You are such a sweetheart
I see you as an appreciative woman of art
You speak to me in the sweetest of tones
I just want to share a couple of ice cream cones
You bring me joy on a daily basis
It soothes my soul like I'm in a desert and your words are my oasis
Someone might say I'm over exaggerating
But having you in my life is such a blessing
I am truly hoping this poem doesn't scare you away
I just want to show my appreciation in the greatest possible way
Poetry is how I share my love and affection for those close to my heart
I've befriended woman that tore my heart apart
But you make my heart positively swell
That is why I wanted to dedicate this poem to you: Joelle.

Why do women have to be so heartless
They think nice guys are weak or "simps
Thinking they have the right to walk all over us
Keep treating us like **** and soon enough we'll retaliate
We'll take our kindness elsewhere
You'll be left with no one caring for you like we did

You can't treat us like ****
That won't phase us a little bit
We'll grow strong
And You'll realize you were wrong
Kindness is not a form of weakness
We will NOT be called useless

We will grow from your hurtful words
Your words won't keep us depressed forever
That power you thought you had over us will dissipate
You thought you could break us down
Well sorry but we're stronger than that
We'll repair our heart
Coming out stronger than before
Stronger than before you showed us your heartlessness

How could you do this to me?
Just because i compliment you on your beauty
What the hell is wrong with that?
It's not as if I called you fat
Did the last 3+ years mean nothing to you?
Blocking me on ig and sc just ain't cool
Just a couple weeks ago you said I was always there for you
And now you go and pull this treating me like a ******* fool
Is this how you treat your best friends?
I pity the next guy that tries to befriend you.
You never deserved someone like me
Caring for you like a big brother would
You and I used to be tight; like my bud
Now you're just another woman that shattered my heart
But of course I doubt you even care
You got your boyfriend so what's the use of a best friend. Go ahead and kick me to the curb. I'll just shoot these phrases at you: Karma is a *****
AND
What comes around goes around
AND
You reap what you sow

You mean the world to me
You came into my life at just the right time
Your beauty leaves me speechless like a mime
Everything about you makes me happy every single day
I am so glad you agreed to become my bae

Times like this never bode well
It's like getting arrested and going to jail
All the bad just joins together
It's like forever being in the wake of insane weather
Never knowing when it'll End
Not having no one, not even a friend
Wishing it would stop, saying oh please oh please
Forever wondering why we have moments like these

Things never go your way
Society just doesn't work like that
You try to make something of yourself and you fall on your face, flat
You lose loved ones and cherished friends leave you
Leaving you by choice hurts way worse then having them taken away
You are left with not having anything to say
It hurts too much so you shut yourself away from the world
Friends and family try to comfort you
But their words fall on deaf ears
You turn to drugs and alcohol to try and heal your shattered heart
But you soon find that's not the solution
You decide to erase those former friends from your mind.
That's all you can do until you find someone who is sweet and kind.
You finally find that person amd they become your everything rescuing you from your darkness.
They become your sunlight and brighten your days from then on turning everything into such a bliss
They stay by your side they never become gone.

You think you deserve something but life slaps you upon the head and throws you down reminding you that after all you've doneyou don't deserve ****
I had a strokeabout a week ago and there as a possibility of me getting to go home today instead of tomorrow but my blood level dropped to an undesirable rate this causing me to have to stay longer missing my oldest sisters funeral. I thought I would get to go buy that's was just life toying with my emotions again. I have a constant thought on"You don't deserve to be happy Ben!You don't deserve happiness. You can't pretend to be a good guy every now and then. it's such a disappoint to know I could've made my love better but now with all these life threatening hospitalizations and not knowinghow long I have left to live it just leaves me with such disappointment. I've always wished I could restart my life over andbe a better man but I know that's impossible just another disappointment that I get to live with I use to lash out in anger but that isn't going to change anything and it's a waste of time