"Living would be an awful adventure"
Said the actor in my favorite movie
Now I understand
The meaning of those words

'Cause in life we do stupid things
Things we can't do over
No matter how much we wish
Some things can happen due to misunderstandings
And misunderstandings can lead to a lot of awful things

You might end up saying hurtful things,
which you never meant
Words you can't take back
No matter how much you regret...

In the end you'll sit back
With all the hurtful things
that you've Said and done
While all the other words
Are stuck on your tongue
As the actor said
"Living would be
an awful adventure"

When my world
Turns upside down
Then he's the one
Who can bring me
Back down
To earth...

He's the unchanging element
In my dynamic world
He'll never change
Even as we get old
He'll still
Be the same...

When everything crashes
And the sky is falling down
He's a safe place
To which I can return
To get covered
From the world...

When I cry
He's at loss
And doesn't know
What to do
But him just standing
There beside me
As I cry
Is all the support
Which I need...

When I'm mad
He's all relaxed
Knowing
That it'll soon be over
And that I'll turn back
To smiling person I was
Since no one stays mad forever...

But he's also the person
Whoes presence
Calms me down
So that even when
I'm really ******
He hinders my rage
From breaking out...

And the things
Which I can't
He can do
And the things
That I don't know
He can explain
And vice versa
There's also things
Which I can teach him...

I'm the worst Dark Souls player
While he's the best
That I know
He even offered once
To teach me
How to play
I can already see him break down
As he runs out of patience...

He can make me
Laugh so hard
That I'm trying
To crawl away
From my laptop and the skype-chat
Which he's in
But in my laughter I forget
That I got headphones on...

He's not my lover
He's not any kind of partner
He's a friend
But at the same time
He's also a safe place
And sometimes I feel like home
He's the simple element
Which keeps my feet
On the ground...

I'm tired
And since I'm not eating
Then my energy
Is non-existing
I'm barely keeping my eyes open
As I type in the words
For this poem.

I'm trying not to make typos,
But it's hard when you only see
A cloudy version of the keyboard
Since your eyelids are slowly closing.

Outside people are enjoying
The sun
Which for once
Are shining over Denmark
But I'm just sitting inside
The University of Copenhagen
Occupying myself
So that there's no time
For crying

I bought myself a new book
One by Niccolò Machiavelli
I plan to read it
In the holiday
And I'm really looking forward to this
Since through the last four years
People have often recommended me
To read it...

So while Green Day's "Panic Song" is playing
On my headphones
I'll finish my poem
And return to my book
'Cause though I'm tempted
Then I can't keep wasting my time
Writing poems
Just to I keep myself occupied.
Maybe I'll take the book
And go read outside
In the sunshine...

There's two brothers
So similar
But also very different
Let me tell you
A bit about them...

One's like the day
With blonde hair
And blue eyes
He brightens up the room
Whenever he smiles...

The other is like the night
His hair is colored blue
Just like his eyes
And then have a mysterious aura
That reminds me of the moonlight...

The child of day
Makes friends
Wherever he is
While the child of night
Hides in the shadows
Observing his fellow people...

The child of day
Is always kind
And would never deny
To help a person in need...

The child of night
Is also kind
But refuses to help
If he doesn't think
That he can do it...

The child of day
Always follows the rules
Since he wants to keep everything
Just as it is...

But the child of night
Is disobedient
He breaks the rules
Whenever he can..

The child of night
Doesn't want everything to stay
As it is
He wishes for a change
And he'll fight for it..

The child of day can't understand
His lunatic brother's wish
So he fight against him
With everything he can...

The child of night
Now feels betrayed
'Cause he thought that his brother
Would understand
That he was lonely observing people
Since he didn't have the courage
To speak to them in their sleep...

The child of day
Grows a heart of stone
He think that his brother
Wants to destroy the world
And nothing
Can prove him wrong...

But the child of night
Refuse to back down
He answers sunbeams
With shooting stars
He attacks with nightmares
But the child of day
Let's the sunlight
Chase all the nightmares away...

So it continues
And even today
You can still feel
When one of the brothers
Is attacking...

'Cause when the child of night
Fires an attack
Then the child of day
Have to move back
But after 12 hours
He'll come back
Now it's his turn
To throw an attack...

Do I regret
That I let you in?
No,
I don't regret
That it was you
Who I let in.
But I regret everything
Which we have now become...

I don't regret the act done
While being afected by feelings.
Feelings which I never knew,
Before I meet you.
But I do regret actions,
Which I have done
Because you hurt me...

