We've decided we're waiting.
You shouldn't have given me a time frame because now I'm going to count down the days. These weeks will be spent trying not to think about being with you.
Still,
I can't get those memories out of my head.
Our arms brushing against each other as we browse stores.
Your arm around my waist.
Spending an entire afternoon together wordless.
Your hand on the waistband of my jeans.
The feeling of your moans in my mouth.
One last kiss before we get out of bed.
Your hand grabbing mine as we walk to your car.
We've gone two months without seeing each other. This shouldn't be any different, but it is. Then, we were expecting to see each other.
Now, we have a rough deadline.
You could have left it open-ended, and I would have moved on.
All I have to hold on to is today.
The feeling of you on the opposite end of the couch and how immense the space in between us felt.
The lack of eye contact.
Your loss for words.
Our agreement of terms.
Some light banter.
Me catching your gaze for a few fleeting seconds.
Me trying my hardest to resist the urge to kiss you.
The walk to your car.
Your strong embrace before you got into your car.
Me resisting the urge to turn around
and watch you leave.