There's so many things I want to say
But words just wont come my way
Choking on me when I try
To pen them where I lie.  
I wish for so many things
I wish to let out my wings
and then I wish that I unwish them all
For I fear I am destined to fall.

But then an epiphany strikes 
That its not just them with spikes
Its more me,  my own folly 
That I let them get to me so jolly
I fell, and I kept falling 
Wanting to get up yet my feet stalling
For if I wouldn't get up I couldn't fall again 
And in that way I could slowly forget my pain

But all I did was hide from it all
Cuz it cannot change the fact of my fall
And although I know that I need to wake up
Its all now theory, hard to follow up
I really want to put myself together 
And make changes that make me better
Cuz those who've stepped on me are happy and fine
But hear I am paying,  for no fault of mine

It shouldn't be this way and I know it true
But its so hard to start something new
Although I know its real good for me
I'm unable to do,  I'm unable to be
To be that person that fixes herself
Although I want no one, its hard by myself
I know I'm my own enemy most days
But I'm gonna try again and walk out of this haze.

I used to read your poems
but lately you don't write
you're silent and aloof
you know that isn't right.
You can't close a door once opened
you can't abolish all your dreams
you're a poet of the heart
mustn't fall apart at the seams.
Say what you can in words
they speak the message true
spoken from the heart
the poems will see you through.
A hermit's not your style
a recluse, you are not
never give up writing
of things that you've been taught.
I used to read your poems
I'd read them once again
if you would send them out
(this one's from a poet friend)

Solitude has been my friend
Far long as I can remember
Shadowing me,  protecting me
Keeping all vice asunder

But loneliness somehow
Found a crack in its shield
Crept in, in silence
And in silence does it wield

Its spears so powerful
So intense and deep
That my heart has no wound to show
Cornered into a gusty weep

Knowing what I now know
There's nowhere for me to go
As I take blow after blow
Fighting again to grow

To stay steady and be strong
With the weight I carry along
Seeing just one face, among
All the people in the throng

My heart had learnt acceptance
And pain was a dull ache
But now it ****** as pins and thorns
A penance for my mistake

One look one touch was all
That was needed for me to fall
So fresh although so long ago
Every moment in recall

Somewhere somehow I was moving
Going on my way
My heart had learnt some silence,  
My mind guided my day

But now in vehemence
My heart reflects it all
Oh how am I to catch myself
When again I am sure to fall