Choking on all the friends that are gone
And all the stories that are lost
Along with bits of my sanity
Tripping on the lines I have crossed

Choking on all the times that you said you will call
But I was left waiting for you in the cold
With tears like waterfalls
And a story left untold

Choking on all the hopes and wishes that were not lost
But taken away from my own hands
And I, like a child held on so tight
Until it slipped right off of me like sand

Choking on all the promises I couldn’t keep
On all the pills I still taste on my tongue
All the razor blades that cut skin deep
And the times from myself, I couldn't run

Choking on all the dreams that were shattered away like broken glass
And surrounded me like nightmares I could never escape from
Capturing me like hurricanes or a spell, a witch would cast
Or the times, I could not face the sun

Choking on all the times I tried to take it away
Only to end up with a tube down my throat
As I struggled to whisper the words “I’m okay”
Hoping they will not find the note that I wrote

Choking on all the goodbyes that were not said
All the wounds that are not meant to heal
And all the mornings I woke up
Wishing I wasn't here.