im not gonna to text you.
im not.
i refuse.
i will stay resolute.
i will not.
i will wait for you,
like ive been waiting for months,
i will not text you,
i will not.
you have to come to me.
thats how this game works, right?
you come to me.
i hope,
i really do.
i want to talk to you,
so much
so much.
but i dont want to bother you.
i really dont,
thats my biggest fear in the whole wide world.
i wish you would just text me,
just reach out to me,
make an effort,
the kind of effort i show you.
i dont know.
but im not gonna text you,
im not.
im not,
im not.
i wont.
i cant.
i dont want to damage anything more than i already have.
i know we just talked yesterday,
and it was fine,
and good,
and i know im just insecure and needy,
but i miss you.
a lot.
so im not gonna text you.
i wont.
to prove to you i dont need you,
so maybe,
in some way,
youll realize you need me.