Death Horizon

Death Horizon Oct 2018

I wish I could go back
Back to the days where there was no black
Black was just my backpack,
A backpack filled with dreams and love
There was no fear
It was all clear

There were no demons,
Only hope and dreamers

We were happy...
I was happy...
It was geniune...

Now it´s only a mixed feeling of emotions that i cannot explain,
And will never be able to do so...

#sad #old #days #pass #happy #one #day #my #emotions

Death Horizon Oct 2018

Sorrow

If we fight
Let the words fall on their own

Cause deep inside us
The only place to hide

Is in each others heart

let´s fight together instead of against each other

#love #life #together #pain #dead #inside

Death Horizon Oct 2018

The Loop Won´t End

A Quiver Of Hope Stabbed My Heart
When through the dark of my soul
Your purity teared me apart

Where is my soul, Where is my bliss
I´m floating in the pain river, I´m in the abyss

Can´t control myself
What the **** am I supposed to do

Walk along with the others?!
Study,
Work,
Sleep,
Cry all night cause I´m the black sheep?

We live our lifes through a loophole
A tunnel that tears our soul

Do you wanna stand here and just wait?
Or do you wanna go and hate?

Cause I can´t stand myself if I stay here alone with all of you
Cause that´s what we are doing right?

We´re together but alone
cause the loop won´t end
and I just want to comprehend
How to not get myself blown

Be YOURSELF
Be DIFFERENT
Don´t COMPARE YOURSELF TO OTHERS
Don´t GET STUCK IN THE LOOPHOLE

#life #dead #critic #society

Death Horizon Aug 2018

Now i feel and it won´t heal

Now I see

What I should have done, what I should have been
I don´t hate you...
I won´t hate you!

I just saw in you and him

What you and I didn´t had

And I´m sorry if i, me, myself was not capable
Of being as good of a ridding angel as he is
i just feel so small right now
As if my heart is about to explode out my chest

it all hurst so much now
how could i waste so much time
in someone who doesn´t even love me

Now I see,

But you don´t see me anymore don´t you...

it just hurst so ******* much sometimes

#feelings #fade #people #break #i #stayed #the #same #and #died

Death Horizon Jul 2018

If I

If I **** myself now

Will you be there to feel my own self anyhow

If I lose myself now

How bearly will you feal when I'm gone and not found

I'm gonna **** myself somehow

I just hope you can couope

With my demons, with myself

The self that died cause he never felt held

I ruined my life as I ruined yours

Now I'm doomed to live in a abyss

My kingdom of infinite pain

Help

#dead #depression #obsession

Death Horizon Jul 2018

E M P T Y

How can you feel?
if you don´t feel at all

How can you live
if you don´t live at all

it´s not my fault I´m like this
or is it?

I can´t feel I can´t live my life

I tried everything from singing

to dancing

even doing drugs

but nothing touches my heart

do I even have one?

do I even exist?

Do WE exist?
i hope so

Cause you´re the only thing that makes me feel and be alive

Empty till love comes to me

#broken #empty #heartbroken #dead #numb

Death Horizon Jul 2018

i´m greedy to sometimes

i´m scared

i´ts not fair

i got into you

but you left me in there

is this hell?

wait a minute?

it´s your ******* heart

now i remember why i left you

and traded you for a new start

I´m sorry but I´m heartbroken sometimes to...

#**** #you #cold #no #soul #*****