Because just as much
As I care about you
Just as much does it hurt me now
To see you.
I would prefer
Not to be near you
Because it hurts
When I am...

I regret the words I said in anger,
While I was being
In a hurt state of mind
Where I only knew one way
To let it all out...

I deeply regret
So many things
To write about them all
Would take forever.
But the only thing,
Which I don't regret
Is
That I let you in...

Don't make me fall for you
Please, I ask this of you
I don't want to smile the whole time
while thinking of you
I don't want to feel sad,
just because I miss you.

So please don't make me fall for you.

I hate when I say I hate you,
but I say it with a smile
I hate rolling around in the bed
without knowing why.
I hate the times when I suddenly cracks a smile,
because something reminded me of you.

Please, don't make me fall for you.

Tho' it'll hurt me, then please stay away
don't talk to me for a couple of days.
Then I might be able to
make myself move on
you told me yourself
I shouldn't wait for anyone
The "right guy" might be sitting at a bar,
but I never meet him since I was busy
falling for a guy, who's probably only playing.

So please, don't make me fall for you.

I don't want to remember him
I want him outta my head
Stop occupying my thoughts
Please, let me get some rest...

I don't want to hear his voice
Don't want to see his face
Don't want to remember his touch
I'm halfway in my grave...

I don't want to look him in the eyes
Neither do I want to talk
I don't want to get near him
I want to get away...

But since it's all memories
There's nowhere I can hide
'Cause these ******* memories
Will follow me 'till I die...

We played a game,
But I forgot the rules.
Now I'm sitting here in pain
While thinking of you.

I never planned
To break the rules.
It's just that I have a weakness
When it comes to you.

I'm shot through the heart
And I'm the one to blame.
Now my heart is torn apart
And that's the price I pay
For forgetting the rules
Of the game, which we played...

Fortryder jeg,
At jeg lod dig ind
Nej,
Jeg fortryder ikke,
At det var dig,
Som jeg lod ind.
Men jeg fortryder alt det,
Som vi nu er blevet til...

Jeg fortryder ikke handlingen gjort
Under påvirkning af følelser
Følelser, som jeg ikke kendte til
Før jeg mødte dig
Men jeg fortryder handlinger,
Som jeg har gjort
Fordi du sårede mig...

For lige så meget,
Som jeg holder af dig,
Lige så meget smerter det mig nu
at se dig.
Allerhelst så vil jeg ikke
Være i nærheden af dig.
For dette gør ondt
På mig...

Jeg fortyder ord sagt i vrede,
Hvor jeg mig befandt
I en såret tilstand
Hvor jeg kun kendte til en måde
at afreagerer på...

Jeg fortryder så mange ting,
At skrive om dem
Ville tage en evighed
Men den ene ting,
Som jeg ikke fortryder,
er,
At jeg lod dig ind....

If you ask me what I am
I will tell you
that I'm a sentence...

Please give me a chance to explain why
since this is sadly not at joke to make you smile
Instead it's one last try
to lessen your sorrow
when I *die....

Because like every sentence
my life has an end
and when I die
I won't wake again.
But unlike many I won't die old.
won't have a family
which will be left behind with sorrow.

'Cause I'll die young, I already know.
without children and somebody whom I love.
My mother might cry
My father will probably drink more wine.
But slowly, I know, that they'll move on.
The same goes for you and him.

I know your family will get you up on your feet
none of you will continue to weep
and heal slowly year after year
eventually you'll both forget
that I even was here.

In the meantime I'll just be sleeping
Peacefully, while I'm just dreaming
of the times when we were together
him, you and me, just us three

Him, who's closer to you than I'll ever be
is at the same time my only regret
because of the three words
which will be left unsaid.

Please my friend
promise me you'll be fine in the end
since I won't be able to cheer you up
and that alone almost hurts enough
to make my heartbeat stop...

