Lance

Lance Mar 2022

My heart always skips a beat
Each time my eyes find you
It's sweet
Yet I hope you knew

I love and wish to spend every waking day with you
How I wish you knew
Yet you like someone new
And no longer see me

Heartaches
Longing and hoping
To have reciprocation
But alas

You may like someone new..

The feeling in your chest that whenever you see that person you like but could never have. The smile in his face knowing you aren't the person making him smile. And lastly knowing that he is falling for someone else.

#wonder #love #unreciprocated #longing

Lance Mar 2022

When to let go

Falling was the easiest.
Staying wasn't even that hard
Despite what they say.

The most difficult?
Knowing when to stop
and let go

It ****** a lot to not have it all.
It might've been different
It might have changed

If decisions were made
and things changed.

But I guess that's life's ultimate joke
To play you
and to remind you

It was never on your side..

To the readers, Live life to its fullest. Always choose what makes things grow around you or to you. Never make a decision youll regret not doing. Ever.

#remorse #love #heartbreak

Lance Nov 2021

Gift of hope

When the day draws to a closure.
I am reminded of the loneliness
the despair
and my self-destruction that is beyond repair

Despite the unwillingness to keep going
I am reminded of the friends
That is now family

Wrapped around it
Is hope
Of a bright new day
And a grip on a future

A future where I keep going
And from there lying it its wake
Is strength
To keep going

This pandemic brought so much loneliness to many people. It brought despair in its wake. But despite such unwarranted feelings, We are reminded of friends turned family to keep pushing, keep striving, and have us grounded. Because to have them in our lives is to have a grip on our own to keep going.

#friends #hope #future #love #family

Lance Oct 2021

Nightly terrors

As darkness takes hold
Light falters in its wake
Gasping for air
Choking, Unable to breathe

I awake
In the coldest of sweat
Wishing Better dreams

But I realized
Each time I wake
I am still asleep

Writhing
Screaming
To wake up

Lately, I have found myself waking up in cold sweat. Like my sleep predominates with nightmares. Always wishing for the sweetest of dreams and yet never having one

#sleep #nightmares #darkness #wake

Lance May 2021

We yearn for..

A mother's love
A father's warmth
A sister's support

3 things I wish to acquire
But never require
Yet wanting to transpire

A hug
A simple "congratulations"
A simple "I'm proud of you"

3 things a child only wishes to be received
Yet so far to be achieved.

An "I love you my child"
Is all I ask...

But they were never up to task...

The thing about the pandemic is that it exposes the harsh reality we aren't meant to figure out. A falling out of a family we thought was held together. Only to be broken from the inside. I wanted to have a good family. A family that was proud of what I had become only to receive such disdain and disappointment each time.

#achievement #appreciation #love #family #broken #sadness #sad

Lance Jan 2021

What Keeps you up

What keeps you up, young one?
Is it the chatter of the night?
Or the dread of the coming dawn?

What keeps you up?
Is it the dread of what comes ahead?
Or the future you wish but may never suffice?

What keeps you up dear one?
Is it a nightmare ahead?
or a reality coming to materialize?

What keeps you up dear one?

Ever since the lockdown, I developed insomnia for which my body decides to sleep at 4am each time and wake up horribly for chores at 9 am. Apparently its usually due to multiple cases of problems. Be it the chores of the day or exams ahead.

#insomnia #sleepless #sleep #dream

Lance Dec 2020

Kilometer Zero

Like the Center of a country
Our love is the center of it all
Distance is measured here.
And see how far it goes.

Our origin.
Our home
and the place that started it all

May we never forget
And always remember

The Distance and the center of where we started.

Inspiration from a series called "Gaya sa Pelikula" or in English "Like in the Movies", Kilometer Zero or Kilometro 0 is where a starting point of measure for distance takes place.. Many countries contain such.

As symbolisms go it can also measure a person's love for each other and always remember where it has all started.

#love #life #distance #length #time