i love him
he loves her
i want him
he always wants her
she is perfection
i'm just me

There are not many souls as beautiful or broken.
Tormented by depression no one completely understands,
you fight through the fog of every day.
I wish you could see what I see.
You always remembered my birthday-
even though you were self medicated with beer.
You took me to dances
and always gave me the most beautiful corsages -
each and every time.
I dried all the flowers you gave me
and kept them through the divorce and my remarriage.
(now our son sends me flowers
that I dry and keep with yours-
he truly is the better part of you)
I also remember the fights -
only now realizing you weren't fighting with me,
you were fighting your demons.
I think I will cling to the good.
Our son is one of the most amazing men on the planet.
You predicted he would be an athlete -
when he took his first steps.
I only wish your illness would have released
its grip long enough for you to make his games.
High school, college, two years pro ball
Your illness only released its grip once.
One game out of hundreds.
Your excitement to see fans
wearing the name you gave him with his number.
If only you could experience joy-
without the deadly combination
of alcohol and meds.

it's been a year
a year since you dumped me
facebook reminded me
telling me to look back
look at the memories
and there's a photo
with me and you
the night of a student night
of a performance
you didn't say anything
nothing on the ride back
we got out of the car
you walked me to the steps
and on those steps
you dumped me
with four simple words
"i can't do this"
i don't hold it against you
i don't hate you
i don't hold a grudge
you set me free
and because of that
all i can say is
"thank you"
thank you for leaving me
standing on the steps
wondering what i did
thank you for walking away
without another word
without showing regret
thank you
because of you
i am with a good man
a man i call mine
a man who calls me his
a man who is my one
a man who is my only
a man who i love
so, thank you
thank you for those four words
"i can't do this"
thank you for leaving me
in the rain and cold
thank you for everything

I'm sorry but falling in love with you was the biggest mistake I wish to bury and forget
How can I forgot when you are the first person to get between my thighs
Though we were high.I was too stupid to see
You helded my breath
I was lost in your spell called Lov
*** was the only language you knew. I so think you have phd in it
You treated me like a tool
Though I realized too late that I was a fool
I left my book and changed my looks for you.

Was it worth it?
I remember when you told me I wasn't good enough
Yet you saw the parts that my mom labelled privates
My mom knew it was only a play
Yet your spell told me you will stay
It's true that I was your ride
Our foundation was built in lies

you see I would love to hate you
I just cant for my love is too sufficient for everyone
GOOD bye old friend.

HEART MENDED NOT BROKEN..WRITTEN BY Doreen Kgomo 23.05.16