Don't let him in
Guard the entrance
Don't let the door to your heart
Open again

Don't give him the key
Don't give him a hand
Keep him out
Ignore the man

You know how it'll end
All alone again
Left naked on the floor
Not caring anymore

A lifeless doll
And empty shell
Is what will be left
When he leaves you in hell

So don't let him in
Don't let him see
How much his presence
Actually means

Run away from the feelings
Don't realize that they're here
But pushing him away
Is something you don't dare

Think with your head
Don't listen to the heart
The head it protects you
From falling apart

But what if he comes closer
What if he wont keep the distance
What if he wants to know
So many different things about you

What if he wants to talk
Just to hear your voice
What if he gives you a lot
Of his sacred free-time

He doesn't bring flowers
Neither pay your bill
But the more he talks
The more you loose your will

But don't let him in
Don't let him see
How much his presence
Actually means

This is the things
Which my head says
To my confused  little heart
When it slowly awakes

I can't stop smiling
when I think of him
neither can I stop
the fact that I miss him

But though I want to get near
I better stay away
'Cause he's like a candle
and his burn won't go away

So I better not touch
I better not try
He better stay a bittersweet memory
until the end of time...

Hold me
Even if it's just for one night
Hold me
Please, I beg you, hold me tight
Don't even let me go
When you fall asleep
Just continue
To hold on to me...

For only one night
Please be mine
I want to touch you
Even if it's only
This one time
For only one night
Stay close to me until the end...

In the morning
I know you'll leave me
When the sun comes up
You'll abandon me
When first sunshine touches your face
You'll regret
All the things that we did...

I know
That I'll cry and be sad afterwards
I'm clearly aware of
That for you it'll only be this one night
I never thought
That you would have wanted to stay...

So for only one night
Let's forget everything
For only one night
Let's not let go of each other
For only one night
Let's let go of the feelings
And let's become animals
And act on our instincts...

So hold me
Don't let me go
Hold me
Let me spend the night with you
Hold me
Hold me close to you...

How do you get over a broken heart?
I don't know anymore...
What else can I do?...

I've  gotten me a new hobby
I've tried to decive myself to believe
That he's not the one
Whom I love...

I've tried to listening to music
Music always help,
But this time
I really can't pick myself
up...

Music doesn't make me happy
I have no appetite
I don't feel like sleeping
I would pefer to die
If I died I'm pretty sure
That everyone would be much happier
Mostly I..

I wouldn't be crying the whole time
I can almost fill buckets
I wouldn't have to eat
There's no taste at all
I wouldn't have to try to sleep
There's only nightmares, no dreams
I wouldn't have to hate myself
For only bringing trouble
To friends and family...

So as you can see
Everyone would be so much happier without me
Specially I would be...

So I'll ask again
How do you mend a broken heart?
When your closest friends are out the country
And you're just sitting in your room
With your curtains pulled down
Just starring at the lyrics
Which you've written on your wall...

Silence is the enemy...
Don't wanna fall in love...
It amazes me this will of instincts...
Shot through the heart...
Another one bites the dust...
Chaos rules the inner hell...

Diffrent lyrics
Different songs
Different artists
But not a single one
Can cheer me up again
Singing always help
In the shower or when I'm stressed,
But right now
I don't even want to talk...

I'm a gamer
But neither this
I want to do
My guitar gently weeps
More gentle
Than I do
It's sad since I haven't been
playing for a while...

I should be making dinner
And this poem have to end
But before I leave
I'll ask again
How do you mend a broken heart?
'Cause I've never felt this dead
And I've survived worse
Afterall, I had classmates
In elementary
Who tried to push me
Out the window
From 1st floor...

I've been beaten and spitted on,
But neither that have hurt this much
So please tell me
How do I mend my broken heart?...

All around me
These smiling faces
With kindness in their eyes
The guy who teasingly tickles me
When he comes sneaking from behind
The girl who's always ready to listen
When I'm feeling troubled
All these people
Why is it
That they care 'bout my problems?...

Every morning
We say "hello"
And when school's out
It's "see you tomorrow"
When I feel down
They try to make me laugh
If I look lonely
They'll come and hang with me

All these people
All these smiling faces
I wonder
Why do they care about me?
I too
Want to make them laugh
I too
Want  to listen
When they need it...

I want to be able to repay them
All the things
Which they have done for me
I want to tell them
How much their help means to me
I want to show my gratitude
But how to do that?
The question leaves me confused...

Missed a class?
I send them my notes
Need help with exams?
I'll free my schedule
So I can help 'em through
I want to help them succeed
'Cause I know
That they can do it...

If they need a hand
I'll borrow them my arm
If they need a laugh
Then I'll happily play the clown
If they need to speak about something random
Then I'll listen, just carry on
If they can't fall asleep
Then I'll sing them a lullaby
I would do so many things
Just to show my friends
How much it is
That they means to me...

I died
But only for some days
Then I came back to life
And made the choice
To change...

I'll remove everything
Which makes me feel
Like someone is stabbing
My heart...

