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4.7k · Apr 2017
Miss You Nights
Colzz MacDonald Apr 2017
These miss you nights go on forever
Echoes from my mind, to my heart
Through my core ~
Yet they never
Whisper any notion of
When the waiting will be over

Misty coloured mornings
Gradually appease daylight hours
Into nights injuriously
Adept in loneliness.
You are not here
To wane these solitary nights
That go on endlessly

My security, is your love
A deep feeling of joyfulness
From the second
I looked in your eyes
When I saw my name
Written in your soul
On the nights - I miss you most

These are the moments I console myself with
Until the dream becomes a living reality
2.1k · May 2017
The Model Of Love
Colzz MacDonald May 2017
In this life
We have love
We may not have had
The passage of time together
The years of naivety
Youth or freshness of spirit
We have not caressed
Our younger bodies
Enjoyed the sanctity of being as one
When our skin was smoother
Our touch was softer
Our hearts were open to receiving
More congenially
A time when we may have
Chosen indiscriminately
This led us down a road that was
Perhaps
Right for the time
Yet now outgrown ~
The model of love

We have the maturity of mind
Still the tenderness of heart
Enjoying the ability to cherish
That which the Universe brings us
We have more complex bodies
That savors the relaxed
Appeasing, sensuality of love-making
Remaining as a priceless work of art
Instead of the rushed; less intense
Inexperience youth often brings
We have each other in what will be
The ultimate love of its kind
The last known to us in this lifetime
Our twilight years, may come and go
But we have love that lives on
Forever recorded in history
The mistakes of the past rewritten
Because now, in this life
We truly found ~
The model of love
~ It's never too,late~
2.0k · Apr 2017
I Won't Give Up On You
Colzz MacDonald Apr 2017
Fend off our victimisation
Our celestial visualisation
Help to keep the harmful at bay
Tell us how love will find a way
In times of ruinous meandering
When our cognitive strengths are weak
As baneful people take to slandering
I will be there just seek
I'm where you alone will find me
When my troubled times will grind me
I will seek my comfort in you
There is nothing we cannot do
The jealous, vicious, ugly hate
That others land at our door
The pain in their lives must be great
To think they can destroy our core
Life takes over it beats you down
But your accomplishments renown
The person you are in my eyes
As through the ashes you will rise
We stand, as always, together
As one potent heart forever
1.5k · Apr 2017
Nobody But You
Colzz MacDonald Apr 2017
I spend my life looking for something
To make me feel desirable or complete
It’s in my children’s smile
It’s there, as the sun will arise
It’s in my true love’s eyes
The one who touches my hand
Is who makes me understand
That love is everlasting
I want to wake to the morning sun
See, on your face, its light casting

I find in the days that we share
We have a deep and special thing
The times that we speak a while
It can make me laugh or cry
To be cherished till the day I die
You prove love is nothing to be afraid of
There’s no one else comes close enough
To the trusting things only I know
To say I love you any time or place
To the joy you bring and love you show

I know there's a better time for us
You truly made my life begin
And with you is where it will end
Sometimes things as difficult as they seem
We’ve got to fight for every single dream
We’ll have our time and love will shine
In all these things to make you mine
No one else could hold such love so true
You are everything to someone like me
As I am everything to nobody, but you
1.4k · May 2017
For This Life And The Next
Colzz MacDonald May 2017
I love how my eyes dance as they do
Especially when they see you
Think about being together
Loving each other forever
For eternity hand in hand
Love me tonight, you’ll understand

I’ll be spring if you feel winter
I’m your sweet when you feel bitter
Springtime colours, they pass us by
So beautiful it makes you cry
When spring comes walk through the flowers
Two souls as one for hours and hours

Fair-weather minds need the sunshine
True hearts show you are really mine
Deep inside your heart is a voice
It speaks words of truth, not by choice
You won’t want to think of the rest
When you have been loved by the best

It has really been such a long, long while
It really feels so good to smile
Keeping each other satisfied
Together laying side by side
As delicate as our love grows
Some people say love is a rose

How far does the universe go?
It is infinite; you should know
A higher power healed our scars
Our love is endless, as the stars
To put it all into some context
I’m here for this life and the next
1.4k · Apr 2017
The Fire In Her Soul
Colzz MacDonald Apr 2017
I see your eyes shining in the sunrise
When I wake up you’re the light to my day
Your soul beyond doubt has been good to me
Not one second of sadness comes my way

