Fear Closes in, Shadows become darker.
My life is full of disappointment and despair.

The sun no longer shines for me,
Its been missing for some time.
I feel like I am paying for someone else's crime.

I wake up in the morning,
feeling as tired as wehn I went to sleep.
Every part of my body hurts
As I lay here and weep.

What do you do when you feel this way?
When you no longer want to try,
When everything inside of you wants to give up and die?

Night turns to day and day turns to night,
And every second I am slipping,
Wanting to give up this never ending fight.

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Rsifafh setps
porepl the dsut
taht dfirts
bweeten the eras
Sintfig in
from pelaruse's csrut
taht hpaes
ingreod for yraes
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Tohguh cwebobs mcok mtautriy
tehy ptcunuate the fraes
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Wehn srorow sintgs ...
RTELIAY
~
Tehn wosidm
gwros from traes
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that day, wehn we looked at each other, we were used to on the cheek, forehead, or hand, but you said you had missed. and now it's like second nature to know when you want to. but now, I look forward to seeing you, not just for the kiss.

the way you kiss me though makes my hands tremble, arms shake and knees quiver. when you kissed my neck the other day I just wanted to look at you and tell you...
tell you how much I love you

I can't percisely place wehn I fell in love.
                    I suppose it's rarely that clear when like moves to infactuation moves to love, but
it happened.

I had anticipated a prince, I was conditioned to a frog, and I got a lifeline
                                                        ­                                a reason to wake each morning.
                         A reason to work through the difficult days and the lose-lose fights.
             For you
                            
                        It's give and take.
                                  We bring out the best in one another,
   But you aren't exactly what everyone had picked out for me.
                Perhaps these things truly can't be picked,
                                          It's more of a stumble,
                                                        ­                                             without anticipation
     I don't need a ring to say I'm devoted to  you, devoted for always

                                            Until death do us part.

You make me better than I was the day before
                                  I'm in love with all you offer and all you inspire me to be.

It's 22 years this winter.

                 So far it's been one hell of a ride - here's to fifty more my lovely

XOXO