I'm very different from your typical starryeyed girl


I'm emotional
Very emotional
I often worry that I feel too deeply

And that this quality can devastatingly challenge my happiness

You see when you feel too much
You say too much
You think too much

And you are never given a break.

It's quite funny
How you can go through life
Not knowing what your purpose is

Day by day you wonder
...
What is my future
Is there a future
??

Life is confusing like that
One moment you're feeling on top of the world
The next you're down in hell
Satan calling you closer
Negative thoughts
Cants instead of cans
Doubting yourself
"I won't ever be good enough"

And because of the stupid insecurities you lock away
You never truly will,
Or can,
Be happy.

Young and naive is what they thought
as he was the boy who wouldn't talk

He silently listened to what they said and all he'd do was nod his head.

His gleaming eyes always wide awake;
the boy in the room with so much heartache

They often said he wouldn't succeed for he was different
weak with trembling knees;

But his inner strength, it truly showed the day he spoke out and let them know

He let then know that he was strong
He showed them all that they had been wrong  

Never again would they not believe that a boy so different could not achieve

Today a girl left this earth
After being strong
Battling against the deadly evil
Cancer

And my problems seem big
I have life
The precious gift that so often gets taken for granted

But you see,
we only appreciate what we have when we no longer have it

Sad, I know
But it's how we are

So appreciate everyday that you have
When you wake up
Thank god for your life
And live each day likes its your last

Because you never know when father time will come for you

This morning, the sun peaked from behind the clouds
And as the day went on, it shone brighter
Heat radiating through me
Blushing
Red cheeks
Smiles
Laughter
A brighter day unlike that of yesterdays rain
I didn't see you today
Which made it easier not to think of you
Fool myself that I'm getting over you
Maybe I will
Maybe I won't
Who knows
It's only day two

So there was this boy
He somehow kinda managed to steal my heart
Without even trying
He intrigued me
I began observing and seeing more than he let on
And slowly but surely, the compassion grew
Along with the lust, desire and craving of all things him.
It's been a couple of months now
And I lay here in bed thinking about how dumb I am to have let it get this bad
How could you let someone control you
So sneakily
Without even needing the puppet strings
All it took was the touch of his skin against mine, the smiles, the glances
That's all it took for my chest to burn a fire so bright
Melting my heart
And I was a goner.
Now the chase is over
You know how I feel
And you're waiting for me to beg for more
Act needy?
I think not
I see how this will end.
Though the clouds are still grey
The rain spitting
And the storm rumbling
There is
ALWAYS
A rainbow
And a sunny day that awaits
So keep your chin up, little girl
And wear your pride on your chest
Bc this bullshitting *******
Is no different from the rest

So there was this boy
He somehow kinda managed to steal my heart
Without even trying
He intrigued me
I began observing and seeing more than he let on
And slowly but surely, the compassion grew
Along with the lust, desire and craving of all things him.
It's been a couple of months now
And I lay here in bed thinking about how dumb I am to have let it get this bad
How could you let someone control you
So sneakily
Without even needing the puppet strings
All it took was the touch of his skin against mine, the smiles, the glances
That's all it took for my chest to burn a fire so bright
Melting my heart
And I was a goner.
Now the chase is over
You know how I feel
And you're waiting for me to beg for more
Act needy?
I think not
I see how this will end.
Though the clouds are still grey
The rain spitting
And the storm rumbling
There is
ALWAYS
A rainbow
And a sunny day that awaits
So keep your chin up, little girl
And wear your pride on your chest
Bc this bullshitting *******
Is no different from the rest