I see your face in a bright moonlit sky
I’d follow you beyond the stars above
I’d freely go wherever you take me
So goodbye sorrow, hello soothing love

Oh! how you have come and changed my whole world
Happily, I tell you how you lift me
The fire within you ignites my heart
Such beautiful devotion you gift me

It feels like I am truly coming home
When tears are just a memory I bore
My bride will come as wedding bells ring
Walk hand in hand on eternity's shore
1.2k · Apr 2017
Closer
Colzz MacDonald Apr 2017
I see the pain behind your eyes
Drowning your hopes for tomorrow
Love will wear many a disguise
To find a way through your sorrow
You feel you’re lonely everywhere
The world to you seems so unkind
All this time no one seemed to care
Your heart will show the light, you’ll find

The truth of your soul comes your way
The mind will only deceive you
Just when it seems you’ve gone astray
You know your troubles will leave you
Call my name I’ll be there somehow
Remember the love you found here
Every day when you need me now
Through the spirit, we are bound here

Falling like a star from the sky
Falling like an autumn leaf does
By your side, till the day I die
This is how falling for you was
You can hold me deep in your heart
You will remember true love’s place
When your world seems to fall apart
Think of me just stroking your face
Our true love is deeper than deep
It takes you from the burning pyre
With a little work, you can keep
The truest love you most desire
1.1k · Apr 2017
Dogs Over People
Colzz MacDonald Apr 2017
When people are people
It's the strangest thing to see
Because people are rarely
Who they pretend to be
Friends soon become your enemy
Smiles don their faces wide
They will profess to be walking
Fornent to God's side

The trickery and fakery
The beguiled full of charm
The only thing they want to do
Is cause you painful harm
The sweetness and the light they shine
Predatory as seen
A flick of a knife in moonlight
Quickly turns vulturine

If they seem too good to be true
It's no wonder, I say
Time will present that truth forthright
In a startling display
They garner an overdue curse
A soul ache deathless slay
So I'll take dogs over people
True friends in every way
1.1k · Apr 2017
You Are The One
Colzz MacDonald Apr 2017
Come my lady, let me show you
I'm the one who'll get to know you
I won't let you out of my mind
I won't let you down you will find
We'll feel like our two souls are freed
I will be everything you need

If you see the moon in the sky
Think of it as my loving eye
Looking down and connecting you
To the one who's protecting you
I'll be sheltering you from harm
So walk with me, just take my arm

Let us walk into the sunrise
We don't have to live in disguise
I will not ever let you down
In a sea of emotions drown
I'll be the one to bring you out
oh my true love there is no doubt

When you see the sun is shining
On these hearts true love we're signing
It takes you from the dark to light
From ground level we will take flight
I'll let you know how love is won
I'll let you know you are the one
1000 · Apr 2017
Have A Laugh
Colzz MacDonald Apr 2017
Many a song has been written about the girl
Stating how the sweet love of two will unfurl
How beautiful she is outside and under cover
She means the world to the one who loves her
There's a song,
That beautifully describes your cognitive thrill
It's by a band called Cypress Hill
And it goes,
"Insane in the membrane
Insane in the brain"

