Call me a hypocrite but i hate it when he's around
because he never does  anything for free this time round
I  just want him to stay away until I  need his help
I guess I have to play  the hand I was dealt
It hurts seeing someone you care about get used
I can see the way you were bruised
I want to mad at you for letting him do this to you
why cant he leave , I hope he catches a clue
He is not welcome here
this hurt I  wish would just disappear

I hate keeping everything inside .
All these emotions are  eating me alive.
I'm just looking for a way to release this hurt .I'm just looking for some advice.
The worst part of it all you are not aware of the damage you're inciting .
The pain I'm feeling is hard describing  .
seeing you hurt is hurting me.
Never thought it would have affected me .
I'm learning to trust people but this is quite difficult .
Everything I've been thought is making me cynical
opening up to others is a harder task .
sometime s being open is too much to ask .

I hate keeping everything inside .
All these emotions are eating me  alive .
I'm just looking for a way to release this hurt , I just need some advice .
The worst part of it all you have no idea of the damage your inciting .
The pain I'm feeling is hard describing . Seeing you hurt is hurting me .
Never thought it would have affected me .
I'm learning to trust people but this is quite difficult .
Everything I've been through is  making me cynical .

Self- confidence is not something so easily obtained .
These negative remarks , opinions  and thoughts remain.
Stabbing at my self-esteem.
Its original state would never be redeemed .
Self-confidence seem only like a dream.
Society and these unrealistic expectations work together as a team.
Bringing my Self-Confidence to its knees .
Trying hard to win against societies'  high  expectations.
But it is a battle I cannot win, just need  a little demonstration .
That shows your skincolor , bodyshape doesn't define you.
That thinner or whiter is better isn't true.
Just give us a clue .

Have someone ever made you feel inferior because of your skin color
Do we not bleed the same color
I long for a world without racism
I am drowning in your insults , results of your  hate and prejudice
our ignorance we must  sacrifice
to make a difference

fear of failure is what holds me back
every failure leaves a crack
in my self-confidence
making me feel incompetent

I feel without purpose
is there something I'm suppose to do
I feel hollow
like darkness is swallowing me whole
sometimes I don't know what is worst ,feeling too much
or feeling nothing at all
I wish I was better at expressing how I feel
but writing seem like my only way to deal