real love is boring
in the best way.

real love is excitement
to do all the boring,
adulthood stuff with you.

real love is frustration
that will not outweigh our happiness.

real love is coffee
coffee mate, 1 sugar, ready
as soon as the sun meets our eyes.

real love is family
with four fuzz butts at our sides.

real love is happiness
in all the small, day to day things
we do together day by day.

real love is lust
just from stroking your side.

real love is morning breath kisses;
i scrunch my nose
then come back for more.

real love is choosing you
every single time, no matter who asks.

real love is fighting
and just wanting to stop,
cuddle regardless of who was right.

real love is working together,
balancing duty and quality time.

real love is security
and feeling safe with you
no matter where we are.

real love is us.
in any time or universe, i want us to be us.

Complacent; my life experiences are
anew, of all unfamiliar places
Faces are pretty; but pretty much
the same —recalling them more than
their person's name

Maddening; in a maiden voyage
tis an odyssey of this craze, writing about love
Though I'm always so far from it
As I wonder whose dreams I'm tip toeing
in their head, as a memory

Care for me; as I'd care to not overstep
myself, while I'm running on your mind
We're both blind,
blinded in love, blinded by love,
blinded by what we'd hope is love

still we haven't met;
just being two beings, connected by
dreams —trapped in each other's heads

it's the same ocean that touched our feet
i knew your voice, recognized your heartbeat
it sailed across a hollow husk of a shell
when you were pouring yourself out there

as each wave crash heavily on your thighs
the moon pulls the tides gently
like blanket over your cold shoulders
your salty tears merged with sea breeze

i was there when you weeped
and the thundering clapped
i was there when you grieved
for each death of your old selves

the most beautiful thing to come out of the sea, when she left i found parts of her soul buried inside me

Kung di kaya tayo nagkita,
Paano ko mahahanap ang lihim na palasyo ng saya?

Ang alam ko lang musika noon ay namamatay na sigaw galing sa milyong-milyong bangin

Kuntento na sana ako malunod doon
Paulit-ulit...

Hanggang narinig ko ang boses mo na hinalik nang payapa ng isang mitikal na kagubatan sa gitna ng gabi

Hinaluan pa ng bagyo ng  rebelyon at init na tamang-tama sa akin

Nakaka-excite ka...

Hinahanap ang iyong tunog sa kahit anong anyo
Sa kahit saang lugar

Naaaliw sa iyong misteryo
Bakit kasi rin ang angas mo noong sa munting sandalian na nag-usap tayo?

Planado ko na ipantay ang ihip ng hangin sa direksiyon mo
Ang tanglaw ng tadhana  
Naaabot ko na

I-ikaw din pala?
Gusto mo ipantay ang direksiyon
Hindi pala ako nag-iisa...

Hindi na tayo mag-isa.

Nabunyag ko pa na may tamis na tago sa iyong pigura
Di na kita mabura
Paano ka burahin...
Paano ka ba buburahin?!

Hanggang naintindihan ko na  wala nang magpapantay

Hinawakan ka na
Paulit-ulit
Inuulit sa kamay
Sa labi
Sa isip  

Napabangungot noong isang gabi na maghiwalay
Luha naman ang nahalay
Wala man "silang" gusto sa ideya natin
Mahihimatay na lang sa tamlay
Ng mga nagtatalampasang emosyon nila na walang malay
Hahawakan ka hanggang di hulihin
Hahalikan ka kahit babagyuhin
Walang kahulugan ang pagpigil ng damdamin

Unang-una ko itong pag-iibigan
Akala ko hindi ko maiiwasan ang kasaysayan ng dugo ko na puro sa maling tao napunta ang pagmamahalan
Akala ko wala nang mag-aalaga sa sirang tao na katulad ko
Napaka-haba ng iyong pasensya
Kasi ako wala na talagang pasensya sa sarili ko
Ang presko nang may nagtatanggap sa aking konsensiya
Na walang kapalit na hinihintay
Na walang sampal na hinihintay

Dami dami mo nang ginagawa pero
Wala ka talagang kailangan gawin
Para pasayahin ako
Mamasdan ka lang
Kasi hindi kita papakawalan

Pumantay ang linya
Pumantay ang oras
Pumantay ang agos
Pumantay ang dagat

Sa iyo na ako lulunod  magpakailanman

Sa bilang ng isa,

Dalawa,

Tatlo.

Every good i see
reminds me of you
every place i go
i wish you were there too
you are my lifeline
engraved in my soul
take me in your arms
for that’s my home
in you in entrust
my faith and my trust
you are my gul
my most beautiful
since you stepped in
I’m always smilin
that smile you gave me
I wear it I agree
oh but the peace you brought
is one that I whole life sought
you are the bearer
of my greatest happiness
and with you i feel strong
with you is where I belong
Eternally, Always and forever
I’m yours happens whatsoever
everyday I fall in love with you
you are my dream come true
you make me the happiest
oh i love you my sweetest

Thursday Mar 24th 2022
12:04am

Every night I am here
In this quiet darkness,
Reaching out for you.

And you move into me
Like water
Like moonlight
Like gentle things that never force
Or abuse.

How strong and beautiful
Is your love for me,
As if I have never been used,
Like fire to the wreckage
I have been through,
Steadily erasing these wounds
Like new meadows
Across decimated bones;
The scorched forests of
My soul.

We are building something lush
And beautiful,
With the strength of red woods and
The eternity of the sea,

Something as real as our children's Laughter echoing across the sands
Of this sun-soaked beach.

There is nothing but hope
As far as I can see
And your brave vulnerability;
Your unfaltering belief in me
And all that I am, and was,
And could be.

Wesley, I will love you forever and I
Will hold your heart in my hands,
And I will hold you together

In the same way
That you hold me
Like the rarest treasure.

Every day I can feel

The way that we will

Forever

Heal

Each other.