Because if you think I'm masquerading as two
There's something not quite right about you
Yes, there was a closeness of friendship new
But that didn't mean there was anything true
There was none of that other business mind
I think you'll see I'm not that way inclined
Your jealousy and spitefulness has to conclude
Your insanity is venomous and beyond rude
There's nothing, I repeat nothing, wise about you
When you present so many lies about you
You wouldn't know how to be a child of the Lord
You wouldn't know diddly about The Word
You can sit in church and praise all day long
It don't make you a Christian singing that song
Any less than sitting in a garden on my ****
Makes me blossom, I'm not the **** rosebush
You need to be locked away and kept an eye on
That acidity burning inside is what you'll die on
Your dissecting of the human soul by half
Now has me shaking my head
At how sad you are instead
It's not funny, *but you gotta laugh
Ranting poetry is not my style this is more of a pisstake of a true situation. More like a therapeutic release. Please indulge me on this one as *poetic licence*
991 · Apr 2017
Late Departures
Colzz MacDonald Apr 2017
I conclude that I hate the world today
Everything people are and what they say
They speak no kind words by gesture or sound
There is no common decency around
People are not nice like they were before
I hate that there's no respect anymore
We are seriously lacking dignity
To a human race no affinity
We're all offended or aggravated
Whilst we act so cold and calculated
There's very few out there who won't pretend
Everyone's an enemy to a friend
We are ultimately in regression
Forcing ourselves into an oppression
Like we've gone back to the days of the cave
Not so the Stone Age ways should we enslave
Is it all about tearing someone apart?
Does anyone have love left in their heart?
Don't mean to be unkind
But if you wouldn't mind
I'd like to step off the planet now please
We are giving such little guarantees
I will take you with me
If you would like to see
An end to this ****** scrutinising show
Time to leave ~ to somewhere *only we know
Anyone have a TARDIS laying around they're not using at all? I was told to ask for The Doctor?
923 · Apr 2017
Just Like Me
Colzz MacDonald Apr 2017
I’m found on the edge of the night
Lying on the ground, on cold concrete
Like a fish out of water
Waiting for someone to put me where I belong
Or suffocate among the rapturous vultures
Gathered round in glee ~
Ostensibly, I was born here
Yet everything seems foreign
The people, the cars they drive
The things they do everyday
I’m overzealous in my thoughts
Of who I am
Where I am
Why am I here?
What am I supposed to do?
Nothing feels real anymore
If in fact, it ever did
Like E.T. left behind
Wanting to go home
I see nothing familiar when
Through these streets, I roam ~
Everyone seems to take it in their stride
It’s all so natural for them
It is not so normal for me
I go on pretending I am living, not dying inside
No one sees the real me ~ lost and alone
No one gets inside this soul, you see?
Then I get to thinking
Are everyday people pretending? Just like me
Is everyone as in control as they appear?
Or are they faking it too?
The only thing true of the big lie
Faking it or not in this life
No one will get out ~ *alive
This is something I wrote a while back, and never really gave it a title... if you have any better title suggestions... I'd love to hear them.
870 · Apr 2017
How To Beat Your Demons
Colzz MacDonald Apr 2017
All your friends are demons, I think I know
The past won’t let you settle as you grow
You don’t feel you can make life-changing moves
Half your life to fighting terrors you lose
There’s little you can do to take control
Put your smile hidden in a pigeonhole
Your emotions decline into freefall
Let’s give your heart and soul an overhaul
I can give you all the tools you will need
The hunger that dwells inside I will feed

I can give you love and trust hereafter
I can turn the pain and tears to laughter
I’ll help reach in to find the real you
Harmonizing with congenial you
We will fight, we’ll curse, we’ll scream, we will cry
In this war it’s only the past will die
Now and then, when they rear their ugly head
I’ll be there to put those demons to bed
When you say maybe I don’t understand
I will simply be there to hold your hand
~ You are not alone ~
701 · Nov 2017
Seeking Rapture
Colzz MacDonald Nov 2017
The love of a woman
Is paramount to life, as he breathes it
One must die to oneself
Before rapture takes over in copious amounts
Inside an embittered heart
Where a mind of morbid thoughts rely on
The earth revolving around its axle
As the soul seeps heaven lost to a physical realm
Forgotten are the languid moments
Of perfection not found in this land
Those only held in humankind
The act of freewill
Kills completion of mind, body and soul
Doomed to failure in a world controlled by greed
Supported by power hungry demons
Sent to diminish the goodness
We only find in our visions of Nirvana
We can only dream of such fulfillment
Until we cross over beyond a material world
Where eternal rest seems so inviting
Peace will bring equilibrium
Love will be of a higher quality
...
O sweetest death...
How I long for you
Is the true love we feel, even possible to live out in this life?
692 · Jun 2017
When Time Stood Still
Colzz MacDonald Jun 2017
Far beyond the Universe lies
A vision of love, sweet disguise
Within the limits of this world
The truth my amour you unfurled
Didn't know a thing about it
Belief in it, I would doubt it
Till time stood still

I was living, but not alive
Landed, but never did arrive
Alone amongst seven billion
Just a faceless civilian
Felt like I just had to shout it
No love existed; so flout it
As time stood still

