When you love someones toes, and the way they wiggle in their slumber,
the way they carry themselves, the positions they sit in,
the tones of their voice, all of their expressions,
their personality in all of it's aspects

Somebody could read this and call me obsessive,
really I have found my favorite piece of living art
in all of his human grace, beauty, naturalistic,
and when I find something I adore,
I intend to know every inch of that beauty,
every moment of that lifespan
because I wouldn't miss each of those
Precious, Special moments for the world

In the depths of love I venture
the water is warm and the colors are vivid
the energy is bright and sensitive to the touch
it is more amazing than anything amazing
UNiTY Mar 2018
I can still see the descent from the city in the sky where we once were long ago

Watching the children dance
Hearing the flutes and bells
Lutes and spells
The finest sounds
In spirals and circles
Round and round

Night falls slowly from dusk
As we venture to the castle
Climbed them slowly
Never to fall
Into the Jester's Ball
And I remember it all

For masquerade memories
Will never fade
But stay in my mind
For'ev'ways
UNiTY Mar 2018
The feast was grand only for those of royalty
But we sipped apon the finest ciders, wines and ales in the sky kingdom

After we watched the rich feast
We began to dance , formally.
Among the elegance
We laid our eyes apon something

Far more royal and worthy than a king himself
Three men
Not  a muskateer
No knight or servant of commons
But thrice the comedy
Thrice the song
Thrice the magic
Two jesters

Aithen
Adriel
and
Audio Alchemy! !
UNiTY Mar 2018
It's not that hard to say goodbye
when you know its really only
see you later
But the problem with that
is though we may promise
life may not be in favor
of all of the things
we've set in stone

I must have faith
in the feet that would walk
if they had no other way

for my feet would walk the same
and i have faith in them

so why should i not have faith
in the footsteps
of someone who has tread longer trails
worn deeper shoes

i should
always have faith
that one day when those footsteps
fade into the sunset
that they shall return
and
a smile upon the face
of that soul
who has been near and far
and in between

If it is such a long distance
but such a short distance
for those who feel love
we should walk
side by side
until we meet again
UNiTY Oct 2017
Enter the dollhouse
Eat the sweets
Then finally maybe
The pain you will beat

Down to the basement
Drowning in the strobe
Let's be high forever
I'm never going home

Nicotine filled mornings
Waiting for the night
I'll stay for another day
Get my head set right

Crying on the Staircase
I might have lost my mind
Lost my heart this morning
Now my life's behind
UNiTY Feb 2017
dear past me
you're a ******* idiot
you broke the hearts
you caused the problems
you stayed too high
you spoke the wrong words
you dressed like a *****
even though you really weren't
you disobeyed
you caused hatred
you've also been through a lot
its been a  hard time
all of the *******
all of the pain
all of the sadness
caught in your brain
innocent young you
caught into problems
****, bro
its all passed
we can't solve em
I am the person I am today there's nothing I can
do
I love myself
so ******* thank you
(still have problems, though)
UNiTY Feb 2017
You are born
mother weeps
then smiles
a child
you are raised
alright
then
a sister
two
and older brother
as well
hardship
the foreclosure
apartment
no more farm
grandma
heart attack
saved
brain dead
mold
pneumonia
you
hospital
4 months
near death
RV
coast
side of the road
three years
"we're sick of you"
fire
sadness
loss
homeless
forest and a tent
camp stove
go fund me
not much
new RV
uncle's driveway
finally
months partying
ciggerette addiction
depression
now we hit the road
as far as Utah
now stranded
problems
broke
broke down
fight
attempt to die
trouble
train
back to
California
now I sit here
I miss them
and that's not even the half of the trouble
I've been through
since I was born
this is very personal and explains some of the hardships of my life.
UNiTY Feb 2017
Open my soul
show me real
I need to know
what it is to feel
I feel hidden
when I could be flying
I'm in this cage
he thinks I'm
like a butterfly
that needs to spread my wings
i only he
could open the door
i would fly
into the spring
UNiTY Mar 2020
Oh , to experience,
all I can remember ,
Oh, to hold the subconscious knowledge of all
that has passed through my life , I forget.

