The bigger they are the harder they fall
That's what they say
and who could get bigger
than movie pictures
It all could be so nice
The influence could've been grand
Instead glorification of lust
Disgusting portrayal of what is
Real life stories told as it really happened
This is glorified
Hoarding, glorified
Prostitution, glorified
Drugs, glorified
Mob gangsters, glorified
Violence and gore, family favorites
Give and give to those who don't care
Clean up their mess
So they can do it again and again
Crying in self pity
Golden globes & Oscars go to the most degrading
Most disturbing images there are

With only four words her whole life changed "you bet your life" he mocked, and she did. She bet her life it would be just the way it was written. So she read the words over and over again. She promised and prayed with dedication. Then she stood back and watched it unfold. Just as it was told it happend and she knew. He was trying to make her doubt but she knew. She was not blinded by uncertainty; she was grounded in belief. Unshaken by fear she knew her life was important, important enough to dedicate. She was important enough to love. Some wanted her to think she wasn't but she knew that wasn't true, after all, she bet her life on it.

As I drift I find myself looking down at a beautiful copper fox coyly staring upward. Head cocked to one side, he is unafraid of my presence. I crunch through the snow to the chain link fence beside where he stands and he does not run. Through the diamond shapes I can see my belongings....a set of car keys, some credentials and my leather covered Bible. I cannot reach them. I look up slightly to see a police woman ranting on about how she found my camp nearby and confiscated my things. I realize I must get to them but how? I am cold. I begin to run and my path turns to a reddish brown. I no longer see the fox or the snow, I am aware that I am completely alone. I feel a panic and begin to imagine a wolf and what I might do in the instance he appears because I am unarmed! So I imagine I would roar like a lion and of course he would run scared. Ahead and to my right there is a tall rock. It is completely grey in color with possibly some greenery. A beautiful grey puma sits atop the rock. Is it possible for a puma to be grey? I do not know but somehow I know this large grey cat is a puma. I am nervous. I begin to jog. My path is soft, I am worried I may fall....the cat jumps from it's perch. I am running now, my heart is beating fast and the cat is gaining speed. He is right behind me now! I can visualize his body much faster, more agile than mine. I turn for just a brief moment and to my fright the cat places his paw to the back of my shoe and gently pulls my shoe down off my heel. He is toying, playfully. Time seems to slow down and I see the picture in slow motion. As he licks my heel I am lost in confusion and fear; my mind tells me he is in for a treat which is me, but somehow his actions seem harmless. I am terrified. Suddenly my heart speeds up as my eyes open! For a moment I am stunned then I breathe out, a sigh of relief.

My mind travels,  to distant worlds. I am without limit . No boundaries exist no cage could hold me in, I am free to make my own decisions.

You see,  I created this world around me. I do not believe in Hollywood dreams. Although we both bleed although we both breathe, the differences are vast inbetween.

You may sing as beautifully as the waves of the sea, but no song will ever be able to save anybody. You see, I heard it's impossible to please him well, not when you have so much money. It really doesn't matter how beautiful you are honey.

Money changes people when you have too much, it breeds greed and lust and it's never enough!
Power and titles and fame built up high, towering over above what is right.
  
Above each other, above the law. What happens when it crumbles? What happens when you fall? And you're just another one, just like me.  After everything you've had, could you live so simply?

This is my corner, my sanctuary, my home & my life is my family. Worldwide, I have brothers and sisters, mothers and fathers and everyone listens. Everyone loves straight from the start and it's my free will, this is where I keep my heart.

Why does my heart skip a beat
It takes only a moment's glance
My mouth won't form the words
Not right and I'll shake a little bit
I'll try not to stutter, I'll try
And you'll say everything right
Then I'll trip on my own two feet
& fall head over heals for you

How does it feel
To be so cruel
Heartless and self centered
Without a conscience?
Does it feel good
To break hearts like they're nothing
Crushing a thousand girls
To make one girl feel special?
Does that make you feel like the best?
I think it just means you're cruel.
To me, that makes you the worst.

I will agree to disagree and listen while you share your opinions, kindly please realize I understand your misunderstanding and I apologize with the sincerest heartfelt pity

Parting, bittersweet memories of lonesome days; different paths going opposite ways, we drop interlaced fingers to our sides, looking over our shoulders, you let go with time. I hope she makes your world beautiful as you've desired & submits to your every whim as she loves your fire. My wish: she is your comfort, your hope and your world, as she fills the empty void left by this girl.

Everything ends eventually
Nothing is good but Jehovah God
You're not good, I'm not good
No one will acheive perfection
On their own
Eat the most organic
Collect rain water
Workout everyday
You may prolong your life some
Still life ends eventually
"I am no part of the world" said Jesus
"My kingdom is no part of this world"
I believe Jesus
I believe his words
So I know nothing from this world
Belongs to my king.
He does not promote the violence
He does not sexualize messages
He does not punish us for our sins
No, he died for our sins
Yes, everything ends
Eventually
And I am grateful it does.... for now
I would be happy to not have the stress
To not experience anxiety
The only thing that keeps me focused
Is knowing
When Jesus takes over
All the violence will end
All the sickness and death
Man and his dominance
The ruining of the earth
And it will be filled instead
With pure love and good
With the knowledge of Jehovah
Forever

Simple as I may be
in my effervescent simplicity  
I could not thrive any other way
It's unattractive to you
But it's my everyday
Contentment is what I feel
my happiness is real
For with my simplicity
I change and bend
through the wind and the rain
I keep my head
I can weather the storms  
through it all I keep my faith
I can survive like no other
& this is all for the simple fact
I endure when I suffer
no matter what the attack

