I feel this deep fear in me,
Something I can't truly see.
Within me, it dwells. I truly believe.
Looking into the depths of the well,
A living hell, I see staring back at me.
That darkness is all I feel.
Nobody else, no one with me,
Fear claws its way from down deep,
Digs right into me.
I feel it, I wail,
I flow, I begin to well
I flail, I scream. So silent,
Nobody else can see.
Within me, I weep.
Keeping it hidden, happiness is forbidden.
Never am I forgiven.
The promised land, my vision.
A forever expedition.
To find what I seek,
To love, to believe.
To find a connection,
To find that remission,
Finally to be given.
I go it alone, I work through my woes.
The battle's done won,
The war leaves one ruined.
Make peace with the fact,
There is no connect,
Always be alone,
You are doomed, forlorn.
Live with it and die.
You are on the decline.
Know, you are yours,
Bonded with none.
Alone is your soul.
Weary, your mind.
Loneliness if my biggest fear. A connection is what I seek. With all, and with one.
Without it, I'll always find it hard to sleep.