To wonder , or to just be oblivious,
to wander . or to search for home

Learning how to Learn again
how to accept all as a blessing in amends
smile upon any day
regarding how it went
UNiTY Mar 2018
Take a look at yourself
What have YOU created
Take a look at all you've done
Is it suprising that YOU made it?

All your choices, right and wrong
Don't trip on the past
YOU have learned
And you endured
YOUR future comes at last
UNiTY Feb 2017
Trailhead is far
the map is ruined
where do I go
I walk straight through
the forest is thick
falling down
scratching
blood
hurt
lost.
UNiTY Feb 2017
She spun up from her cave of dreams
Flying with her magic
She tossed the herbs and oils
Tantalizing, her fingers along the smooth wooden surface
Muttering words
only her mother would understand
similar blood
in it was magic
The bloodline was powerful
women survived
without men for ages
witches in the forests
using the ancient ways to better the survival
to transform
and to birth a new
each soul a part of the earth
with a bit of stardust too
unveiling the mystery
taught their own history
running with the wolves
not caring about the outside world
only bringing more magic
all around
but the one mage
she dares to ****** this man
really a boy
as she is a woman
but really just a girl
is she breaking tradition?
quite.
But could it be alright if the boy she loves
is also full of magic?
UNiTY Feb 2017
I call apon my mind tonight
to make me dream darkness and fright
a nightmare they say is never very light
but to be a dream is METAL and BITES
UNiTY Feb 2017
I slowly open my eyes
The fan whirring
The sun behind the gray curtains
then opened
to the sun behind the gray clouds
still luminescent upon my face
stretching into hugging myself
light caught dust particles
filtering around me
I close my eyes
wishing to wake in a different place
but only opening them again
to wishful thinking
hop out of bed
not much sun for a sunday
raindrops threaten
and then brandish their damp breeze
rainbows absent
i fall back into bed
maybe i will awaken tomorrow
to find that this place
was all in my head
UNiTY Mar 2018
She is a broken record

A broken record will repeat itself,

No knowledge that you must hear this drone.

Even if you acknowledge this crack in the vinyl

It will continue to make this repetitive sound until the moment the needle is pulled away.

I mean no harm most of the time

its just hard not to place your hands upon somebody
causing you to feel so much hatred

not for themselves

but for the things they do

She is a broken typewriter

and the writer is on the last page
they will ever write

and though all of the mistakes

were only mistakes

but with keys that click and press and print

you just cant erase

that ink will always stain my skin

it wont change the way that I am a typewriter

and a record that plays on clearly

with some spots of ink

and some bumpy tracks


She is a mess

not my mess

yet sometimes

She makes her messes

then makes those messes mine

because i make my own messes

and they fit so perfectly to blame for her own

that she gets away Scot ******* free

most of the time

and i just carry these boulders
until i can drop them at the top of this mountain

only for her to push them to the base again

what a waste of my ******* time
UNiTY Feb 2017
Deep inside my body
mind
soul
flying in no particular direction
connection to mah native roots
feeling strong and part of a group
we stand strong
we shall always rise
holding hands in
eagle strong
pride
Braids
and bead
and basket weaves
children dancing
fireside
elder tales
ancient wisdom
brought to mind
healing
adult time
children rest
we fly with the eagles
minds somewhere else
drink the tea
come of age
burn the sage
Palo Santos
feather
catch your dreams
you are awakened
carry these roots
elder speaks
circle of powerful
people
humans on the outside
souls inside we reach
No
UNiTY Feb 2017
No
I said no more
handed
another cup
i said
home
you said
guestroom
I said taxi
you said
until morning
I passed out
you stayed up
i awoke
different clothes
I felt pain
I said no
you thought yes
UNiTY Dec 2018
Anywhere I walk
Not a soul notices
Everywhere I go
I seem to dwell within
Somehow I just know
In a different dimension

I can see the people
But they cannot see me
It is now clear
That my name is Nobody ....

