I dip my pain and misery in glitter
to blind you by the colors of joy
but you’ve called my bluff
you looked close enough to see
washed out colors
'‘Why didn’t you tell me?’'
ashamed I look down
because I too
was blinded by all the glitter
so desperately I wanted to be who I’ve always been
so I held on to it
I kept it there for people to see
that I wasn’t
completely broken
''maybe I could even convince myself
that I was okay''
I said