I'll delete the memories
And the thoughts
Which pulls
Me down...

I won't bother about it
Anymore...
I won't worry about him
Either...

I won't let this heartbreak
Tear me apart
I'll just delete the me
Who was in love
With him...

I will go back
To who I was before
But I'll never be the same
'Cause I've learned so much
That I have changed...

But I won't worry 'bout him
Won't think about him
When I'm in school
I'll go back
To focus on my homework
And the class...

I'll patch my heart together
Lots of fishes in the sea
As my mom says
But pearls are hard to find...

I've gotten stronger
I've learned new things
About friendship
'Cause friends really are there
When you need them...

I found out
That I had a thing for
Machiavelli's politics
And that I'm actually more punk
Than even I
Would believe...

I discovered
So much about myself
These last couple of months
Crying about that
I can not...

So though I might be hurt
I'm still a little grateful
'Cause I have learned so much
From a person
Who I no longer
Know...

Simple plan once sang
"Don't wanna be told
To grow up,
'Cause I'm not gonna change
I just wanna have fun"
I've always lived my life
After these lines...

But even I have to realise
That staying true to those words
Is a harder task than I
Ever would have thought...

Because I don't know
Where life it'll lead me
'Cause some things in life
Will affect me...

So yeah, I might not want
To grow up
But neither am I
Peter Pan
I can't travel to Neverland
I'll age physically...

So one day
I'll grow up,
But that doesn't mean
That the time is now
'Cause I'm still young...

So yeah, I died
But I rebuilt myself
Now I've changed
Due to things
Which I've learned

I died,
But now I've
Returned...

Everything would be easier
If I hated you
'Cause then I wouldn't always have
To defend
You
When they talk about you...

I wouldn't have to make it clear
That I'm just as bad as you
When it comes to creating this mess
Afterall,
I could have rejected you...

Therefore I get ******
When people call me a victim
'Cause I had a choice
So there's no ******* way
That I am a victim...

But if I hated you
Then I would have spared
All the energy
Which I'm using on defending you
And that's a task
Which is really ******* me...

'Cause if I hated you
Then I would only approve
Of the awful things
Which has been said about you...

If I hated you
Then I wouldn't care about
That you're just as troubled
As I have gotten
As a consequense of this mess...

I keep telling people
That you're having a hard time
And that it won't help on it
If we keep speaking ill about the guy
Who only has as much of the responsibility
For this mess
As I...

Is it okay
If I say I love you?
Am I even
Allowed to?

Is it safe for me
To tell you?
Or will you
Break my heart
Just like
Everybody else do?

Will you still
Look at me
With the same eyes?
Or will you
Turn away
And leave me behind?

Or will you still
Smile at me,
Still talk and laugh
Like we always did?

And if I may ask
Could it be
That you like me
Even if it's just a little bit?

If you see him
Then look away
Tell yourself
That it was just your mind
Playing again
That he wasn't there
You didn't really see him
It was only air.....

And if you realize
That you actually saw him
Just a moment ago
Then just delte the thought
And let it all go
'Cause it's only if you believe,
That he was actually there...

For your heart's sake
Treat him like air
Even when he talking
Let his voice be the only
Which you can't hear
Let his laughter drown
Act like he's already gone...

Don't let him in
Don't remember
Don't let him hurt you
Don't let him control you too
Let him become a forgotten part
Of your past
Let his memory disappear
Like he was never there...

I hate you so much
That you wont believe it.
I hate you so much
That I almost can't take it.
This hate is occupying my whole day
And haunts me in my dreams.

I hate the fact that I
Follows your every move with my eyes.
I hate you so much
That you're on my mind
the whole time.

I call you Idiot,
Because I am frustrated
And doesn't know
How to express this hate.
But still,
I say it with a smile.

I hate
when you look at me like that
Since it's one of my weak-points.
Don't use this weapon against me,
I swear, I can't take it.

I hate when I feel warm inside
And when my cheeks turn red
I hate the fact that I
Can't choke the smile,
Which comes over my face when I
Look into your eyes.

I hate missing you
And I hate that I can't tell you
How much I wish to be by your side,
But if you ever ask me about this,
Then I'll refused ever to have said it.

I hate that I want to text you,
but never do I dare.
But most of all I hate the fact
That I don't hate you
Not the least at all.

Saying I love you
Would be a crime
So these three words
I'll hide
In a place
Where they can fade
Together with the feeling
To which they are labeled.

