I have given myself
one too many chances
to make up for all the stupid mistakes,
the lies and the bitterness.
I thought I could take some time
to get myself together
but it has become apparent
that everything I ever lived for
has transformed into
yet another plague
stripping me whole
of everything i have become.
no where, no how
will i ever
be applicable
to reserve every thought
and every feeling
that has kept me from dispersing.
given no fatal dues
but not pertaining from fatal thoughts
i now resign
from this life
i have completely given up.