And there among heavenly stars
Somewhere between Venus and Mars
Such wonders the Universe done
Here I found my beautiful one
How can my heart be without it
Love I feel your heart will scout it
When time stood still
My world you fill
When time stood still
My soul you thrill
*~ When time stood still ~
689 · Nov 2017
I Am Me
Colzz MacDonald Nov 2017
You may not see
The person you once knew
But rest assured
I still remember you
I might somehow seem forgetful
How that makes you feel is regretful
Locked inside are the reflections
That are in temporal displacement
Though I still remember you
In my own absent little ways
No matter what the effects of age
Objectionably says
I had a life
A career, a family
I created your memories in my wake
All I need are helpful reminders
For all sanity sake
Don't give up
Don't put the blame on yourself
Or on me; for the cards I have been dealt
I'm scared - I'm alone - in the fear I've felt
Remember, I can never be gone
If in your hearts - I live on
The disease is in control now, you see
Behind those dementia eyes
Where my remembrances hide
I am still me
678 · Apr 2017
Love Needs No Disguise
Colzz MacDonald Apr 2017
Pull me
             c
                 l
                    o
                        s
                           e
                               r
Kiss my lips with the passion you express
Let me push my body on yours
Feel locked together securely
No one can compare to this love
That's getting stronger all the time
I want to run the back of my hand
Gently down your cheek
I want to
                s
                   l
                      o
                         w
                             l
                                y
Undo the buttons of your blouse
Let those jeans fall to the floor
Slide my hand inside your underwear
So that we can be naked together
Forever, sensually, softly, lovingly
Cement our love over and over as we become one
Husband and wife
For all of this life and the next
On each of these nights
As the moon provides the only light in the window
I can lose myself in your sighs
Stronger together, weaker apart
Love needs no disguise
629 · Jul 2017
Evergreen
Colzz MacDonald Jul 2017
Take my hand
Walk with me in dreamland
Talk to me
There will always be
These precious moments together
I will show
More than you know
A love so strong
Can never feel wrong
More than words that last forever

Feel my love
Enchanted from above
Given to
Always be with you
More than I could ever prove
You’re the one
Heaven spun
I believe
I conceive
The gods fervently approve

My soul will sing
More than anything
Of the beauty
Doing its duty
The most gracious love ever seen
Wherever you are
I’ll be near, not far
You won’t lose sight
Of me day or night
This seed of love grows evergreen
577 · Nov 2017
Love Solicitous
Colzz MacDonald Nov 2017
She is the essence of my heartbeat
The oxygen in the air I breathe
I'm missing her here in my life
I'd do anything to see that smile
I'd walk to see her mile for mile

I cannot fight these feelings anymore
She made me believe in love
I cannot wait to see her again
Anything she needs I will get her too
It is an honour to love her as I do

One day, I will have the courage to tell her
Of the joy she brings into my soul
A joy that travels over any mountain
A love that travels any ocean wide
Yet here it stays forlorn in my foolish pride

That way this love won't bring the drama
It remains sweeter than the finest wine
It is my solace since the day she landed
If only she knew, I'd never desert her
If she knew, would sweet love convert her?

The blustery remnants of a cold, dark past
Mar the golden sunshine of true love's find
Here beyond the crescent moon of pity
These secret feelings I harbour alone
Will never find their desired home
~~ not so much unrequited more undesired... easier that way ~~
565 · Apr 2017
Hello
Colzz MacDonald Apr 2017
We danced around our feelings
Somewhat lacking the emotional prowess
To move forward and say what each of us
Needed to hear.
We longed for that inkling of acknowledgement
From a distance, far and wide
From an echo felt hollow inside
Awaiting the response that confirmed
“It must be love”
And yet ~
...........One simple word created a story
...........One destined to live
Beyond the infinity of the Universe
Lifetime...........after ...........lifetime
In this world ...........perpetually...........reborn
*'Hello'
557 · Feb 2018
Your Narcissistic Valentine
Colzz MacDonald Feb 2018
I tried to buy a Valentines
Then I really did not
I definitely thought about it
Still positively not a lot
It is harshly overrated
A complete waste of time
It may not be complicated
Exactly like this rhyme
So not hard to buy something
As a token of my care
There really is nothing
No present out there
Paying money for a card
Is an expense too far
Romance is not truly barred
When your partner is a star
Be thankful for the pleasure
Of my company here each day
Love speaks beyond measure
When you’re romantic in the right way
I did not buy you a Valentines
I am sure your displeasure mounts
Still, I had thought about it
And you know…
…it is the thought that counts
540 · Apr 2017
Fallen
Colzz MacDonald Apr 2017
Everything you say and do
Seems to hit a chord deep inside
My words break your heart
Like whispers of honey bees
Floating round the flowers
Taking the pollen and the goodness
To make something beautiful
Is this how you feel about me?
When my words create a world of wonder
A place of sanctuary
To fulfil your dreams each night
The longing and despair
Am I right in saying
Is because I'm not there?

