I'm not saying there isn't hope and I'm not beating myself up, I'm just admitting to my mistakes and apologizing for my foolish behaviour. That's why I write sad songs because it's too ltitle too late to apologize now.

Lets lie down,
On your bed,
Let's prove to each other
were not dead.

Crumpled clothes,
Hair a mess,
Breathing hard,
against your chest.

Smelling sweet,
Of love and sweat,
Pillows strewn,
Sheets all wet.

A happy girl,
Rosy cheeked,
With her man,
Ain't love neat.

I just wanted to say..
That which I cannot convey..
Three little words..
Often spoken but, unheard..
Bittersweet symphony,
Is the sound of my heartbeat..
Time and space, inconsequential..
Every moment with you,
Is treasured and special..
Life- meaningless, dull and void
when you are not around..
Fear of death, non existent
When love in my heart is abound..
So many words..
So many little words..
To entice you, romance you,
Beseech you..
All the phrases I wrote upon
the memories I hold- of you..
All the notes I took of all the
Moments I loved- were true..
Every line in every book,
Every word of every hook..
Were of you~

Mortal coil, tinfoil hat
Crack open my skull
with a baseball bat
See into my mind
Cross the line-
The boundary of no return
If this disturbs you
then walk away
Ignorance is bliss
behind your rose colored shades
So rise up, join your fellow man,
one by one, hand in hand,
You too can drown
in a pool of blood,
for the price of dying
to protect the ones you love.

To be special,
I may never know
I want to feel but,
I've lost my glow
Dim and dull
I feel lackluster.
No shine, or gleam,
I am faded.
You had me, held me,
left me jaded.

I feel defeated,
face to the floor
I lay in dirt,
here I am, mother earth
Embrace me, nurturer
I've been hurt
My heart is heavy
My stomach is empty
My soul is starved and cursed
Toyed with my feelings
And carved out my eyes
I never saw this coming
Left here to die
And I wonder why
I wonder why
Could I have seen this coming,
Had I known you never loved me,
Would I have changed everything?
Probably not in the end.
If I could go back,
I would choose you,
Time and again.