I’ve met these few,
Lifetime friends,
At school it’s true,
But they met ends,
They won’t help and you knew,
I’m not one for trends,
So keep me away,
I dare you,
I guess it’s too late,
For you,

I’ll stay awake,
I’ll lay asleep,
I’ll stay in your wake,
I’ll lay and I’ll weep,
We aren’t all happy,
But aren’t all sad,
Its a weird mix of three,
Content being bad,

I wish I could fear,
Wish I could touch,
Wish that I could stop,
Loving you so much
I know you were the best,
Best I ever had,
Wish that the good,
Outweighed the bad,
Then I’ll never,
Get closer,
Until you tell me,
“It’s over”

I understand,
People don’t see,
I tend to rant,
On my poetry,
But it’s not for you,
Reading my piece,
It’s for my view,
My inner peace.

Just wanted to say,
Thank you,
For all those days,
You’ve all kept me alive, really
You don’t even know it,
But now I’m not my own species!

All this support,
All this help,
It stuck with me like a wart,
When I needed it the most!

So I thank every last comment,
For what you’ve done,
Changed a life,
Maybe more than one.

But my death is inevitable,
I am impatient,
Just know you’ve helped,
Just know you’ve tried,
Just know eventually,
I will have to suicide

Am I happy?
Am I sad?
Is this good?
Is this bad?

These are all my questions,
I want help but,
I'm not open to suggestions.
I want peace,
I want life,
I want truth,
I want to be happy,
through all of my youth

When people say they love you,
They might be lying,
When you feel blue,
They'll keep trying,

But then it'll break,
You stare through the lake,
The secrets it hides,
Leave you sleep deprived,
Searching,
Needing an answer,
Waiting,
Needing an answer,

Then,
Lost the question,
Searching to no avail,
No need to persist,
No need to remember,
Remember when you kissed,

I know people,
who are determined,
to leave this world,
They'd rather take life,
Than give meaning to others.
Help themselves,
Open themselves to a lover.
Trials of life,
and I'm screaming for another