So how would you take it?
If I said I've fallen in love with you
Would you be real or fake it?
Could you say you love me too?
If I had to start over again
I'd want it to be in your arms
I want to be your everything
Enwrapped in your tender loving charms
534 · Jan 2
Time Won't Heal
We are sequentially adrift
in time’s light motion
embroiled in the obscure darkness
which turns into a lavish midnight blue
deeper than the ocean
that will define these oppressed hearts

Age endures
and if we could roll back the years
can we go beyond measure?
to question blatant morals
or do as we’re told?
fervent in sublimity,
when so bold

We are locked in dream-filled fantasy
where we find devotion
lost in our epoch
so we can rise above
the memories we shared
it is not enough
when they say time will heal,
it won’t work for love
~**~ unrequited, reproved, or simply the cruel joke that life likes to pull on us ~**~
486 · Apr 2017
Freedom
Colzz MacDonald Apr 2017
O sweet melancholia
                                                  ¬                   Why do you taunt me so?
                                                Why do you look for me in still waters?            
When I am willing to be happier than ever
The escapism from your clutches
Never seems to materialize
The ache that dwells within a sombre mind
A pure heart
S
          T
                 I
                         L
                               L
Dwells there
You cannot haunt the fearless for long
As quietly
And predominately
I will turn my back on you
One day, you shall atone for your haunting moods
And on that day...
..... I shall be vindicated ~
I am going to be free
Forevermore
450 · Nov 2017
A Fond Peccadillo
Colzz MacDonald Nov 2017
Love, by design, is miraculous
It's purpose is to remove
Any sudden paroxysm of rage
Drawn from the tangled web of emotion
Spun from fear, resentment and despair

Making the pledge of a heart
For a lifetime of loyal dedication
Seems futile, when somewhere down that road
You lose everything you long for
Destroying the fortified souls of angels

It seems so easy for you to walk away
Hide behind your languid affection
While apathetic to my spiritual desire
Completely oblivious to the damage
The black heart you own is doing

Turn back the clock to a time
Before I can remember you
Perhaps, take me in a different direction
Our worlds will not collide
If I never even know you

If all that’s open to me
Is the fear of being exploited
I shall revert to the disconsolate
Bewildered state I'm comfortable with
At least, if it were possible, I could

It's ironic that through these crestfallen years
Cruelly, no one but you can dry my tears
~**~ Little is achieved by setting yourself up as a pawn in someone's game every now and then ~**~
438 · Dec 2018
For Christmas...
Colzz MacDonald Dec 2018
For Christmas this year, I’d
like all those who are missing
back home safe
I’d like the lost and lonely
to find themselves again without trying,
safe in the knowledge they are loved and needed.
Those fake power hungry people who
destroy other’s lives – just because they can
the corrupt politicians who take from
the mouths of all those ordinary
families who are struggling to live
to be held accountable and a change comes
I wish each family all have ample
to thrive contently, this Christmas.

You, the weak and the listless
to find inner strength, so that you
may rise like the phoenix
in the blaze of glory, you burn
brightly shining orange and gold.
This year, end all world wars
send all the boys and girls home at last.
For me and all those people like me
will you bring a little happiness
so we may all find our place in this world?
can the orbit of life
echo this in all of us
this year, and every year, for Christmas...
429 · Apr 2018
I. Verity
Colzz MacDonald Apr 2018
Laying in the dark                        ¦   longing for your touch
Our hearts and minds lost          ¦   in devotedness
Tender memories                         ¦   of us together
How I long to feel                        ¦   again your sweet caress

Close my eyes, I see                     ¦   over distant shores
Where the whitest doves            ¦   soar in perfect flight
I hear deftly call                           ¦   to my heart and soul
When you're away                      ¦   your cry in the night

Everlastingly                                ¦   I can feel you close
And I will find you                     ¦   deep within my heart
Where heaven is fond                ¦   of all we create
In virtue of it                               ¦   we're never apart

