got myself a new boyfriend
turned out to be my twin

almost

never laughed so hard
cried so much

danced so long

moaned in ecstasy so many times
well there goes that vow of celibacy

re-entering this manifested existence
a little quiz from the absolute

7 years of silence and stillness and solitude
turned on its head

Oh the joy
the delicious pain of
feeling

duality
isn't it a hoot?

and now he is gone

where will this roller coaster end
this time?

will he ever reappear again?

Choking on fears.
Fighting for oxygen.
Bringing my eyes
all in view once never seen.
My voice has no power
Questionable feelings, no power to scream.
The need to breathe
Nothing more than
product of a dream.
Scratches running down my arm
Numbing my body.
Silhhouette of the beast
Disturbing my peace
Trying to consume my soul
Unobtainable in solace
Reality repeats, all is lawless
I am motionless in
an unstable transition.
The world of the in between
The dead and the living.
Vulnerable in astral world
Connection to ancestors in deep sleep
The past or the future of possibilities.
My essence roams freely.
Disconnection from all of me.
I can't feel you there.
Where are you?!

The time will come
Where my words will
forever remain as unforbidden memories
Left by those that remember
me from our legacy in creation.
Wielding the pen is a concept
a complex human as myself
will never achieve the skill-set to master.
It's a calling for me to wield justice and harmony
My time to equip the sword, will be my destiny soon.
I'm not afraid of the battle ahead.
I have slayed demons stronger than my own
Fought against my alter ego and argued with my conscious for answers
Witnessed guardian angels endure tragic falls.

The pen is mightier than the sword
The sword completes the point and cuts down the objective differently
I am not afraid to die protecting the world I love
It's all a cost for new age peace & awakening on the other side
I will not continue a cycle of hatred!
_ I love every part of you and it's worth fighting for_

I am going through a lot
Who even needs water?
I rather drown in fire.
Can't save me don't even bother
Words my to mother,
I rather it be me. better than any other
Give a ****  you know less, why would you provide any offer.
I give love and hate better than what you must suffer....
Know you miss me. I am watching the movie play over & over
on the parts, that delayed and buffered.  
I had enough of the *******
I am losing all myself to every bit of this.
Most of ya'll fake
friend and pretend
with given signs from wind
to be in the Blues but you CLUELESS,
what I even put myself through to just do this!
I'm trying to make this world, safe for my son.
Elijah was all that I had and I promise he's not my only number one!
Murderous vibes resonate within both minds.
My other ego spontaneously showing shifting signs.
It all goes on. I'm taking what's left of our time.
Might be my dark side before it's any time of mine
It's not pase, (*******)  wei (dude).
I'm going cold as snow, emotional tides through these lines.
RIP my brother Isaiah, Joseph, Raylin and Byron
Go off the page, I might sign off  with the
noise in my head, SCREAMING, sound off. There's no Sleeping With Sirens.
Hear me scream and roar, no part of me is dying. I'm a BEAST like Buttonz. (artist from Laredo, Texas)
Mightier than any lion.
Not lying. This **** is for the birds. Although, none of this is flying.
I am done losing blood and tears. In a frantic frenzy, frolic frequently for final fallen fantasy, fading by Furious Fears.
Looking into the crystal cause it's all that gave me clarity.
I could not get that, from looking into the mirror. Other side not clear. Parallel dimensional traveling, I have no choice to go with the flow. No matter if I break, brake, or even try to steer
I am done falling behind.
From the gutter, growing our way back to the grind.
Ya'll trying to keep up with these times and rhymes.
I am just trying to show the hate
in this world nothing will stop a peace-fighter I will fire. TAKE COVER. Before you shame me with hate as a fake lover.
Words fall on  false promises. In all love and honor. I am doing my damnest as a one of a kind father.
Wish they would place the blame on another
I believe in you, I believe him, I believe in her and his mother.
Motha-*****, don't need bad spells to cast hell.
Why you deserve heaven, if you will cross lines
to cross your own brother!?
****. I will do anything, to revive them all and unconditionally love all additionally, with an unstable mother!
Is it all enough? What the ****?
What the ******* mean?
You think all of this makes me a King?
I rather you have freedom
****. What I stand for in terms of a kingdom.
Kingdom come. Kingdom goes.
I know King-Kong won't try me unless
I feel bold enough
To get the biggest piece and try to eat him!
I rather deceive him.
Everyday's my energy's depleting, heart's broken and it keeps beating. I am still fighting. Sword's broken.
I'm still bleeding. Why the hell, am I still here?
I should be ******* leaving.....
My child's still here, I gotta keep breathing
Full of Shenanigans, we are randomness at fullest. Even Stevens.
I am ready to die for everyone I speak for and believe in!
Give a **** less, if you wish downfall on my success.
You cannot spellbound me to anything less.
Gonna push myself to go, Isaiah will always be my reason.
Ya witch.