There they'll stay
Until the day
Where we can both
Look back and laugh
Over my confused
Little
paper heart...

I love you
Is the most
Terrifying words to say
If you ask me...

I love you
Is three words
Which everyone hope
That someone
One day will say
To them...

I love you
Is a way to tell
Another person
How much we care
About them...

I love you
Is three words
Which I don't think
That I'm ever gonna say
'Cause the first person
Who I honestly
Could have said these words to
He's no longer talking to me...

I love you
Is also
The only words
Which no one
Will ever say
To me
Because I am not
Worth loving...

I love you
I actually once had a dream
Where someone said it to me
In a bar
Right before he kissed me
But that was only a dream
And as we know
They rarely become real...

I love you
Even after everything that have happened
The feeling still refuses to die
And it doesn't change
No matter what I have tried...

I tried to hate you,
But it only made me cry.
I tried to speak ill about you,
But it only brought me pain in the end.
I have tried to forget you,
But everything around me
Reminds me of you.
Coffee, I can't drink
'Cause even that will kickstart the memories.
I have lost the will
To go to school
Because of the simple risk
That I might see you...

I wonder if hypnosis can help me
So I can forget
All the memories
That involves you
'Cause no matter what I do
Then I'm still in love with you...

I miss you,
but you're not here
You're on the other side of the earth
spending your days there
I want you to come home
I miss our little talks
I miss the crazy stuff
which always happens to us
but there's still a month
before you'll be back
so I'll just sit here
while missing my other half...

I'm not eating...
Eating anything
And my nights
Have all become sleepless
I don't dream anymore
There's only nightmares
My mind is getting darker
I'm starting to think
That no one cares

I'm on the edge
Slowly falling into depression
I'm torn apart
And I can't be patched
Back together
Use the glue
But it doesn't matter
No matter what you do
'Cause in my mind
I'm already dead

I'm not eating
Maybe it's just stress
Maybe it's depression
Why don't I get any rest
Thoughts are circling in my mind
Crossing distance and time
Keeping me awake
Until the next day
Comes...

I'm not perfect
I have a lot of flaws...

I'm not perfect
I make a lot of mistakes...

I'm not perfect
I get easily unsecure
Or nervous as hell...

I'm not perfect
I'm very clumsy
And also very shy,
I don't even dare to touch
The person I like...

I'm not perfect
I never said I was...

I'm not perfect
I am trouble
And a mess...

I'm not perfect
Sometimes I act
Like a *****...

I'm not perfect
In some situations
I become childish...

I'm not perfect
I have a darkside
Which I hate...

I'm not perfect
I don't believe
That anyone could
Love me...

I'm not perfect
And never
Will I be...

I'm not perfect
But aren't you
Just like me?...

I'm a human
Who does a lot of stupid things
I do know that

But I am only a human
And humans does a lot of stupid things.
Things we regret
Things which makes us proud
And things, which we want to do over

We are but men
And as men
We do a lot of stupid things
But that's how life is
And life can't be controlled...

[orginal version]
Jeg er et menneske
der gør mange dumme ting
Det er jeg klar over
Men jeg er nu blot et menneske
Og mennesker gør dumme ting
Ting vi fortryder
Ting vi er stolte over
Og ting, som vi vil gøre om igen
Vi er nu engang kun mennesker
Og som mennesker
gør vi mange dumme ting
Men sådan er livet nu engang
Og livet, kan vi ikke kontrollere....

I'm stressed
and not eating anything
My nights are sleepless
And I've become a mess
Most of the time
I'm just starring...
Starring at the wall
While just feeling empty
Feeling nothing at all....

But thanks to
What I've been through in my life
Then I'm still able
To put on a fake smile
And kick my *** outta bed
Even though I'm feeling sick.

I keep myself together
Until I get home
Then I return to bed
After pulling my curtains down.
Here I'll hide and stay
Until the next day
Where I'll have to
Put my fake smile on again...

I tried to create a distance
I tried to stay away,
but then **** happened
and here I am again.

Falling down the rabbit-hole,
but still trying to climb up.
Fleeing from this feeling,
which people call love.

I don't want to fall,
my heart, I'll hide it away
so that nobody ever can touch
or reach it again.

My head tells me
that it's right to stay away,
but everything else inside me
screams "Don't let him get away!"

So a war is going on in my head
and I'm so confused
'Cause I'll have to choose
What the hell I am going to do.

So it really happened again.
This stupid ***** never learns
from her mistakes.
****...I think I fell in love again...