And now these arms ache         ¦   to embrace you still
In a tender kiss                            ¦   we shall lock our lips
Sitting side by side                     ¦   As we often do
Your soft hair flowing               ¦   through my fingertips

Waiting with the sun                ¦   as morning rises
In my burning heart                 ¦   I cherish you true
The warmth through the miles¦  finds us as it planned
Wherever you are                      ¦  I'll be there with you

Because forever                          ¦  I hold you only
I will be the one                          ¦  You long to be near
You can't stop your heart          ¦  beating just for me
Our eternity                                 ¦  Will make it so clear

Reality is not truth
It's how you feel reigns supreme
Close your eyes to be with me
In veritable slumber, we *dream
427 · Nov 2017
Echoes of Disturbia
Colzz MacDonald Nov 2017
Lowly, ornery moments, viciously crusade
Whispering damnable, through tempestuous winds
Seeking the core being of auspicious people
To wreck the wholesomeness they hold
Without merit; without claim; only with lurid enmity

These satirical shadows lurking
Crave our every fallen promise
Of living a full life of exemplary character
So they can manipulate susceptible thoughts
For their own ghoulish behaviourism

The tacky underhand played by cruel intentions
Mystifies the drunken stupor of our senses
Who strive to live abjectly without fear
In the torrid aftermath of our foolishness
Are left the maudlin remnants of our self-esteem

When harmony within us is weak
Tomorrow is left to renew
The rambunctious craze of melancholia
Hiding behind contemptuous eyes of disturbia
Propensely echoing through our minds
~••~»» some people seem hell bent on creating drama, hurt and destruction in their wake. Determined to corrupt decent souls who just wanna get on with this thing called life ~••»»
402 · Jan 2019
Fly On With Pride
Colzz MacDonald Jan 2019
I heard the news today that you passed
Our Heavenly Father has you cast
In a play of angelic proportions
Made you pure from life’s distortions
As we grieve in our different ways
Our memory of you forever stays

I remember our day we had in a northern town
With sincere gladness, as you take up your crown
Retrospective moments I treasure all my life
As you lay at peace from your recent strife
I will think of you often with warmth and charm
So you rest well, my friend away from all harm

Your poetic words often struck a chord
And in life, you were rewarded for your word
Our chats over music, poetry, culture and esprit
Showed your enthusiasm for people like me
I only wish there is an opportunity for goodbye
I shall send my spiritual presence to the sky

In this lifetime there is but one of us to know
In your time on earth you had so much to show
There’s a heartache, as time closes in
A time of healing for us to begin
So fly on with wings that soar far and wide
In how you touched this life, fly on with pride
For a fellow poet David Swinden, also known as DarkDave in some poetry circles... sweet dreams as you rest, my friend
394 · Jan 3
The Concept Of Love
Open to our inner desires
We want to find true affection.
Hoping such emotion is real.
With our heads in the clouds
We don't anticipate,
The imperfection
Or the human situation.
Before the errors
We frequently make.
We experience,
All the turmoil and drama.
We continue to chastise.
Even despise,
We tolerate and normalise,
An entire world of suffering.
In contrast to the vision, we see.
Do we truly know?
The path love will go.
How to have sincerity
We're not sure where to start.
Absorbed in the vision of
The idealism of the heart.
I've concluded.
Life isn’t what –
We imagine it to be.
The concept of love
Is stronger than –
The reality.
Always the dreamer
369 · Jun 2018
IV. Miracle
Colzz MacDonald Jun 2018
Mystery surrounds the echoes of my mind
Words of forgotten prose I simply cannot find
A memory misplaced in this ever growing scenario
Of hopelessness
Sorrow and impulsively acting like a half demented child
Not able to advocate the needs and wants it expects from me
This is you in retrospect
An unfulfilled moment that spread into a lifetime
A woman so rigid she has no soul but for herself in that second
A listless pitiful attempt at loving someone like me
Whoever I might be
The one always excreted on from an enormous height
Spurned out like wasteful matter at the speed of light
From a heart so disassociated from what we once called a miracle
Yet in amongst the ruins, I’m the one who’s cynical?
351 · Nov 2017
Lovers Renascence
Colzz MacDonald Nov 2017
I focus on a destined space -
I see you there -
You shine with that smile on your face
True love - I swear

Whenever I feel low or lost -
I reach for you -
Two people who become star-crossed
The girl I knew -

