I thought
How can it be hard
Anymore
It's such an open door
To be you
To be all the hues
How could it be
I forgot about me
Never honestly
Being
... me

I've told my story
I've opened up
They were nice ..
Enough
But
It's rough
They forget
I don't spit
It out
I keep it
Out
Of light
*** it might
Upset
So I let them
Forget

"Bi?
Bisexual?
That's so stupid
That's so gross"
Just in causal talking
Obviously forgetting
Me

"It's like you were in love with her"
"Let it go
Let her go"
It's like they didn't know
She didn't know
they did
They did
Yet I hid
The fireworks
The moon
Every single
Noon
Id spend
Loving you

I forget
The pain I felt
Sitting on a swing
Just ******* crying
*** what if I am?
What if I really am ?
What will I do
My god what would
He
Do
To me?
I'm disgusting

Then I let it go away
Til that day
Or it was everyday
I was with you
I knew
I knew
It was me
I was disgusting

How could I forget
Of course the doors not open
Not for everyone
Not even for myself
I still hide on a shelf
Even after revealing oneself
Never completely
I hide that bit of me
As just girlish
Drunken fun
Always on the
Run
From her
Those feelings shouldn't
Occur
I make it a blur
The love I felt for her
Or her
Or me

That part of me
I find a tragedy
I love her
So sweet
So soft
Why can't she
Belong
Gabrielle and xena
Willow and Tara
I've watch
I've seen
Love
On tv
But those
Those lovers
Made me feel
Pure
Made me feel
Sincere
Made me
Me
That was my destiny

I fell in love like that
She didn't feel it back
We were friends
I played pretend
Like I do with everybody
Hiding my entire body
My mind
I'm not shy
Just ashamed
Of what I can't
Explain

I love both
I cherish both
That is me
That is me
That's my destiny
I'm sorry