i press and press
deeper and deeper
watching the layers liquefy, dissolving

cracks  cracks  cracks

it's never enough

i found out
today that i hate you










so im going to spend every waking minute trying to hide you

I went to see you yesterday


u reminded me why I stopped
loving you

u remind me why i carry 9 pills wherever I go

im leaving soon
so imma share every moment with you
because im selfish and i want it to hurt

MY hands
MY hair
MY skin

"my choice"

u dress me up like a little ******* doll
pinks and blues,
lipgloss and holeless socks
sweetened words and subtle pokes

i never really liked the dreamhouse

MY legs
MY arms
MY midriff

i hate feeling like a mannequin
a *******  o b j e c t