Mar 2015
my mind wicked, my gut sickened with parallels
my heart sickened with
not willing to fight, held up in some sort of absurd
absurdidies, and powers adding up, having a voice, having a stronger voice than ever before
the stomach in knots, in knots
where to go? how to defeat? how to find? encontrar? don’t understand?
more beauty? more virtue? what exactly can I give you
the heart sick with mental illness, the heart anchoring into steam, into mercy, into help help help
not yours, this is mine, this is yours, do in time
love is true, love is smart, love is wise, or maybe not
some claim to have answers, but I am deafened, hit hit hit, loveer, lover, lover, hand it over! now! hit like jugular cancer, in the throat, no succcess, blown out of the river, blown out of the wayter, no turning back
my mind wicked, my gut sickened with parallels
my heart sickened with
not willing to fight, held up in some sort of absurd
absurdidies, and powers adding up, having a voice, having a stronger voice than ever before
the stomach in knots, in knots
where to go? how to defeat? how to find? encontrar? don’t understand?
more beauty? more virtue? what exactly can I give you
the heart sick with mental illness, the heart anchoring into steam, into mercy, into help help help
not yours, this is mine, this is yours, do in time
love is true, love is smart, love is wise, or maybe not
some claim to have answers, but I am deafened, hit hit hit, loveer, lover, lover, hand it over! now! hit like jugular cancer, in the throat, no succcess, blown out of the river, blown out of the wayter, no turning back
secrecy, secrecy, beyond anything we understand, behind backs
you're a spy, you're a communist, terrorist, haveyoumightcallit, whatyoumightunderstandit, outlet, let go of time, let go into the limitless pores, scores, scores, wins, only wins, or deaths, beheads, cutthroat cash collections, back to being broke again
you're through, you're in fever, fighting for life, fighting to see through to end, fighting for flight, only few days away but minutes, ticking by, hours turning to half days, turning to evenings, and the writings become even more menacing, silent standing ovations in spring
only for the kid, only for the man, the man, the man, the stimulation, for one more, one more, settling, settling,
holy one more holy holy please bless me, I'm drowning, its my mouth that wants to surface, with the flies,
none for you, none for those that dwell, you are *******
fever, fever in evening, in induced distress, put on the own self, put on without embrace, without surrender, muscles twitching, in the middle of night, disrupted, no humor, no seinfeld, no friends, no life
never finished, never done, a continuing one that wants to keep on going, that is hurting, that is immune to sarcasm, that wishes that it wasn't, wishing it could be closer to, rainfall
, wishing that it could be closer to release,
OF RELEASE, release me!!! I HELD your KEY
I've held it for so long, why must I continue to torment, suffer, why for so long? hold me in your arms, embrace, to my core, I want to let go and sob, sob into the lap of time, its calling for me, as it has called for so many, why must I be depraved? why must it continue on this way?
my heart sickened with
not willing to fight, held up in some sort of absurd
absurdidies, and powers adding up, having a voice, having a stronger voice than ever before
the stomach in knots, in knots
where to go? how to defeat? how to find? encontrar? don’t understand?
more beauty? more virtue? what exactly can I give you
the heart sick with mental illness, the heart anchoring into steam, into mercy, into help help help
not yours, this is mine, this is yours, do in time
love is true, love is smart, love is wise, or maybe not
some claim to have answers, but I am deafened, hit hit hit, loveer, lover, lover, hand it over! now! hit like jugular cancer, in the throat, no succcess, blown out of the river, blown out of the wayter, no turning back
my mind wicked, my gut sickened with parallels
my heart sickened with
not willing to fight, held up in some sort of absurd
absurdidies, and powers adding up, having a voice, having a stronger voice than ever before
the stomach in knots, in knots
where to go? how to defeat? how to find? encontrar? don’t understand?
more beauty? more virtue? what exactly can I give you
the heart sick with mental illness, the heart anchoring into steam, into mercy, into help help help
not yours, this is mine, this is yours, do in time
love is true, love is smart, love is wise, or maybe not
some claim to have answers, but I am deafened, hit hit hit, loveer, lover, lover, hand it over! now! hit like jugular cancer, in the throat, no succcess, blown out of the river, blown out of the wayter, no turning back
secrecy, secrecy, beyond anything we understand, behind backs
you're a spy, you're a communist, terrorist, haveyoumightcallit, whatyoumightunderstandit, outlet, let go of time, let go into the limitless pores, scores, scores, wins, only wins, or deaths, beheads, cutthroat cash collections, back to being broke again
you're through, you're in fever, fighting for life, fighting to see through to end, fighting for flight, only few days away but minutes, ticking by, hours turning to half days, turning to evenings, and the writings become even more menacing, silent standing ovations in spring
only for the kid, only for the man, the man, the man, the stimulation, for one more, one more, settling, settling,
holy one more holy holy please bless me, I'm drowning, its my mouth that wants to surface, with the flies,
none for you, none for those that dwell, you are *******
fever, fever in evening, in induced distress, put on the own self, put on without embrace, without surrender, muscles twitching, in the middle of night, disrupted, no humor, no seinfeld, no friends, no life
never finished, never done, a continuing one that wants to keep on going, that is hurting, that is immune to sarcasm, that wishes that it wasn't, wishing it could be closer to, rainfall
, wishing that it could be closer to release,
OF RELEASE, release me!!! I HELD your KEY
I've held it for so long, why must I continue to torment, suffer, why for so long? hold me in your arms, embrace, to my core, I want to let go and sob, sob into the lap of time, its calling for me, as it has called for so many, why must I be depraved? why must it continue on this way?