Fine print signatures hardly exist when
little white lines guide your mind
Trusted friends,  kin,
I believed when they said I'd win
Surely this won't take me
I claim invincibility
Laugh louder outside
Inside I am screaming
Save me
I am imploding
She is empty what happened to us
What happened to me
I am in disbelief
I chose this ending

Pride is a hardened killer

I love me. I am golden inside, I am not full of pride. I am love. My skin was gifted to me by the creator, it has exactly what I need for the sun that I'm under. I love my abilities; the fact that I have two hands  and two feet, 10 fingers and 10 toes. I know that I am loved, I can run and jump,  climb, smile, laugh, taste, hear and see. I am love and I am loved and that is all I need to be

If there is only one thing
I am certain
If there is only one thing
I know for sure
It is that expectation
Postponed
Makes the heart break
What is better?
Observation?
How can I observe what I cannot see?
How can I know what is not
In front of me?
All I know is what is routine
If the routine stops
So does the expectation
Once that disappears
You are free

Your mind is sharp like that tack on my stairs I forgot about yesterday when it pricked my heel and left a trail of blood drops on the carpet.
I picked it up and placed it on the counter but it dropped again back to the stairway where it will lie in wait for another victim
How words can cause a storm to brew and minds to wander to places untrue and vividly destructive
Blatant in ignorance tripping through mataphores and unreal resonating
I should have looked away but I kept on listening to your blind lust and misunderstanding
***** ***** ***** my conscience, my knowledge of what you will never understand, until darkness consumes you and I weep. For your mind has shattered.

Since money is all you want
Money is all you'll see
If money is all you love
then money is what you'll be
Money money money money
Money does not love you honey
Cause love cannot be bought
What happens when the money is gone
You'll be all alone and lost
Just remember you chose money
So money is what you got

The culture
Pow powpow pow!
Feet shuffle in the dust
the clatter of hollow instruments
filling the atmosphere
A fire burns, hands clap, voices ring
in the contagious sound of
Victory!

Pop's Sweet 16
Headphones are all she hears anymore
Romantic bliss in sweet melodies
playing over and over in her ears
Lost in emotion swept away in a dream
A fantasy

The dancer
Feel the beat
He moves his feet in perfect timing
lost in a world of his own, the audience
Is captured in his movements
they are astounded as he
Becomes one with the song

Soul singer
The story is in the emotion
The pain is related in sounds
The heart is caught up in the moment

The rock star
Rebel
Legend
"I am here! See me! I exist!"
A belief of independence
The attitude of rock

Roots**
Homegrown country
Family and faith
Roots make a man
or a woman
sing life like a story

Music is influence

Insomnia is a terrible thing causing one to become sequestered from reality.

Everytime I see your smile my heart skips
I melt inside just thinking about you
You are the perfect picture in my mind
I think I dreamt you into life
I pour out my soul to you hopeful
I get lost in your calm collected way
I love your charm and charisma
You shatter me into a thousand tiny bits

Everybody's saying
"The world's about to change
but don't worry about a thang"
Stop and think about that.
Change is rapid
It's already happened
ever since world war one
It's been a downhill run
Its a good time to know
which side you're on
Don't get stuck in a trench
You'll never get out
Don't be wishy-washy
You'll end up in doubt
It has to come to an end
Somehow someway
Makes you think about
how you're living
Your life today

One day I won't get upset
I won't feel regret
I'll never remember
Anything that's been said
I'll be able to focus
Life will be endless
Possibilities without fear
Or needing forgiveness
Love will be overflowing
No guessing
No unknowing
I won't think about mistakes
I won't dwell on imperfection
I won't give in when temptation
Rears it's ugly head
Nothing will hurt me
I'll feel only love instead

There was a time in my life
when I wasn't such a rigid realist
Before experience told me the truth
And the pain of life took hold
The bliss of ignorance
It once embraced me too
Dreams were fantastic then
Daydreams and love, it was all fun;
wonderful and intriguing
The excitement of life
captivating my very being
I was exhilarated!
Motivated into shape!
Loving my life & myself
it was easy then
but that was before
the experience set in

What should be now
Was here last week
When it's in the bank today
The offer's nowhere to be seen
When I don't have it I need it
When it's here, the need is gone

Still somewhere in the confusion
My dyslexic life goes on
Here's a good example,
Take a read why don't you
Peak into my life's lessons
Desperation sure as truth:

He told me his thoughts
He told me his dreams
He made me feel
Like I was the queen
I said "please be there for me
for what I must go through"
He said "I'm sorry
it's just bad timing,
I chose her over you "

Bullying seems to only be accepted
When performed by government officials
Terrorism is viewed as legal
As long as it is carried out with a badge

Since when did it become okay
To label innocence extreme?
Peacemakers "troublemakers"?
I'll tell you,
When peacemaking interferes with power
When war is the goal
When scheming for personal gain & greed rules

Bullies are leaders
World rulers who take dignity away
Downtrod good people
Put love to shame
They think they are the end of the line
They title themselves almighty
Little do they know the consequence
Their hands are bloodstained guilty

Minds bloodthirsty
Hearts black as coal
The vengeance of Jehovah
Comes upon them in an instant
It is then, they will know.

Remember when good prevailed
The hero always won & there were
Happy endings?
Well I guess that wasn't real enough
not alot has changed since gladiator days
The innocent are still sacrificed
Fed to the lions so to speak
Or since ***** and Gomorrah
Only difference is now it's televised
As though this entertainment is okay
To desensitize is the goal
And the result?
Children killing parents
Parents killing children
People without love