Always puts them above
I will still  play pretend
We tend to accept love
That we think we deserve

Laughing together
I’m holding back tears
„This is forever”
Silence in my ears

Arms around my waist
Yet I’m still so cold
Surrounded by you
Yet I’m still alone

There was red on my hands
After i mordered my inner self
All hopes and dreams
Washed away by the salty stream
Saw it altogether
My happy ending gone
Nothing anymore
Nothing forever

Oh how beauteous
You look when you smile
The cloudy countentance
Shined away by
The sparkle in your eyes
I wish I could behold it
For longer than
The tiny piece of time

Tears falling from her lifeless eyes
Their salty taste

Rain drops falling from silvery sky
Their tiny shape

Tears falling down her alabaster cheeks
In their own rhythm

Rain drops falling from colourless sky
Tapping so evenly

Putting out her shaking hand
Water so delicate

Tears falling down her face
Rain drops falling from the sky

Isn’t it wonderful to have
Such company in despair…

There’s this little person inside me,
who tells me all this
There’s this whispering voice in my head,
which makes me feel like this,
There’s this way unpleasant shiver inside me,
which makes me question all this
They all come from somebody else
But at the same time
I am
This person, this voice, this shiver
I am
All of them
While being
The exact opposition
I try but I don’t
I stay, then I go
I care but I don’t
I scream while being silent
I ***** up to make up
Don’t even know who
Does my mind belong to
Anymore

Everything hides
Nothing is found
There’s string on me
And I cannot breathe

Mum, I’m not angry, nor sad
I’m not mad
I don’t feel anything
I can’t feel anything

World’s turning around
I’m loosing my mind
Can’t tell apart
What’s wrong, what’s right

It breaks my heart
My light burns out
I’ve tried to fight
Got caught by fright

Brain feels so wired
It doesn’t shut up
I’m just so tired
Of playing the part

Still fear there’s someone
Who’s pulling my strings
Like I’m some puppet
You’ll  see on TV