it's crazy what a year and a half can do.

one minute i'm digging a hole,
ready to toss myself in and give up on you.
on us.

and the next minuite i'm back down on the ground.
only now i'm planting beautiful flowers over the grave of what we used to be.  

i buried you deep in that soil.
i'll admit i still water it.
i still keep the weeds out of it.

but winter is coming,
and all i know is that i won't be there for you when it's cold.
just like you weren't there for me.

I kissed bottle after bottle
trying to forget how you tasted
next thing that I knew,
man, I was f^cking wasted.

Standing on a table
screaming at the ceiling
like "why the f^ck aren't you here",
and "why'd you f^cking leave me?"

Bottle after bottle
turned into shot after shot
but I can't forget you
no matter what.

I've read all the books
and I've seen all the "how to's"
but not one of them has helped me
get over you.

I'm trying to move on
and I'm trying to be happy
but no matter what I do
I still feel in love with you.