Sparks flash
Zap
And I can breathe
The pain hurts so pleasurably

I used to think it was wrong
But how can pure ecstasy be a sin

Maybe I'll bleed
Maybe I'll bruise
Maybe I'll fear

But this time it will be my choice
And not just anyone's

Everyone tells me I have *** eyes
That stare straight into their soul

They turn away from me
Or use me and leave me

But I am just me
Can you see me

Do you want to know me...

Can you hear me

Am I here
Or, am I my stare

ZAP ZAP ZAP
it all fades
into joy
and I am just me
here lying
receiving
being

remembering I am more then *** eyes
and what you want me to be

I may choose to be your puppet
But remember I am also the pulling the strings

Take me as I am

Come and play with me

Dress me up and mess me up

Come and dare to see

I may just be more than *** eyes

that will surely stare into awakening your soul.

Who knows...

I. AM.

Fire and freeeeeee
Sparks and rain
Lust and love
Take me for me

In the flames I met you
And, we were too afraid to turn all we loved into ashes

So we let go

But baby I bleed
And, I seek
And, I need

Is it just me
Or, was I only a muse for you

Just a girl to use for you

Glitter dust

You come to me in my dreams

You tell me this isn't what I think
But have you asked me?

Do you really want to know...
Who you are

Or, will you run before your told

I bleed, I seek, I need

The wounds run deep

But bonds forever untold
You'll always feel me...

Feel meeeee

Sweet precious sky
Teardrops at dawn

Smeared colored eyes
Are gifts you give to me

Look what you've done to us

You called me here
So here I come

Two flames ever burning, ever more

We will always beeeee

You will always feeeel meeeee forevermore

Skies at dawn is what we'll look for

I have never met you
but if I could tell you
It sounds like you were lovely

I get this world is hard
Often times I have been consumed by the darkness

In the pain I see the pleasure
I get you could only feel the pain

I hear the birds chirp
New life begins to emerge

I know you could not see these things
But I want you to know they saw you

If there was ever love
It's love for another who is lost

The love is unconditional and without expectation

In your hurt
There was a world of people
Who loved you

I know some have cried
Some have been angered
Some are frozen
Some will heal
Some may take time

These feelings will not be forgotten

And, the truth is sometimes to be a human is to be lost

Dear one, know you were a friend
Know you were loved
Know the hurt is because you were loved
Know I know you were lost

I do not want to be your Rose
Or your Aphrodite
Don't call me your Muse
Or baby girl
I want you to see me
For the scar on my neck
The wrinkles on my legs
The flab upon belly
I want you to love me when I am depressed
When I am sick, snot overflowing
Perfectly imperfect and a real fcking mess
Buy me flowers when I do not give you ***
I want you to know me to know me
Not because you want or need something from me
I want you to feel with you heart
And, speak with your chest
Because you to know yourself
I want you to love me to love me
Not to know what love is or to have someone to love you
I am so tired of being the girl that enchants a man
Simply because she is a woman
Don't speak to me unless you want to actually listen
Don't say you understand if you do not care to
Don't ask me my dreams, hopes, fears, desires and more if simply for a second you want to escape this madhouse we are all in
I am a woman
Hear me roar
Hear me be reborn
I am not here for you
I am not yours
I am here for my delight
I am here for my amusement
I am here for my joy
My pleasure
My happy ending
You simply get to be a part of my story
But not my whole story
Learn to love because you are love
Learn to grow because you want to evolve
Learn to listen because you want to also be heard
Learn to be in partnership with a woman because you are a man worthy of her

hey there molly
how are you doing tonight
im wild and free just being me
lets get lost in the night
the thing is you cant tame a ****
you gotta let it be
hey there molly
can we dance and stay up all night
maybe kiss the stars
and lie in the grass
oh this feels so right
me and you here tonight
hey there molly
i wish you could see the flowers in your hair
and how much I care
let's sway back and forth
hearts to hearts
you can love free and i'll love me
together forever
soul, spirit and the wind
hey there molly

crimson black roses
and the kiss of death
been avoiding you for most of my life
how did we get here
I see a blank canvas
But no paints to color with
the void has widen
and black nothingness consumes me
the truth
the lies
all the same to me
you wanted me to get here
I am convinced
to feel the nothingness
and the crimson kiss of death
so now I lie
floating in the abyss
no longer able to lie to myself
you can't fool or convince a bullshitter
all the lies and truths combine
there is no right
no wrong
to exist
is to be
and to be is to know
there is nothing left
the end is death.
And, I'll forever question whyyyy?
You needed me to feel this

I have known always how to be the desirable one
I have never known until now to be Desired by myself.