Suburbia Ain’t no good for ya Take the veil off your eyes my dear And you can finally see clear Suburbia Ain’t no good for ya You’ll see all your deepest fears You never really were safe here
Impaled on a white picket fence Wondering where your friends went They took off the masks from their faces From their books they ripped out your pages Can’t tell friend from foe Sugar and salt Are hard to tell apart There’s really no way to know Until it’s too late Call it chance or call it fate Wake up and smell the roses Wipe the blood from your noses Under the street lights On these late nights
Suburbia Ain’t no good for ya Take the veil off your eyes my dear And you can finally see clear Suburbia Ain’t no good for ya You’ll see all your deepest fears You never really were safe here
It paints a pretty picture But it just cleans up the mess quicker You’ll go crazy from the whispers The truth hurts But so does this life It paints a pretty picture But it just cleans up the mess quicker You’ll go crazy from the whispers The truth hurts But so does this life
Suburbia Ain’t no good for ya Take the veil off your eyes my dear And you can finally see clear Suburbia Ain’t no good for ya You’ll see all your deepest fears You never really were safe here In Suburbia
‘You’re so wet for me baby’ they say ‘You’re not saying no’ Rinse repeat
It hurts I say ‘That’s normal ‘
It is what it is what it is what it is My words stop
‘You’re so quiet’ they say
If I unzip my abused vocal chords I won’t be able to stop the noise Keening screaming bursting like a dam
It’ll fill up my head My ******* bone marrow Where do I begin and where do you end flush against me
I am good at being quiet I am good at being small I am good at being needed I am good at pleasing others I am good at saying yes when I mean; Stop Get me out You are choking me I can’t breathe There’s is blood on my teeth On my hands
I held you after you assaulted me and you told me about what was plaguing your mind So I comfort you Rinse repeat Tell you I’ve got you through gritted teeth
Is that so bad is that so bad I am needed so why is it so ******* bad
You fill my lungs acrid and burning Inhale exhale Inhale exhale **** and ***** coat your lips like a gaudy lipgloss
Wash away the taste of you Clean my teeth with dettol Empty my veins clean the dirt out my veins Trying to forget the way you coat my teeth
Your mouth is so good baby’ you say It is bad honey and expired milk
It is not being touched since It is not sleeping It is wanting to be held but being terrified of the thought
I don't care about the stabs I don't care about the lies I don't care about the loss
I never did I never will
I don't care about you abandoning me in the middle of nowhere or making me doubt every single person I meet or forcing me to look at the mirror and despise the foolishness I had.
I don't care about all the above.
I try to convince myself every night that I don't. But, I do; I fully keenly wholesomely do care and my care was my doom.