I swear I felt your hand in mine,
Your breath against my neck for a brief moment in time.
I guess my brain is telling me lies,
As it does every night since our August goodbyes.
The silence creeps in through that crack in the wall,
Much like my heart no one’s come to fix it and I continue to fall.
I beg and plead for you to remember our favorite night,
The very same one that we had our first fight.
Do you remember the stars shinning so bright?
A cliché that would be misused on any other night.
We jumped in the water as if it were planned,
No wonder I ever fell in love with such a man.

“Don’t go out there,” she said.
“Why,” I gulped, trying to listen.

As soon as I asked,
I knew.
The spirits had taken over you.

This wasn't the man I wanted;
The one who I found loving and strong.

Maybe I had been mistaken about you,
All along.

I like when you’re all cuddled up with me,
I watch your chest rise and fall so gracefully.

I trace the lines on your stomach,
The crevices that make up your tense back,
As we nuzzle up,
For a well-deserved nap.

Your heartbeat slows,
As your breath quickens.
I still myself,
So I can simply listen.

No happier will I ever be,
Than you lying here next to me.

Slow and painful wins the race,
to a life full of sorrow and disgrace.

I can't go this venture alone.

Please- I beg of you,
pick up the phone.

I need your voice,
the one that smooths and calms.

I need to hear your shallow breathing,
on the end of this call.

I can't bare the thought of being alone.

Like every other girl whose been left alone,
Here I am waiting by this old phone.

I pretend to keep myself occupied,
Because I don’t want anyone to see me cry.
How could you have left me with a simple sigh?
It’s as if you were only awaiting a time to say goodbye.
Today all I have done is tell a million lies,
If only I could hear “I miss you” one more time.

Like every other girl whose been made a fool,
What’s this life if I can’t have you?

Why do I always want someone,
when they're gone?
Why do I find them so alluring,
when we are over and done.

I call you the coward,
you the liar,
you the thief,
you the heart breaker,
but I'm the home wrecker.

I do it on purpose you know,
I lead them on,
tell them I love them,
when I don't.

I said that I would never say I loved someone when I didn't mean it,
but I don't love you.

It's getting dark.
It's getting cold.
I might not love you,
but that doesn't mean feelings can't unfold.

You hold me,
close to your heart.
I wait for your call,
I feel as if I will never part from your arms.

Strange how he's,
no longer apart of me.
You took his place,
faster than the speed my heart does race.