She gives me a look likes it’s all okay
As to her it is just another day
She says we can still keep on being friends
As if these feelings would just end

Is it selfish to think I could not
My heart feels as if it’s been tired into a knot
Yet she smiles like she still cares
But to me it just doesn't feel fair

For I love her, but she must love another
And so, she looks at me as just a brother
Now I have no choice but to accept
Accept learning to live with reject

When she does find the one she wants
I hope that I can be a little more nonchalant
In my head it’s hard to compile
That at one point I was the one that made her smile

If I can't love as I should
I'll choose to love you as a friend
That's what I tell myself, as if I could
But that's as foolish as the wind


To stand so close to the flames
The match was struck long ago
I knew I would never be the same
Maybe that's something you didn't know


Or perhaps you expected a change
A moment may arise that sparks new wonder
One that needs no guidance and has no range
Could it just be a fool’s blunder?

The day will come when you are ready
I hope that you'll still remember me
And that it’s me that causes your heat to beat unsteady
So, we can discover what true love should be

Do you think of what could be
And in those dreams, do you miss me
I thought I was ok with how it was
Getting high off your buzz


But now I have come to find
You cannot leave my mind
In the darkest rooms
My desire for you still looms

But I must act as a stranger
To protect myself from the danger
I hope that you may understand
Perhaps someday I can still be your man

Until the day of then
I'll sit and remember when
When two hearts burned for each other
With a love like no other

Do you think of what could be
And in those dreams, do you miss me
I thought I was ok with how it was
Getting high off your buzz


But now I have come to find
You cannot leave my mind
In the darkest rooms
My desire for you still looms

But I must act as a stranger
To protect myself from the danger
I hope that you may understand
Perhaps someday I can still be your man

Until the day of then
I'll sit and remember when
When two hearts burned for each other
With a love like no other

I can't love you like you should be
I heard these words leave my mouth
As we lay against the pear tree
How could things ever get this for south

Have I turned myself into her
Making excuses for why I can't love
Now my visions a blur
And there will be no white doves

If I could I would, I think
But I know that’s not True
For if she came within a blink
I would join her and leave you

That's the real reason that I hide
That I hope for her tomorrow
While keeping it all inside
Trying to stay ahead of sorrow

You took my breath away with your smile
You stole my heart with your kisses
You made me appreciate the things in life I never know existed.

Golden sunsets and skies of blue
All confess my love to you

A small house on a corner stone
Creates a place for you to call home

Steady hands and shaky feet
Is what I get each time we meet

Yet, when I’m with you, I’m as light as a feather
Here’s to a love, that will last forever

Almost like it was etched into my soul
My mind refuses to forget.

I see you.
I see your smile.
And ****.
It consumes me again.

Dripping with that sickeningly sweet nectar
Reviving that lingering taste of honey on my tongue
Sparking that chaos that breeds like wildfire
For that foolish love that I once clung

Intoxicated by that familiar scent
Inebriating my mind of incoherent thought
Indulging in this irresistible poison
All sense of caution came to nought

That smile.
That ******* smile is what does me in

Blooming like honeysuckles on a vine
Vibrant in colour, alluring to the eyes
these blossoms aren't all new, just dormant for a time
lying in wait for the worst timing to arise

Entwining itself into the crevices of my heart
Spreading across my body it twirls and intertwines
Desperately trying to pull away as I might
But its futile against the ever tightening vines

You smile at me

Halting my breath but for a moment
As if encapsulating us in time
It feels almost as if the world is composed
completely of just you and I








I'm unable to resist


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