The longing and ****** desire -
Inflames my soul -
Being with you - takes my life higher -
A divine role -

I have known you from lives gone past -
We are reborn -
Perhaps we will get it right at last -
As we have sworn -

Far beyond the midnight sky of night -
We sing -
Flying into early morning light -
On wing -
336 · Apr 2018
II. Duplicity
Colzz MacDonald Apr 2018
Goodnight my love
I speak to you each night
Whispering to the echoes
Of the moon, reverberating
Mindlessly around the stars
Desperate to find your heart
Though my devotion never rests there
Cast aside like a discarded tin can
Once used to consume nourishment
As my heart was to provide you sustenance
No longer required for your life journey
Yet still I dwell on past glories
Fill my head with long dead stories
To remind me of the only one
Whoever seemed to mean something to me
Even though I mean nothing to you at all
The end comes bitterly
Though welcomed at the time
To stop the miserable existence
Of feeling so worthless
As I know I've always been to you
Love is only true
Because it travels one lane down a two way street
Only idyllic memories
Cover the dire consequences
Of a partnership reaped in deceit
329 · Jun 2018
III. Pretend
Colzz MacDonald Jun 2018
When I think of the sorrow you caused
You accepting what is in your life
It’s seems easier than the truth
Even if there’s nothing else there for you
You have no care in what you do
Your treatment of me is incomprehensible
Your deceit is all you need
It gives you a sense of duty
It gives you purpose, it gives you drive
To keep your bitter heart alive
Still amongst the ashes
Of what was once a burning love
Is the desire to ignite a flame
Even when it’s difficult to say goodbye
The fire should be allowed to die
I think that God may let you hurt me
More and more if I allow
I think that he’s teaching me a lesson
That I will be unhappy, as you rejoice
Until the day comes I have no choice
But to let you go
As only I will know
When it’s time to say –
…. this is the end
For now –
I choose to live in pretend
327 · Jun 2017
You Take Your Chance
Colzz MacDonald Jun 2017
The time is now
The happenstance is palpable
The feeling inescapable
Of this fake row
Coincidence and irony
Will belittle such harmony
So take a bow

The outcome staged
Life is a ball of confusion
Charm the key to the illusion
Emotions raged
Like pangs of flawless buggery
Fading in the skulduggery
Empathy caged

A manic mind
In truth, it feels rather subtle
A melancholy rebuttal
To your vain kind
I shall fall and rise once again
I will be victorious then
The heart is blind

The end of time
Frees the burning desire inside
Sleeping dogs lie holding their pride
The clock will chime
Your life seems lost in the sorrow
There’s not always a tomorrow
So pay your dime
316 · Jul 2017
Visions of Everlong
Colzz MacDonald Jul 2017
I was lost to the wilderness
Until you came ~ in you I am found
You gave me hope beyond measure
When you turned my world around

I was sobbing like a child inside
I was oblivious I did not know it
My heart ~ a soldier alone in this war
Wounds heal in love as you show it

Eternity is a step away from freedom
Where we shall garner our harmony
The obscurity of life can't expend
The truthfulness of our destiny

You dance across forever ~ pirouetting
Gracefully releasing all negligence
You glide in my soul echoes of peace
My cacoëthes lost in your elegance

I am home when I am in your arms
I only hope you'll stay by my side
You brighten my days you fill my nights
As dreams of everlong souls abide
311 · Jun 2017
Stronger As One
Colzz MacDonald Jun 2017
Here I am, I'll stand by you
I can give you verity
Like the dream you made come true
For all the joy you bring me
Faith in the love from your heart
Never let me fall apart

I'm the one to hold you up
I can see you through it all
Troubles try to fold you up
Won't let them make you feel small
I'm your voice if you can't speak
I'll be bold, if you feel weak

When I can't see, you're my eyes
You're the wings to make me fly
You are the truth through the lies
The hand that touches the sky
I am grateful for each day
Where my inspiration lay

Through the dark, I'll be your light
You were there for me always
There is no star lost tonight
As we meet in life's hallways
I don't know much that may be true
But I know I'm blessed with you
282 · Nov 2017
Burning Desire
Colzz MacDonald Nov 2017
A robin bobs by my door sometimes
To me it remains true
It often appears throughout all climes
I mostly think it's you

When I look at the clouds in the sky
Angels are a given
Somewhere out the corner of my eye
There's a little heaven

