For the longest time,
I only ever thought about someone coming into my life
And “take my pain away”
How in fairy tales the prince comes and saves the princess from evil
And they live happily ever after.
I always wanted a fairy tale and in a way I think that,
That’s what ****** me up.
All these expectations from boys who are just realizing
The world doesn’t revolve around them.
My feelings were laid out for me in the sad lines of songs
And choruses I thought I understood.
Thinking that my life is the worst and I just want to end it all.
Do I? Do I really want to give it all up?
I’ve been ******* myself this whole time.
Telling everyone else not to give up,
To just give it time and positive thoughts and then they’ll be okay.
Though I gave up on myself so long ago I forgot what day it is.
I give myself great advice but I very seldom follow it.
It took me ******* up every relationship I have had in my short life,
And losing so many people I lost count.
It took me growing up to realize I can only save myself and until I do so,
No one can “take my pain away” no one can make me happy.
I have to be my own hero because everyone else is following my lead
And too busy helping themselves
I’m not saying I need someone in my life,
But at this point I think that it would help a great deal.