I am fighting feelings
that been confined.
There's no escape
from the prison
within my mind.
My thoughts
shaking and breaking
every single line,
I have to walk on...

Breaking the chains
Connected to the hands of time
Lost in story lines
Conversations in darkness
Talking to myself
speaking with shadows
I am losing my all
inside the confines of
my magically mystical messy mind
Who Will You Call Now?
Should I go after every bad soul alive?
Don't try it. It's not wise kid.
All for you. I'll make a way for me.
I'll give anything to save these lives.
To bring more endless possibilities.
Tapped into variations of magic
Normal eyes cannot see
Lyrical conjurer. Adjective assassin.
I'm simply following the creed
Compared to your favorites
I'm basically, taking the lead
Made promises in blood
I will maintain before
it all goes in vain. From now, til the day I leave!
"We are suppose to save the world!"
Never follow the sheep.
Don't buy into promises
you cannot afford to keep!
Live your dreams!
In the wake of any ray
from the light of life
I refuse to die in my sleep!

For it's known
It's not easy being me.
It's not what you see on tv
Trials and tribulations
Progress through poverty
I am living for peace.
No force alive can deprive me
of my desired liberty!
I am down on my last whim
I do this for them
I'm going for the GOAL
Please, get out of the way
If you barely reach the rim!



I rewind and enlighten minds.
I call upon the power of the great divine
Provide deities and entities
as a guide with clearer signs.
Nonsense aside, I'm all for the grind
Don't judge me unless you
know what my scars define!
I'll defy every impossibility
in a matter of time.

IT'S ALL A SIGN!
IT'S ALL A SIGN!
It's all a sign
Cannot allow the demons
conquer your mind
Whenever it's cloudy and dark outside
the sun will always be back to shine
You light is keeping every pat of me alive
I promise over all, you will shine
it's all just a matter of a time!

My light it burns
It does not shine unless
I am by my son.
I am the fire. Surrounded in smoke.
I am in a trans red eclipse.
Energy pounding in my heart and throat.
I feel the heat of the sun.
The light in me
has much more to become.
I am lost from all
but over all I still have hope!
I feel myself breaking.
Sorry, for every promise that I broke.
My heart goes to the beat
and it's pounding hard like a drum.
Careful how you tread in this lifetime
cause for right now, you only have one
Understand the walks of life
because you have to crawl before you run.
Your value is priceless, remember that
with anything else is said and done!

On a lonely ride
on a silent night,
Going through a high
hitting deep inside,
With eyes open
and sensations wide,
Filling the mind
with questionable thoughts,
It took only a touch
to know what feels right,
What I had lost
through hate and disgust,
In the ******
of overflowing cries,
A door opened
and stepped out a fright,
I know longer knew
If I could feel right,
With another me
so deprived of life.
On a lonely night
in a lonely high,
I found the hidden woman inside.

I can go Batman
Without a bat
Cut the snake’s head off
Like I am samurai jack
I got more tricks than
a cat in a hat
Fire my element
never chill or relax


Fire’s my element never chill or relax
They be doing **** for a react
Get my hands on you it’s OV
The way it’s gonna be straight facts
Push a brother to be on the attack
I am going full metal alchemist
Goblins, titans, pedos, all laying flat!
darkness  taking over, nothing new
Answer the phone,  your child is missing you!
Descovia or Matt which do you listen to?
Am I being too much? What am I to you?
If I left or died what would you do?
The mirror is a curse
I see a better me in my kids
Don’t be like your parents
“Be better and be you
I wouldn’t put anything
on paper not true
that’s word to the youth!
That as real as it gets, no excuse
Don’t give a **** about livin no lie
Cause at the end of the day I will die for these babies as Well as all of my truths!
Let’s finish this!!!

Always feelin, I am in the wrong place
At the wrong time!

Emotionally withdrawn falling far behind
Being torn apart from all that’s mine
All I wanted was love !! (Just love baby)
**** dolla signs!
never wanted your heart in piecesssss
Only wanted a peace of mind.
I know he’s hurting
While I am acting like ***** fine
You’re worth more than media
and live time
Pay attention to red flaaagggss but
All sides of me be crossing lines!
Pray for my recovery or downfall
A man is doing all he can
to stay alive!!!
My fight with my demons!