A glass of poured liquor
To help me forget you quicker.
My lips around a freshly rolled blunt;
Lead to me doing things I normally don't.
I loved you immensely,
Didn't know how much that would cost me.
My sanity and sense of self escape me
I poison and punish myself
As the realization of our end sets in
And I wonder if I'm happy with the world I'm living in.
Without you, I search for satisfaction on my own
I live in a house that once felt like a home.
This is the best move for the both of us,
Yet I turn to drinks, drugs, dudes; all in surplus.
I can only thrive when I get the attention,
False promises; I'm good regardless of the intention.
The craving that can never be fully satisfied,
The consuming addiction I try hard to hide.