Ellie

Ellie Aug 2023

this hurt
a deep-rooted pain
it goes all the way through,
past the bones

i feel homesick all the time, especially when I'm at home

Ellie Jul 2023

free

clouds look like stiff peaked meringue mountains
if I stand up straight I can almost touch them
the air is fresh here and so I breathe deeply
wind rushing against skin, the wilds are calling

#nature #forests #freedom

Ellie May 2023

dreaming

wisps of smoke unfurled
climbing upward towards the ceiling,
a lavender scent enveloping the room
lying belly up playing out past memories
everything seemed to drift together
then seemed to drift apart
overlapping and distancing,
and over again
time began to blend, my heart began to leap,
the dream began to end, light began to seep,
only ever escaping for a short time before the alarm beckons you back into your body
this is all life is,
and over again

The period of time before your alarm rings often seems liminal, other worldly

Mar 2022

Morgan Brehilt

Crickets

Sometimes I think of killing myself
How the end would be so nice
How the darkness would swallow me up
And how the numbness would suffice
My need

For all the voices of the feelings
That constantly keep me reeling
To softly slow to a hush
As my brain starts tur-tur-turning into mush

How wonderful it would be
To have that powerful silence
Not even grasshoppers would bother
To wake me

My cells would stop dividing
My brain would stop the lying
Myself would stop denying
What I truly want

But but but
This is just a reckless fantasy
A way to elude one’s own reality

Because as I sit here on the floor
Tears drip drip dropping
I realize there’s those who care for me more
Cherish me more
Love me more
Than I love my own self

The crickets chirp
I put the pills down

Ellie Mar 2022

so very tired.

the music gets really loud
I say quieten down,
floating's not my style
but I don't want to drown,

the waves get too rough
The surface slips away,
limbs that've had enough
in the depths she longs to stay

— The End —