if I’m too shy to tell you
my feelings,
you’ll know.
I’ll hide behind my thousands of masks
quietly laughing and telling you jokes
because I’m afraid
that if I tell you one small thing
my masks will fall off
and one thing will lead to everything.
I may be unexpressed but I have a lot of things
to think about.    
                    ~n.r.

There are so many things
that you can judge upon;

all I ask from you is to act as
if my soul has long since gone.

i have to accept that i was just a place holder for you
someone you came to because no one else even scratched the bare minimum
loving you with all my heart was never enough because in the end i was never what you wanted

i am a convenience

there is no answer to why

disposable
even when i dont try

my mind
knows
it’s done,
we’re over.

yet,
my heart
still beat,
it seeks

—for you

i took pictures of everything i found pretty and maybe that’s why i had a million photos of you but there was never one of me

me and you.

vs. everyone
vs. problems
vs. simple mishaps
vs. endless possibilities

me and you vs. the world

but the world was against us
we did not stand a chance.
ended up in total disaster.
funny, how the story changed

me vs. you

who wins?

I have a deck of cards you gave me
but the pack is empty
sans a few memories
and an exact-o blade
for when I'm reminded of what I am
....
I opened it today, to point the blame
at my scars
at my self
at my everything

because I said you were mine,
but I meant you could be mine,
if noone wanted to take your place
but someone has,
so just become a card in this house
and let me blow you away with my memories

It's 4:18 AM
I'm Wide awake
and the sun is about to knock off
this darkness that confines my sight.
Just like what you did to my heart
when you happen to my life.
You broke the barriers I made to protect my self
from being in pain again.
Now here I'am
never thought
I'd be happy like this
again
And it's already 4:30 AM
And the sun is about to say
hello to the world
And give the world another chance
to be better than yesterday.
like what you did to my heart
when you happen to my life.