Nobody with a capital "N"
When nobody loves me I go within
Then the hateful words have meaning
That only I intend
Praising just the opposite
Becomes a compliment ....
UNiTY Oct 2017
It's becoming early
Not quite sunrise
But the stars will fade
With her high
Into a long drag
From a cheap cigarette
Back into sober
When she will realize
That her sadness
And her problems
Never went away , but were only masked
By the nonexistent taste of acid
The sour taste of molly
And the sting of whiskey
Running down her throat
Then back up with the coughs of blood
UNiTY Feb 2017
Try to break away
I really do try

Addiction

At least it's gone

Now distraction

Leads me to wishing


I had something else


to keep me away
UNiTY Feb 2017
outside the window, there is a sky
it is not blue
it is not bright
it is gray
just like the inside of the room
the table is solemn
the chair is uncomfortable
I wish I was outside
I stare at myself in the mirror
I know they see me
I cannot see them
why am I here
is the window real
it feels like night
how could it possibly be day
I've counted the hours
since I got swept away
the room is gray
my eyes have lost their pretty blue
to this alone
where will the rest of me
eventually
go
if you like this, check out my other poems
UNiTY Feb 2017
Inhale
Cough
Light headed
Smoke rising
Gazing grey
tobacco poison

pour
sink down
cringe
dizzy
daze
alcohol poison
UNiTY Nov 2021
Twists and turns
Learning to check my speed along each curve
So much about myself I come to find is -
actually another thing.

The little neurons , moving about
so hyperactively
that it drives me into half a day of rest

or otherwise

What have I done those moments I have impacted them
whether by a blow from the fist or the nostrils

So much has changed
no longer do I indulge in the dangers of drugs
only the safe ones that help my physical pain

Slowly learning- but not before I'm ruined , to keep my hands off myself
As not to damage what sanity I have left .

Which fortunately, Is more than I could have based on the past decade
but unfortunately, some pieces of this puzzle of a young woman are missing-

That is okay, I guess the colors in between and I scribble underneath

I play a guessing game until my loved ones remind me of the truth
When they know it

Will I Always be searching for the corners to complete it?
I really don't care much for whole complete pictures anyways
Always folding photos to hide the faces of those who wronged me, crumbling unfinished pieces of art before wondering what I could add, only to replace it with another one .

Guess it doesn't matter- though when I dig through old memories, there are some things I find that surprise me.

How much we change year to year, throughout a lifetime as people? Is it more or less person to person based on our experience?
I haven't been here in a long time . There shall be more. So much has happened since .
UNiTY Dec 2018
So many questions are asked
With the general idea that there is only one ultimatum
Truest answers masked
insisting theories factual to state em
Clueless trance for mass
Inflicting then steering all away them
From the history that really passed
It may not have gone by as fast
Textbooks built from lies no class
UNiTY Feb 2017
I pull back the strings
Sound out and it rings
violin
or shooting arrows
through my heart
the rain bow
along the strings
Red
UNiTY Feb 2017
Red
The specks in my eyes
are red
the flowers I see are red
the door I closed is red
chair I wait in is red
the blood drawn is red
the ink of the results
is red
the clouds become red
I run out the door
my face is red
embarrassment
my tears are hot
the stoplight
is blurry
and red
the bottle I buy is red
98% proof
the pills are red
my couch is red
I close my eyes and now
I see black
I hope the roses
are red
place them above
where I rest my head
i awake
"why?"
the lights are fluorescent
my bracelet is white
all I see is white

I'm better
the stop lights are green
his doorstep is shaded
my knuckles bleed
knocking
his face is red
embarrassment
his nose bleeds
red
such as the blood
they took from me
red.
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