Your respectful, adoring style
I see your pious face
I catch myself moony in a smile
Feel your loving embrace

Your caress, have I imagined it
Do I see what I want
Your emotional attachment bit
My soul forever haunt

You never know what you mean to me
There's hurt in your green eyes
This love of ours, surely meant to be
With me, there's no disguise

Whatever my heart is always yours
I can't stop how I feel
If your heart brings nothing that assures
It's how the cards will deal

Fantasy more than reality
Seems a good place to live
It gives purpose and vitality
With nothing left to give

The Universe holds no notion
I have to learn
So there may be no devotion
Sought to return
I feel an abstruse emotion
From you to burn
Who needs love like that
271 · Jun 2017
Don't Stop The Dance
Colzz MacDonald Jun 2017
This appetite for you is insatiable
The piquant taboo of being together
I cannot explain why I feel this
Mindful opulent sentience
The drive of forbidden desires
On lonely street each day.
There is a light of ferocity
There in your anxious eyes
There’s a lull in the air.
You want to close off
How you feel in your heart
But, my love
There’s no need for your despair

There’s not a minute, hour, day or night
I don’t think of or feel you inside
Even if I shouldn’t be with you
There is a sense I could be
As undoubtedly
It seems to justify why
Being one is more than a feeling
Shouldn't we be alone this way?
I learn more about myself
I am so lost without you
You raise me up
Whenever I fall
You support me in all certainty

It’s hard to explain this connection
The reasons why we can’t turn away
We are in too deep to let it go
We have to dance through the fears.
The comfortable feeling of our life
Distracting by its security.
We found something that is real
The one thing worth taking a chance on
These dreams are not fleeting impulses
They are our guide to what we should do.
I need you because I love you
The music in our hearts will play
Today, tonight, forever and always
Colzz MacDonald Jul 2020
When the walls are closing in
I don’t know where to begin
That old M.A.S.H theme song
Ringing in my head
A presentience of ~
You’re better off dead
Those who are supposed to love me
Abandon me in my time of need
Persecute me, when I’m vulnerable
Their evil shines ~ such wicked deed
As more of me gets lost
Here, I count the cost
There are no avenues of hope
To cling to
No vision. No scope.
No nightingale to sing to
They leave me with nothing
They revel in my despair
Is there anyone genuine out there?
Once again, I’m picking myself off the floor
I simply cannot do it anymore
My eyes dimmed and dry
This world is not for me
Where do I chose to die?
I’m waiting by the sea....
Tonight is the night
60 · Jan 3
The Indigo Child
A mood indigo falls
In solitary
Oceans of emotions felt
In my heart

Where echoes sound,
The beating of tormented
Desecration of the true spirit
Borne from vainglory

A potent distraction comes
From escaping woes
Engaged in war
Devised for my ruin

And when I awoke
To the conceited
Futile actions
Of an egoistic condemner
Flying monkeys
Fleet to justify
Stipulated misery,
All-in vain support

A mood indigo falls
In solitary
Healing for the strength of my
Frantic soul
I know you believe I have no right
To tell you that I still love you.
However, even if I kept it to myself,
I would still feel it, so what good would that do?
I feel like you are always changing
And, I know I don’t feel the same
When all is said and done
Love is such a trying game
There has never been one like it
Designed so no one will win
There has never been an end
So how do we know where to begin?
We fumble and we fall
We fail to seek our eternity
However, it has a place and time
Like some lecherous fraternity

'Love you to the moon and back'
A diamond shining in the sky
This is merely a fantasy
A small-perpetuated lie
Where we find love
It should be simple, true, and kind
Is this where that phrase comes from
When they say that ‘love is blind?’
We give too much of ourselves to people
When all we seek is deep inside
We need to look for love within us first
The only place it can never hide
We face our trials and growth is not easy
Through the pain of where we need to go
Because if we don’t love ourselves
Then looking for love is just a show

As I let, you linger in my mind
You, the one in love, I lost
I am counting all my misery
Instead of the truth of what it cost
I lost myself to the one thing
I fought so hard to seek
Instead of making me strong
All it did was make me weak
I forgot the golden rule of thumb
We don’t find love, we attract
They say you draw love to you
Some believe this is a fact
But when I leave this mortal coil
And I journey to wherever we go next
I will have a few questions ~ not least of all
Can you put love into some small context?

— The End —