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Lupus- Feb 2019
In the Shower
Lupus-
Feb 2019
In the shower I cry
In the shower I break
In the shower is where
I name my mistake
In the shower I’m happy
In the shower I’m cold
In the shower is where
All my stories are told
In the shower I’m mad
In the shower I’m hot
In the shower is where
My heart feels like a knot
In the shower I talk
In the shower I pray
In the shower is where
All my feelings would stay
In the shower I’m sad
In the shower I plead
In the shower is where
I plant my seed
In the shower I think
In the shower I scream
In the shower is where
I would keep my dream
In the shower I remember
In the shower I shrink
In the shower is where
All my memories would sink
In the shower I’m not shy
In the shower I grow
In the shower is where
My soul would glow
In the shower I break
In the shower is where
I name my mistake
In the shower I’m happy
In the shower I’m cold
In the shower is where
All my stories are told
In the shower I’m mad
In the shower I’m hot
In the shower is where
My heart feels like a knot
In the shower I talk
In the shower I pray
In the shower is where
All my feelings would stay
In the shower I’m sad
In the shower I plead
In the shower is where
I plant my seed
In the shower I think
In the shower I scream
In the shower is where
I would keep my dream
In the shower I remember
In the shower I shrink
In the shower is where
All my memories would sink
In the shower I’m not shy
In the shower I grow
In the shower is where
My soul would glow
Jojo Mike Feb 2019
The shower
Jojo Mike
Feb 2019
After a long day of life
I get home put away my bag
Strip my clothes off and smile one last time
Go to the shower for some privacy
Because my room doesn’t allow that
And before i open the shower
I close my eyes and shut down for a sec
And its quiet and peaceful and dark
And I’m tempted to stay there forever
Then i remember my mama depends on me and open my eyes
As i open the shower and water pours from above
My eyes shower the bathroom with water of its own
And for a minute i forget what i was in there for
For a minute i silently pour my heart out
In the shower as i slowly slip to the floor
And i sob for the love i might never explore
I cry out for the death that i have been wishing for
I cry for the words that i was told that day
I sob for the insults that come my way
I remember how as i child i did everything to chase death away
And now i can’t help but call it to me
But not even death wants to deal with me in anyway
And in the shower I’m literally naked
Both on the outside and inside
In the shower i wash my dirt away
In the shower i let my vulnerability show
In the shower I’m never okay
Because i never knew how it feels to act my age
And as i scrub myself and rinse off
I put on the mask i have always known
Dry myself off while practicing my daily mantra
I’m “okay” i'm “fine” words I’ll say
As soon as i leave the shower and my ***** secrets behind
In the shower lies my confidant
In the shower is where I bare my naked soul
In the shower is where i get ideas of what to write next
In the shower is where i sometimes talk to God
In the shower is where my secrets lie
In the shower is where I’ll probably die
I get home put away my bag
Strip my clothes off and smile one last time
Go to the shower for some privacy
Because my room doesn’t allow that
And before i open the shower
I close my eyes and shut down for a sec
And its quiet and peaceful and dark
And I’m tempted to stay there forever
Then i remember my mama depends on me and open my eyes
As i open the shower and water pours from above
My eyes shower the bathroom with water of its own
And for a minute i forget what i was in there for
For a minute i silently pour my heart out
In the shower as i slowly slip to the floor
And i sob for the love i might never explore
I cry out for the death that i have been wishing for
I cry for the words that i was told that day
I sob for the insults that come my way
I remember how as i child i did everything to chase death away
And now i can’t help but call it to me
But not even death wants to deal with me in anyway
And in the shower I’m literally naked
Both on the outside and inside
In the shower i wash my dirt away
In the shower i let my vulnerability show
In the shower I’m never okay
Because i never knew how it feels to act my age
And as i scrub myself and rinse off
I put on the mask i have always known
Dry myself off while practicing my daily mantra
I’m “okay” i'm “fine” words I’ll say
As soon as i leave the shower and my ***** secrets behind
In the shower lies my confidant
In the shower is where I bare my naked soul
In the shower is where i get ideas of what to write next
In the shower is where i sometimes talk to God
In the shower is where my secrets lie
In the shower is where I’ll probably die
The shower is a place of solitude for me the walls know my secrets they have seen me at my lowest and there i poured my heart out
R May 2015
A Thank You Note To My Shower:
R
May 2015
and I would like to thank my shower for always being there with me through everything. my shower has seen the most vulnerable parts of me, and not just because I am physically naked in there, but because my soul is naked there as well. my shower has seen me cry and has listened to my stifled sobs and my muffled screams, as tears mixed with the water flowing from the faucet. my shower has seen me make love and create steam with more than just the hot water, but with our hot bodies pressed against each other with moans escaping us as we smile and kiss. my shower has heard me sing every song known to man, and has heard me mess up... a lot. I say sorry to my shower, as if it has feelings, but maybe it's just because I'm so used to ******* up all the time. my shower has watched me in the worst time of my life as I cut open my skin to let the demons out again and again. the blood would mix with the water and I always wondered if the water pressure would increase in that moment because it was crying for me to stop. my shower has lifted up my spirit in times of need, like on the day she left because I knew something was wrong. so what did I do? I got in the shower, blared oceans, and sobbed for a good thirty minutes. I wasn't ready to face the day, but I felt a bit more ready to hear those 5 horrible words that I knew were coming for me, "I'm breaking up with you". and most importantly, my shower has seen me smile. it has seen me smile as I sing and fail to do so and it has seen me laugh because I have such a beautiful life, and I will be so much more than what I am now. I know this because my shower has shown me with its constant companionship, and that is why I would like to thank my shower.
I got into the shower today and as I was singing, it made me realize some of the things my shower has been through with me in my life. I hope this poem isn't stupid, but I'm actually pretty proud of it so. :)
I also meant to add about the times we wouldn't make love in the shower, but just simply wash each other and enjoy each other's company, but I was told to keep this poem the way it is because it is perfect. So here I go, but at least now you know. xo
I also meant to add about the times we wouldn't make love in the shower, but just simply wash each other and enjoy each other's company, but I was told to keep this poem the way it is because it is perfect. So here I go, but at least now you know. xo